last night, my friend eric and i went out dancing. we couldn't convince jeremy to go. he says "i'm a gamer not a dancer." as if that were a real excuse. anyhow, we went to this place called midnight rodeo. my compromise with my friend is that if i go country dancing with him, he'll go clubbing with me. so we got to this place i knew i was going to feel totally odd in...nothing but white cowboy girls and boys...and your hand picked selection of hoochies.
i got to learn the two step, the polka, and the waltz. i also picked up a few spins and extra moves as well. it's a pretty fun dance. i like it because it has rhythm and structure. i like both kinds of dancing. the place had a band called emotions. they sang great country music but every other song they would sing some raps. the guy came out singing 50cent, then eminem, then nelly, b2k, vanilla ice, and baby got back. it was way wrong. just because you can say the words doesn't mean you should sing it.
what was even more of a hoot was watching all these white hicks try to dance to r&b. they wouldn't dance but rather "strut"... basically, it was that kind of shake shake wiggle wiggle thing people do that you see on tv a lot. it's not a full expression but rather, here i am, look at me. it's kind of cute actually. i loved watching all the chicks strut their stuff.
we left when i started to get really crowded because then you're not really country dancing, you're slow dancing.
today, jeremy took off half a day so we're going to go see finding nemo and go out for lunch.
Friday, May 30, 2003
Thursday, May 29, 2003
15 gay bachelors
http://www.cnn.com/2003/SHOWBIZ/TV/05/27/television.bravo.reut/index.html
there's this new reality show on bravo that was supposed to air a few days ago. it features one gay man looking for love and supposedly 15 potential bachelors to choose from. however, some of those bachelors (the amount is undisclosed to the public) are straight men. the producers of the show are saying that this kind of reality show will begin to allow viewers to explore male stereotypes.
i think it's a sham. i don't think you can truly understand male behavior when you know that half the men are behaving the way they are because they are paid actors. i think this is another one of those shows that should have been a pivotal movement in our society but has turned into a circus. of course, this just goes to show that gay and straight people alike have their fair share of idiots.
there's this new reality show on bravo that was supposed to air a few days ago. it features one gay man looking for love and supposedly 15 potential bachelors to choose from. however, some of those bachelors (the amount is undisclosed to the public) are straight men. the producers of the show are saying that this kind of reality show will begin to allow viewers to explore male stereotypes.
i think it's a sham. i don't think you can truly understand male behavior when you know that half the men are behaving the way they are because they are paid actors. i think this is another one of those shows that should have been a pivotal movement in our society but has turned into a circus. of course, this just goes to show that gay and straight people alike have their fair share of idiots.
Wednesday, May 28, 2003
5% of lj users are paid accounts
i got a notice today saying that my live journal is up in ten days. i forgot how much it costs to renew. it didn't seem like much as i remember. i'll probably renew it even though it has been annoying as hell to use these past few weeks. i was reading their statistics they have up on their main page. apparently only 5% of live journal users have a paid account. wow. that's sad. it's too bad they don't do something to make sure their paid users are more satisfied. they would probably lose less of them. it's some really great software. i just think their systems are getting overloaded.
i guess i'm bummed at it because i'm losing two GREAT lj friends. LJ is a great way to keep up with people you probably wouldn't really get to know otherwise. i keep my friends list pretty small. i think i've found an interesting eclectic group of people to keep my curiosity palette satisfied.
well. gonna either go fold clothes or play wolf 3d.
i guess i'm bummed at it because i'm losing two GREAT lj friends. LJ is a great way to keep up with people you probably wouldn't really get to know otherwise. i keep my friends list pretty small. i think i've found an interesting eclectic group of people to keep my curiosity palette satisfied.
well. gonna either go fold clothes or play wolf 3d.
jeremy's morning.
every morning, jeremy gets up around 6:30am. he puts on his clothes for work, brushes his teeth, combs his hair, pee pees, and puts on cologne. not necessarily in that order though. he then gives me kisses and says "love you, see you this afternoon." then i try to say through my sleepiness, "miss you, have a good day." then he replies. "miss you more, love you." after he says good bye, he goes downstairs and greets the kitties. he makes himself a lunch then heads off to work. by leaving so early he accomplishes two things. 1) there's no traffic on the road to deal with. 2) he gets to come home from work at 3pm.
i can't give you a play by play of his day at work specifically. i'm not sure what goes on all day. some of it is top secret stuff. i know he works on code, goes to meetings, eats lunch while he's working, and gets free cokes and snacks. when he's got no work on his lap, he surfs the net and reads current events and chats with me.
on most days, well every day but this one, he'd be home only hours after i had just gotten up. today is different because i actually got up when he woke me up to say goodbye.
i'm actually watching the sunrise outside my window while typing this entry. i'm not looking at the sun directly because that hurts but i can see the light changing outside and in the room. it's nice and now i have the whole day to utilize or waste. :)
good morning sunshine.
i can't give you a play by play of his day at work specifically. i'm not sure what goes on all day. some of it is top secret stuff. i know he works on code, goes to meetings, eats lunch while he's working, and gets free cokes and snacks. when he's got no work on his lap, he surfs the net and reads current events and chats with me.
on most days, well every day but this one, he'd be home only hours after i had just gotten up. today is different because i actually got up when he woke me up to say goodbye.
i'm actually watching the sunrise outside my window while typing this entry. i'm not looking at the sun directly because that hurts but i can see the light changing outside and in the room. it's nice and now i have the whole day to utilize or waste. :)
good morning sunshine.
Tuesday, May 27, 2003
wolf 3d crack server
wohoo. found a crack server to join to play wolf 3d. my brother, chris, and jeremy played for till about midnight then chris and jeremy had to crash for work tomorrow. john left after that to work on computers. i stayed and played till 3am learning new maps. i sucked but it's all a good learning experience. the players were pretty cool about newbs so good for me.
now i need some wind down time before bed.
"hey, aren't you supposed to be working on your portfolio and resume?"
"yeah, so?"
"just checking."
":P"
now i need some wind down time before bed.
"hey, aren't you supposed to be working on your portfolio and resume?"
"yeah, so?"
"just checking."
":P"
Monday, May 26, 2003
memorial weekend
memorial weekend was pretty good. the lan party Friday was pretty fun. i was content playing wolf 3d all night but other people wanted to try battlefield 1942. it took them like 2 hours to get that set up for everyone. we ended up playing till 4:30am or so. i didn't get to sleep till 6am that night. the next day, my brother was supposed to go back to bmt. he had come up to austin for the party. however, he ended up staying for another night. our attempts at getting another lan party going that night failed miserably but we figured something else out instead.
our friend eric came out to our place and we had six computers ready to play wolf 3d but we only had 4 at the condo. my brother and his friend were able to figure out how to login and join our game so that made 6 all together. we played a couple of 2 v 4 games until 4:30am again. my brother and jeremy are a pretty good team. jeremy is an excellent sniper and john is efficient at assaults.
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Sunday morning, my brother left. jeremy didn't get up till well after noon. we called our friends up and somehow got everyone together for a picnic up north. we brought hamburgers, hotdogs, chips, condiments, brownies, and a frisbee. it took us a while to get the barbeque pit going because it had no vents to allow airflow. once we got a miniature hand held fan infront of it, the coals finally got hot. mmmm... then the bbq was underway.. yummmmy! after we stuffed ourselves, we played frisbee in the park for an hour or so. i suck at it. jeremy was throwing the thing under his legs and catching it backwards. i'd toss the thing out and it would go in the opposite direction.
after the exercise, we stopped by this snow cone shack that was in the park. i got a strawberry snow cone. it actually wasn't a snow cone but shaved ice..which is ten times better. it was delicious. i can't believe how much they charge for ice though! it's a scam.
the guys ended up playing risk till late that night. i headed back home and unloaded the picnic stuff, took a shower, and played some wolf-3d single player.
our friend eric came out to our place and we had six computers ready to play wolf 3d but we only had 4 at the condo. my brother and his friend were able to figure out how to login and join our game so that made 6 all together. we played a couple of 2 v 4 games until 4:30am again. my brother and jeremy are a pretty good team. jeremy is an excellent sniper and john is efficient at assaults.
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Sunday morning, my brother left. jeremy didn't get up till well after noon. we called our friends up and somehow got everyone together for a picnic up north. we brought hamburgers, hotdogs, chips, condiments, brownies, and a frisbee. it took us a while to get the barbeque pit going because it had no vents to allow airflow. once we got a miniature hand held fan infront of it, the coals finally got hot. mmmm... then the bbq was underway.. yummmmy! after we stuffed ourselves, we played frisbee in the park for an hour or so. i suck at it. jeremy was throwing the thing under his legs and catching it backwards. i'd toss the thing out and it would go in the opposite direction.
after the exercise, we stopped by this snow cone shack that was in the park. i got a strawberry snow cone. it actually wasn't a snow cone but shaved ice..which is ten times better. it was delicious. i can't believe how much they charge for ice though! it's a scam.
the guys ended up playing risk till late that night. i headed back home and unloaded the picnic stuff, took a shower, and played some wolf-3d single player.
Friday, May 23, 2003
network party
i'm at my friend eric's place right now. our computers are all set up now. we're getting ready for the network gaming to begin. some of the guys went out go get liquor. i don't much care for alchy but i'll have my diet dr. pepper.
quite possibly by tonight, we could have 10 people playing. the place is hot already and the thermostat is set to 70. suckage. too bad it's not my place, i'd sacrifice one night of a high electricity bill so that others do not have to suffer. :) i just don't want to complain too much. i know that throwing a network party can be a bitch.
doop doop doop.. just waiting around.
we're waiting for two more people to show up to begin.
i don't know where they're going to sit because we took up the main table.
doop doop doop..
quite possibly by tonight, we could have 10 people playing. the place is hot already and the thermostat is set to 70. suckage. too bad it's not my place, i'd sacrifice one night of a high electricity bill so that others do not have to suffer. :) i just don't want to complain too much. i know that throwing a network party can be a bitch.
doop doop doop.. just waiting around.
we're waiting for two more people to show up to begin.
i don't know where they're going to sit because we took up the main table.
doop doop doop..
Thursday, May 22, 2003
murder and rape in movies
this is an era of extremes. where we have come to the last stance. money or bust. and in the bid for money, networks and movie studios are after control of the public's attention. we've gone so low that i don't think we can go much lower. reality tv is probably as low as it gets before we start having paid per view executions.
and in this ruckus of shock tv and shock thriller, i'm glad i have not been completely desensitized. i'm glad there is a part of me that can't stand to watch murder scenes that show the actual murder where victims are screaming or pleading for their lives. i'm glad that watching rape on the screen makes leaves me emotionally racked for days. the implication of these things are okay for me because these are real life events. however, the actually re-enactment of them for profit is disgusting to me. art comes in many forms, i know. i'm fascinated by brutal prints myself. but having a moment of morbidness or pain captured in a single moment is still just an abstraction of the horror. it is not the real thing.
i mean. you wonder why they'll show women getting raped on cable but they freak out when two men make out. there is a certain mystery to what we are willing to tolerate. i know a lot of people enjoy seeing these things on tv or in movies. i know i enjoy watching action and gun fights. i liked saving private ryan up until the point where one of the soldiers is getting stabbed. the character is obviously staring at his own demise and you can see it in his eyes that he's fighting to resist it. i can't stand it. i really can't. the general's daughter, while i liked the plot, had major scenes which truly effected me. i had serious emotional breakdowns after watching that movie.
they don't show children being raped or molested on the screen. why? one, it could be that it is seriously illegal. two, society is just not ready to sink that low. three, it is just fundamentally wrong.
i'm a product of the social morals that i've been taught to embrace. there is no universal right or wrong, there is no real evil in this world. but there is a desire for life and health. i'm willing to defend that.
and in this ruckus of shock tv and shock thriller, i'm glad i have not been completely desensitized. i'm glad there is a part of me that can't stand to watch murder scenes that show the actual murder where victims are screaming or pleading for their lives. i'm glad that watching rape on the screen makes leaves me emotionally racked for days. the implication of these things are okay for me because these are real life events. however, the actually re-enactment of them for profit is disgusting to me. art comes in many forms, i know. i'm fascinated by brutal prints myself. but having a moment of morbidness or pain captured in a single moment is still just an abstraction of the horror. it is not the real thing.
i mean. you wonder why they'll show women getting raped on cable but they freak out when two men make out. there is a certain mystery to what we are willing to tolerate. i know a lot of people enjoy seeing these things on tv or in movies. i know i enjoy watching action and gun fights. i liked saving private ryan up until the point where one of the soldiers is getting stabbed. the character is obviously staring at his own demise and you can see it in his eyes that he's fighting to resist it. i can't stand it. i really can't. the general's daughter, while i liked the plot, had major scenes which truly effected me. i had serious emotional breakdowns after watching that movie.
they don't show children being raped or molested on the screen. why? one, it could be that it is seriously illegal. two, society is just not ready to sink that low. three, it is just fundamentally wrong.
i'm a product of the social morals that i've been taught to embrace. there is no universal right or wrong, there is no real evil in this world. but there is a desire for life and health. i'm willing to defend that.
coming out of the closet, my junk
i thought i'd take on a massive undertaking today. i tried to organize the closet. let me just say that this one day ordeal is turning into a two day ordeal. sorting through all of the junk took forever and i'm only done with one side right now. i still have jeremy's half, my coats, boxes of games, and suitcases to go through. i'd kill for a walk-in closet right now.
i was watching the news and noticed that there was a decrease in mortgage rates again. now is the time to buy a house. unfortunately, we don't have any money to put down for a down payment. we need roughly a year and a half of savings from me working. i probably won't get a full time job till the end of the summer at least.
since i cleared out a good portion of my side of the closet, i decided i needed more t-shirts for the summer. i went to old navy this afternoon and bought two more cotton t-shirts. while i was there, i got jeremy a short sleeved collared shirt as well as two sleeveless shirts for basketball and basketball shorts.
i thought i might be done with the closet after jeremy got back from basketball but i was still in the muck of it. we had chicken ceasar salads for dinner and jeremy rented treasure planet. it was terribly boring disney flick..much like the rest of them. i think the last one that came out that i liked was lilo and stitch. i think i'll see that nemo movie too when it comes out on video. it seems like all their good work is going into the computer animated features.
we're having a network party tomorrow! wohooo! gonna play wolf 3-d hopefully with 4v4 or even possibly 5v5. there was also talk of a game called 1942. it sounded interesting. we're playing at our friend eric's place so we have to haul up two computers, two monitors, a folding table, and a lap top. wish i had a lap top. hell, a flat panel would be nice as well. i don't mind hauling my computer around. it's the monitor that is a bitch to get a grip on.
don't know what to do now. i'm either going to take a shower, finish cleaning the closet, or play on my computer some more.
i was watching the news and noticed that there was a decrease in mortgage rates again. now is the time to buy a house. unfortunately, we don't have any money to put down for a down payment. we need roughly a year and a half of savings from me working. i probably won't get a full time job till the end of the summer at least.
since i cleared out a good portion of my side of the closet, i decided i needed more t-shirts for the summer. i went to old navy this afternoon and bought two more cotton t-shirts. while i was there, i got jeremy a short sleeved collared shirt as well as two sleeveless shirts for basketball and basketball shorts.
i thought i might be done with the closet after jeremy got back from basketball but i was still in the muck of it. we had chicken ceasar salads for dinner and jeremy rented treasure planet. it was terribly boring disney flick..much like the rest of them. i think the last one that came out that i liked was lilo and stitch. i think i'll see that nemo movie too when it comes out on video. it seems like all their good work is going into the computer animated features.
we're having a network party tomorrow! wohooo! gonna play wolf 3-d hopefully with 4v4 or even possibly 5v5. there was also talk of a game called 1942. it sounded interesting. we're playing at our friend eric's place so we have to haul up two computers, two monitors, a folding table, and a lap top. wish i had a lap top. hell, a flat panel would be nice as well. i don't mind hauling my computer around. it's the monitor that is a bitch to get a grip on.
don't know what to do now. i'm either going to take a shower, finish cleaning the closet, or play on my computer some more.
memorial day picnic
i want to have a picnic this weekend. how's this menu sound? we just need to find a good park with a barbeque pit.
Wednesday, May 21, 2003
live journal on the rocks
ugh. i agree with , lj is major suckage right now. it takes me five tries to actually login to live journal. then it takes me 5 to 6 tries of waiting and waiting to get to my friend's page. then when i post, it fails 2 out of 3 times. i now have to copy what i wrote just incase it doesn't go through.
since the unpaid accounts are so useless now with limited posts and what not, why don't they ditch the unpaid accounts and concentrate on the money maker. i like the idea of the open forum, the idea that i know my thoughts are getting out there. live journal for me is more like sharing than just writing. i put my more private thoughts on another page. however, i get so frustrated trying to post and read other people's posts that i don't know if it is worth it.
but they've been going through phases like these and they seem to pass. i hope this one passes too and they get their shit together.
since the unpaid accounts are so useless now with limited posts and what not, why don't they ditch the unpaid accounts and concentrate on the money maker. i like the idea of the open forum, the idea that i know my thoughts are getting out there. live journal for me is more like sharing than just writing. i put my more private thoughts on another page. however, i get so frustrated trying to post and read other people's posts that i don't know if it is worth it.
but they've been going through phases like these and they seem to pass. i hope this one passes too and they get their shit together.
i marked it on my calendar....
aaah.. i'm such a loser. i forgot to renew my web host account last night. i sent an email to their billing department to renew me for another three months if possible. if not, renew me for another year. i was supposed to find another hosting service that supports asp.net. oh well, at least i remembered to renew my domain. i keep trying to think of domain names to use for my architecture portfolio since i want to have one online. i don't want to put the portfolio on my zerolife.com account because i don't want potential employers looking at my personal site.
i'm an idiot but at least it is not my entire fault. they aid the account expired may 21 but i thought that meant i had till today to renew it. oh well. what is done is done. i'm pretty sure all the same data is on my computer. should be anyhow.
i'm an idiot but at least it is not my entire fault. they aid the account expired may 21 but i thought that meant i had till today to renew it. oh well. what is done is done. i'm pretty sure all the same data is on my computer. should be anyhow.
Tuesday, May 20, 2003
no idol but a clean room
i ended up not watching american idol. i spent the entire evening cleaning up my brother's room from start to finish, from organizing to vacuuming. there's something about living in a more aesthetically pleasing environment that makes a clean home better. i feel better anyhow even though i don't use my brother's room. at least i know i can if i wanted to. on to my room next. first thing i have to do is figure out what wall hangings will go out into the trash and which will stay..then i'll move down from there. i'm going to do my best to get rid of most of my junk.
jeremy and eric came back all sweaty and stinky. shower and then go eat is the plan. they were both excited about having played basketball because enough people showed up so they could play a real game at full court. i've played basketball once or twice for a real game, usually two on two, and it is a really good workout.
after playing basketball and pointing to his stomach, jeremy says, "three times a week, this bad boy is gonna disappear. glub glub will be gone. hi ho tight stomach to jeremy."
hehe. anyhow. i'm about to fill my stomach up with some food. we saw this home country kitchen restaurant off the highway the other day. we might have to try that out.
did anyone watch american idol? was it the usual? anything good happen?
jeremy and eric came back all sweaty and stinky. shower and then go eat is the plan. they were both excited about having played basketball because enough people showed up so they could play a real game at full court. i've played basketball once or twice for a real game, usually two on two, and it is a really good workout.
after playing basketball and pointing to his stomach, jeremy says, "three times a week, this bad boy is gonna disappear. glub glub will be gone. hi ho tight stomach to jeremy."
hehe. anyhow. i'm about to fill my stomach up with some food. we saw this home country kitchen restaurant off the highway the other day. we might have to try that out.
did anyone watch american idol? was it the usual? anything good happen?
super pants and american idol: the fat conflict
my friend eric has one of those jobs that has a crazy scheduling program that is both good and bad. he works 12 hour shifts for three days then gets two days off. he then works two days after that and then gets three days off. anyhow, today was one of his two days off and he called up to see i wanted to do something for lunch. we ended up grabbing a sandwich at subway. we ended up discussing movies today since he's one of the few friends i know that liked the matrix like me. we were trying to dissect why and why we don't like some actors.
afterwards, we went shopping at the mall. he was looking for a gift for a friend's wedding present and i was looking for clothes. i really wanted to get some more black cotton t-shirts. i know it's a very plain jane style to have but i just like simplicity in my clothes...but admire flare in other people's clothes.
so many of the sales were annoying. "i'm sorry, only this part of the shelf is on sale" "only the long sleeves were on sale" "that special only applies to the black jeans"
shopping can be so frustrating sometimes. i ended up getting a pair of jeans and two cotton t-shirts. i also got jeremy some slacks for work and two shirts. as i was getting rung up for the slacks, the woman was like "oh these pants are cool. they're those stain resistant, water resistant ones like the commercial. we had these up on the counter when they first came out and put water on them. we had them up for 6 hours and the water never sunk in." this provided for a nice little experiment when i got home. i told jeremy to try them on and come downstairs so i could see them. while he was changing, i got a huge glass of water and pretended to be drinking it when he came downstairs. when he came down i asked him how it fit and all. he said it was good and he liked them. i then asked him to come outside with me because i had something to talk to him about. since our friend eric was there, it sounded like i had something to say about our guest. when we got outside i looked up at him then WHAM i chucked the glass of water at his pants. SPLOOSH. the water rolled off his pants like butter. i got his socks wet though.
you should have seen his face. hehe. it was great. i think he thought i was crazy. before he could say "are you nuts!?" he was like "WOAH..that's cool!" hehe. so yeah, i had fun with pants today.
jeremy and eric just left to go play basketball. i'm contemplating on starting to clean my brother's room this evening. i might just start on it a little. at 7pm, i'm watching american idol. i have a morbid fascination with that show. i know it's completely phony and manipulative but i just can't help it. i'm hoping that clay wins even though i think reuben has a great voice. i'm mostly bitter against reuben because although he's overweight, simon never said anything to him because he's a guy. at the same time, simon told two of the female competitors that they needed to lose weight even though i didn't think they were overweight at all. i thought they looked good. i'm disgusted that women have to be portrayed as little busty wafers while men can look like complete slobs and get away with it. so yea, i'm a little biased. reuben breaks a sweat standing up. he is overweight. that's the truth. the females looked good and did not need to lose weight. bitter bitter pill.
afterwards, we went shopping at the mall. he was looking for a gift for a friend's wedding present and i was looking for clothes. i really wanted to get some more black cotton t-shirts. i know it's a very plain jane style to have but i just like simplicity in my clothes...but admire flare in other people's clothes.
so many of the sales were annoying. "i'm sorry, only this part of the shelf is on sale" "only the long sleeves were on sale" "that special only applies to the black jeans"
shopping can be so frustrating sometimes. i ended up getting a pair of jeans and two cotton t-shirts. i also got jeremy some slacks for work and two shirts. as i was getting rung up for the slacks, the woman was like "oh these pants are cool. they're those stain resistant, water resistant ones like the commercial. we had these up on the counter when they first came out and put water on them. we had them up for 6 hours and the water never sunk in." this provided for a nice little experiment when i got home. i told jeremy to try them on and come downstairs so i could see them. while he was changing, i got a huge glass of water and pretended to be drinking it when he came downstairs. when he came down i asked him how it fit and all. he said it was good and he liked them. i then asked him to come outside with me because i had something to talk to him about. since our friend eric was there, it sounded like i had something to say about our guest. when we got outside i looked up at him then WHAM i chucked the glass of water at his pants. SPLOOSH. the water rolled off his pants like butter. i got his socks wet though.
you should have seen his face. hehe. it was great. i think he thought i was crazy. before he could say "are you nuts!?" he was like "WOAH..that's cool!" hehe. so yeah, i had fun with pants today.
jeremy and eric just left to go play basketball. i'm contemplating on starting to clean my brother's room this evening. i might just start on it a little. at 7pm, i'm watching american idol. i have a morbid fascination with that show. i know it's completely phony and manipulative but i just can't help it. i'm hoping that clay wins even though i think reuben has a great voice. i'm mostly bitter against reuben because although he's overweight, simon never said anything to him because he's a guy. at the same time, simon told two of the female competitors that they needed to lose weight even though i didn't think they were overweight at all. i thought they looked good. i'm disgusted that women have to be portrayed as little busty wafers while men can look like complete slobs and get away with it. so yea, i'm a little biased. reuben breaks a sweat standing up. he is overweight. that's the truth. the females looked good and did not need to lose weight. bitter bitter pill.
squeeeshy fishy
http://news.bbc.co.uk/2/hi/europe/3040891.stm
Liquidising goldfish 'not a crime'
An art display which invited the public to put live
goldfish through a food blender did not constitute
cruelty to animals, a Danish court has ruled.
BBC May 19th, 2003
Liquidising goldfish 'not a crime'
An art display which invited the public to put live
goldfish through a food blender did not constitute
cruelty to animals, a Danish court has ruled.
BBC May 19th, 2003
Monday, May 19, 2003
martha stewart and the mavericks
had sloppy joes tonight for dinner. i don't know how jeremy does it sometimes. he comes home from work and does chores and then cooks a meal. after i get home from a day, the last thing i want to do is more work. i still do my fair share, i think but the scale is definitely tipped sometimes.
after we ate, i decided i needed to do some walking. this sitting at home all day in front of the computer is making me feel out of shape. it is amazing how much a little walking each day does for a person health wise. so we walked around the block two times then headed back inside. the mavs vs spurs game was about to start as we got in but then i realised that the martha stewart movie was going to come on nbc tonight. i ran upstairs and was able to watch it in the bedroom. :) i have no idea why but i have a strange fascination with that woman. it's like any woman who can build a billion dollar business and still make a delicous cinnemon cranberry muffin is tops in my book. i also love the idea that she as a REAL person stands against the suburban lifestyle yet she has related to millions of suburban housewives across the nation. that woman has talent. again, i have some morbid fascination with personalities that harbor some obssessive compulsive nature to them.
the movie ended during half time of the basketball game so jeremy and i went walking again for another two laps. i didn't want to watch the game for fear of jinxing the mavs. but jeremy begged me watch the end of the game and sure enough, the mavs were able to win. horrah. victory dance. they made 49 out of 50 free throw shots and they only had 67 seconds of actual time where they were leading in the game. amazing and weird.
after we ate, i decided i needed to do some walking. this sitting at home all day in front of the computer is making me feel out of shape. it is amazing how much a little walking each day does for a person health wise. so we walked around the block two times then headed back inside. the mavs vs spurs game was about to start as we got in but then i realised that the martha stewart movie was going to come on nbc tonight. i ran upstairs and was able to watch it in the bedroom. :) i have no idea why but i have a strange fascination with that woman. it's like any woman who can build a billion dollar business and still make a delicous cinnemon cranberry muffin is tops in my book. i also love the idea that she as a REAL person stands against the suburban lifestyle yet she has related to millions of suburban housewives across the nation. that woman has talent. again, i have some morbid fascination with personalities that harbor some obssessive compulsive nature to them.
the movie ended during half time of the basketball game so jeremy and i went walking again for another two laps. i didn't want to watch the game for fear of jinxing the mavs. but jeremy begged me watch the end of the game and sure enough, the mavs were able to win. horrah. victory dance. they made 49 out of 50 free throw shots and they only had 67 seconds of actual time where they were leading in the game. amazing and weird.
scrub a tub tub
after we got back from the movie yesterday, i decided to do a huge clean of the bathrooms. i put on my rubber gloves and got to work scrubbing everything down and making everything shiny. i can actually use my brother's restroom now. horray.
so i took the clean bathrooms as an opportunity to update the house tour.
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i also updated the other pictures. i found that if i switched to a smaller point size, i could fit more text in. i spent the remainder of the night working on archiving all of my old live journal posts.
so i took the clean bathrooms as an opportunity to update the house tour.
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i also updated the other pictures. i found that if i switched to a smaller point size, i could fit more text in. i spent the remainder of the night working on archiving all of my old live journal posts.
matrix reloaded
okay. so yesterday morning jeremy and i went to go see the matrix. i didn't know what to expect since i had read some pretty bad reviews and also heard some so-so remarks from friends that had watched. i think only one of my friends recommended it highly. i was going to see it regardless.
i remember sitting there wondering when i would become numb to the movie or find it dull or boring. fortunately for me, i loved every minute of the movie. i thought it was terrific. i thought if the matrix was good sex, then reloaded is the triple orgasm. :)
once again, the movie started out with some fast paced action staring the original opener...trinity. i kept thinking that the CG was incredible. i think a lot of people take digital effects for granted. it's some hard shit to do and takes an incredible amount of forethought and know how. anyhow, i was very impressed. the costumes were wonderful and stayed true to the original matrix theme.
when i read from the critics that the entire movie was nothing but a video game, i expected that there would be little to no plot development. as it turns out, my assumption was wrong. the idea of dissenting and corrupted programs was an excellent twist to the matrix world. i thought the theme of perfection vs imperfection was pretty strong. its good to know that the matrix and the machines themselves are flawed. that program itself is in continual evolution. you don't get that sense from the first matrix. it's also nice to see that neo isn't has invincible as he seemed to be at the end of the first one as well. growth is always nice.
once again, the graphics were amazing. the city of zion and the "real world" scenes were phenomenal. the dark, metallic, machine twisted scenery is something i simply admire aesthetically regardless... ie.. hr giger. the man operated machine suits were a real pleaser. i saw a lot of that in the animatrix films. i hope they show more of it in the third movie. it'd be nice to actually see the machines and humans fighting in the real world but that might not happen. besides, i can see that in t3 this summer.
of course, what really sold this movie for me was the plot twist in the end. the idea that the matrix narrative has commenced five times before is great. i love the idea that the machines and the humans are grappling with the notion of free will. since i don't personally believe in free will, i loved the story line. its also interesting to note that the matrix architect discovered that although humans can function with no free will, they cannot function without the perceived notion of subjectivity. people want to think they have choices in life but we're all part of an effect, not a cause, of our circumstances, of our existence within other existences. beautiful. i loved loved loved that this movie touched on this.
call me sappy but i also appreciated the romance between neo and trinity. there is something about unconditional love in fiction. it's like i can buy it on screen but not in real life. i don't know. i felt it was played out very well, not too over the top. the cool thing about it though is that it shows how "will" is perceived as "purpose". trinity and neo believe their "will" comes from the "purpose" of wanting to be with each other. humans are always seeking a purpose or meaning to life. they construct a purpose, instead of means, to an end. the matrix architect touched out this a little when he was talking to neo about choice, about which door he will choose, and why.
now on to the fighting. critics argued that the fighting was too much like a video game but i say what else would a fight scene in a virtual world look like? sure, at some points it gets redundant but so does every other jerry bruckheimer movie. i loved the stop-action filming. i loved the special effects stop-zoom, stop-rotate, stop-enhance. it really gets you into the action. for once, you get to sit there while it's going in slow motion and carefully watch what each person fighting is doing. it's great. where else can you get that? most of the times in action sequences, things happen so fast you don't get to see the art of the movement.
normally i don't like car chases but the wachowski brothers pay such great attention to detail that it was actually very good. i especially loved the motorcycle chase. when trinity was going against traffic, i thought it was pretty intense. i loved how the camera would dive under trucks and cars instead of actually following the bike itself as it cut around the vehicle. that was a very nice touch.
at the end of the movie neo, morepheus, and trinity escape from the matrix back into the real world. they're forced to evacuate their ship and run from a group of sentinels. then suddenly, neo is able to stop the sentinels with is bare hands. this leaves me wondering if the "real world" is really the "real world"... i don't know how i feel about it.. hopefully it doesn't turn out to be THAT cheesy. the third movie is up for grabs. i can't wait to see it.
matrix reloaded gets five stars in my opinion. it was better than the first. yes, i did actually say that. :) what can i say, it's a cyber geeks wet dream. how the hell am i not going to like this movie?
i remember sitting there wondering when i would become numb to the movie or find it dull or boring. fortunately for me, i loved every minute of the movie. i thought it was terrific. i thought if the matrix was good sex, then reloaded is the triple orgasm. :)
once again, the movie started out with some fast paced action staring the original opener...trinity. i kept thinking that the CG was incredible. i think a lot of people take digital effects for granted. it's some hard shit to do and takes an incredible amount of forethought and know how. anyhow, i was very impressed. the costumes were wonderful and stayed true to the original matrix theme.
when i read from the critics that the entire movie was nothing but a video game, i expected that there would be little to no plot development. as it turns out, my assumption was wrong. the idea of dissenting and corrupted programs was an excellent twist to the matrix world. i thought the theme of perfection vs imperfection was pretty strong. its good to know that the matrix and the machines themselves are flawed. that program itself is in continual evolution. you don't get that sense from the first matrix. it's also nice to see that neo isn't has invincible as he seemed to be at the end of the first one as well. growth is always nice.
once again, the graphics were amazing. the city of zion and the "real world" scenes were phenomenal. the dark, metallic, machine twisted scenery is something i simply admire aesthetically regardless... ie.. hr giger. the man operated machine suits were a real pleaser. i saw a lot of that in the animatrix films. i hope they show more of it in the third movie. it'd be nice to actually see the machines and humans fighting in the real world but that might not happen. besides, i can see that in t3 this summer.
of course, what really sold this movie for me was the plot twist in the end. the idea that the matrix narrative has commenced five times before is great. i love the idea that the machines and the humans are grappling with the notion of free will. since i don't personally believe in free will, i loved the story line. its also interesting to note that the matrix architect discovered that although humans can function with no free will, they cannot function without the perceived notion of subjectivity. people want to think they have choices in life but we're all part of an effect, not a cause, of our circumstances, of our existence within other existences. beautiful. i loved loved loved that this movie touched on this.
call me sappy but i also appreciated the romance between neo and trinity. there is something about unconditional love in fiction. it's like i can buy it on screen but not in real life. i don't know. i felt it was played out very well, not too over the top. the cool thing about it though is that it shows how "will" is perceived as "purpose". trinity and neo believe their "will" comes from the "purpose" of wanting to be with each other. humans are always seeking a purpose or meaning to life. they construct a purpose, instead of means, to an end. the matrix architect touched out this a little when he was talking to neo about choice, about which door he will choose, and why.
now on to the fighting. critics argued that the fighting was too much like a video game but i say what else would a fight scene in a virtual world look like? sure, at some points it gets redundant but so does every other jerry bruckheimer movie. i loved the stop-action filming. i loved the special effects stop-zoom, stop-rotate, stop-enhance. it really gets you into the action. for once, you get to sit there while it's going in slow motion and carefully watch what each person fighting is doing. it's great. where else can you get that? most of the times in action sequences, things happen so fast you don't get to see the art of the movement.
normally i don't like car chases but the wachowski brothers pay such great attention to detail that it was actually very good. i especially loved the motorcycle chase. when trinity was going against traffic, i thought it was pretty intense. i loved how the camera would dive under trucks and cars instead of actually following the bike itself as it cut around the vehicle. that was a very nice touch.
at the end of the movie neo, morepheus, and trinity escape from the matrix back into the real world. they're forced to evacuate their ship and run from a group of sentinels. then suddenly, neo is able to stop the sentinels with is bare hands. this leaves me wondering if the "real world" is really the "real world"... i don't know how i feel about it.. hopefully it doesn't turn out to be THAT cheesy. the third movie is up for grabs. i can't wait to see it.
matrix reloaded gets five stars in my opinion. it was better than the first. yes, i did actually say that. :) what can i say, it's a cyber geeks wet dream. how the hell am i not going to like this movie?
Sunday, May 18, 2003
good sammich, good basketball
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we ended up going to the grocery store last night and getting the stuff for my favorite sammich. i got it made just the way i liked. only i was wanting another sandwich after i ate the first one. that normally doesn't happen at jason's deli. i'm also usually gulping down a huge drink of dr. pepper too. i had some chips and salsa with it. c and s are my downfall. i normally judge the quality of a good mexican restaurant by its chips and salsa.
jeremy made me watch the mavericks vs kings game. i didn't want to watch it because whenever i watch and root for a team, they always lose. but what do you know, they won. it's going to be two texas teams for the western conference finals. spurs vs mavs. i think it's time for the mavs to win a championship. if only they can play a little more consistently, they'd be great. nowitzki needs to step up and do what he does naturally, nash needs to cash in on his goal attempts, van exel needs to keep whatever he's doing up cuz its working, and the rest of the team has got to do whatever it can to support their key shooters and do whatever it takes to hold tim duncan back.
either way, a texas team goes to the finals...so i'm happy about that. i don't know why i'm back into basketball all the sudden. i was really into the NBA stuff when i was in high school and then i lost touch with it for awhile. maybe it's because texas hasn't been doing so well since the rockets and spurs were champs.
i finished watching the matrix, first one, last night so i would be ready to watch the sequel this morning. we missed the first showing at 10:30am. i just couldn't get up. we ended up seeing the 11:30am showing instead. i'll post more on that later.
Saturday, May 17, 2003
martha is hot
i ended up watching the food network all morning long. i was hoping one of them would show some baking. i LOVE LOVE LOVE shows that show how to make yummy deserts. there is this one show that comes on in the afternoon that is all about chocolate deserts. the guy makes everything out of chocolate. it's so lovely it makes me want to cry. anyhow, this morning there was thirty minute meals, martha's kitchen, barefoot contessa, and food 911.
when jeremy got back from work, we contemplated going to the grocery store and then renting a movie. he was going to make me my favorite deli sandwich. wheat bread, mustard, sprouts, turkey, red onions, and pickles. yummm. unfortunately we never made it out. we decided to take a nap instead and slept till 2:45pm. by the time we woke up, it was too late for lunch. i cooked up some popcorn and chopped some apple slices for a nice little lunch snack.
we were going to have some texas two step soup but jeremy says we need more people over to eat it.. it serves like 10 people and we don't do the leftover thing very well. i think we're going to have sloppy joes tonight. i thought about it and we probably shouldn't rent a movie because basketball is on tonight. we'll see.
i was thinking of doing some baking but maybe not. my plan for this evening is to work on the cat portion of my website. yuppers. that's all i have to report for now.
when jeremy got back from work, we contemplated going to the grocery store and then renting a movie. he was going to make me my favorite deli sandwich. wheat bread, mustard, sprouts, turkey, red onions, and pickles. yummm. unfortunately we never made it out. we decided to take a nap instead and slept till 2:45pm. by the time we woke up, it was too late for lunch. i cooked up some popcorn and chopped some apple slices for a nice little lunch snack.
we were going to have some texas two step soup but jeremy says we need more people over to eat it.. it serves like 10 people and we don't do the leftover thing very well. i think we're going to have sloppy joes tonight. i thought about it and we probably shouldn't rent a movie because basketball is on tonight. we'll see.
i was thinking of doing some baking but maybe not. my plan for this evening is to work on the cat portion of my website. yuppers. that's all i have to report for now.
saturday morning
i didn't make it all the way through the matrix last night. i fell alseep during the kung fu fight between neo and morpheus. i think it was around 12:30pm or so when i crashed and amazingly i woke up around 8:30am! that's crazy. i can't believe it. i normally wake up around noon time. i guess it does help to get to bed early. i did my situps and arm exercises then took a shower. when i was finished, jeremy woke up and got ready to go to work. he has to work this weekend because he got put on some new project and its due tuesday.
i'm thinking of finishing the matrix now and then dunno what i'll do. i'm supposed to be working on my portfolio right now but don't feel like it. maybe i'll have some hiccup bread for breakfast. :)
jerms made me some banana bread the other night. every time i eat it i get the hiccups so now its called hiccup bread.
i'm thinking of finishing the matrix now and then dunno what i'll do. i'm supposed to be working on my portfolio right now but don't feel like it. maybe i'll have some hiccup bread for breakfast. :)
jerms made me some banana bread the other night. every time i eat it i get the hiccups so now its called hiccup bread.
Friday, May 16, 2003
fry's, zios, and the matrix
after jeremy got home from work, we headed out to fry's electronics to get some goods. my brother and dad sent me this huge ass list of things to buy. i think the store is having an anniversary sale or something. i wanted to go and get their 120 gig hard drive for 70 bucks but they were all sold out. on top of the list of things i was supposed to buy for my dad and brother, i got a 64 mb usb keychain for 14 bucks and some photo glossy paper for a dollar. jeremy ended up buying a new cellphone and another usb keychain. it would have been great if we had gotten the hard drives. i knew i should have gone earlier that day.
afterwards, we went to Zio's Italian Kitchen and ate dinner. I got a sphagetti with meatsauce dish and a ceasar salad. jeremy got their southwestern pasta dish and our friend eric got their twin specials dish which looked like it had sphagetti and pasta in it.
over all the price wasn't that bad. the next time we get a hankering to go to macaroni grill, we'll go to zio's instead. it's much cheaper for the same food. except the bread. the bread is way better at macaroni grill.
now we're back home. we might watch the matrix, original in preperation for watching matrix reloaded this sunday. i'm not really that excited anymore. it's hard to get excited about movies nowadays. they all turn out so lame.
afterwards, we went to Zio's Italian Kitchen and ate dinner. I got a sphagetti with meatsauce dish and a ceasar salad. jeremy got their southwestern pasta dish and our friend eric got their twin specials dish which looked like it had sphagetti and pasta in it.
over all the price wasn't that bad. the next time we get a hankering to go to macaroni grill, we'll go to zio's instead. it's much cheaper for the same food. except the bread. the bread is way better at macaroni grill.
now we're back home. we might watch the matrix, original in preperation for watching matrix reloaded this sunday. i'm not really that excited anymore. it's hard to get excited about movies nowadays. they all turn out so lame.
lunch was served
had pbj sammich, munchem sour cream and onion snacks, sliced apples, and some water for lunch today. i've been working on my website all afternoon. i think my house tour is up and running now. i just have to keep adding pictures of the house.
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house tour, bread, and basketball
i'm working a house tour portion for my website. i finally got most of the kitchen, refrigerator, and pantry cleaned so i can take some shots. i did a floor plan of the condo in cad and then created an image map out of it. it's a fun little project. i'll probably have it up by tomorrow.
jeremy cooked banana bread for me today. it's so yummy. i'll have some for desert tomorrow during lunch time. i can't wait. the other night he made baked apples with vanilla ice cream on the side for desert. it's so freaking hard to stay in shape with chef jeremy around.
i think i'm about to head to bed. we watched the spurs vs lakers and mavs vs kings game tonight. spurs won to go onto the semifinal game. mavericks will have to play Sunday for a game 7. it would be kind of cool to have two texas teams in the semi-finals.
jeremy cooked banana bread for me today. it's so yummy. i'll have some for desert tomorrow during lunch time. i can't wait. the other night he made baked apples with vanilla ice cream on the side for desert. it's so freaking hard to stay in shape with chef jeremy around.
i think i'm about to head to bed. we watched the spurs vs lakers and mavs vs kings game tonight. spurs won to go onto the semifinal game. mavericks will have to play Sunday for a game 7. it would be kind of cool to have two texas teams in the semi-finals.
Thursday, May 15, 2003
lunch time
i just got back home from eating lunch with jeremy and our friend eric. we went to this place near jeremy's work called Hang Time Grill. I got a veggie burger, twisty fries, and a dr. pepper. There happened to be a Marble's Slab right next to the place so we got ice cream afterwards. I got vanilla with strawberry mixin.
i'm working on creating a house tour for my website. The problem is it requires a lot of cleaning and such. I'm drawing up the floor plan to the condo right now.
i emailed my work for work. hopefully they have something for me. it would be nice to be making money again.
i'm working on creating a house tour for my website. The problem is it requires a lot of cleaning and such. I'm drawing up the floor plan to the condo right now.
i emailed my work for work. hopefully they have something for me. it would be nice to be making money again.
Wednesday, May 14, 2003
baby oh my
oh lord. i just watched something this afternoon that i know i shouldn't have. it was this special on the oxygen channel about motherhood. it was the real deal.. one of those few shows that tells it like it is. they don't show the kids being cute and silly. they show the kids acting up, throwing hissy fits, crying, yelling, misbehaving.
you can see the death in the mother's eyes..that frustration of being trapped by this kid you're supposed to unconditionally love..because that's what your mother did and her mother before that. it shows what real hard work and patience it takes to raise a child. i just remember watching in horror as one woman was trying to cook, give an interview, and look after her kids. the kids were digging through things, knocking things around, screaming, and crying. i wanted to shoot the woman to put her out of her misery.
i keep trying to see the good in children but i'm not fooled by what they are.. they are young humans..they will grow up to be women and men like you and i. they're not a separate entity. some of those kids will grow up to be assholes...some will grow up to be criminals.. angels eventually fall. :)
i'm not fooled by the little darlings. i'm not going to be fooled into motherhood with those hallmark ads about how great babies are. if i'm going to have children, i'm going in knowing full and well what the consequences are..and what the reality of my expectations are. it's not all bad..but it's not all good.
you can see the death in the mother's eyes..that frustration of being trapped by this kid you're supposed to unconditionally love..because that's what your mother did and her mother before that. it shows what real hard work and patience it takes to raise a child. i just remember watching in horror as one woman was trying to cook, give an interview, and look after her kids. the kids were digging through things, knocking things around, screaming, and crying. i wanted to shoot the woman to put her out of her misery.
i keep trying to see the good in children but i'm not fooled by what they are.. they are young humans..they will grow up to be women and men like you and i. they're not a separate entity. some of those kids will grow up to be assholes...some will grow up to be criminals.. angels eventually fall. :)
i'm not fooled by the little darlings. i'm not going to be fooled into motherhood with those hallmark ads about how great babies are. if i'm going to have children, i'm going in knowing full and well what the consequences are..and what the reality of my expectations are. it's not all bad..but it's not all good.
watches, fish, and matrix reviews
this weekend, jeremy bought me a new watch. ever since my casio broke a few years ago, i've been wearing this silver and black no brand piece of crap. every time i want to change the time or date, i end up pressing buttons all night. so he found my old watch... like 14 bucks at walmart... and got that.
he also bought dessy a present. it's a pink fish with a bell. the fish has an information pad on the back of it incase she gets lost. that's doubtful though since she's terrified of the outdoors. she's worked her way to the outside of the door before but runs back inside every time she hears a loud noise.
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i read the matrix reloaded review today on CNN. i was pretty disappointed with the review.. so i looked up CNN's review for the original Matrix and it was just as bad. this gives me hope. it sounds like the reviewers both can't grasp the complexity of the plot. they think it's all a bunch of buddhist, spiritual hooopla...
Matrix Reloaded Review: Review: 'Matrix' visually stunning, but empty
"As in the original, "The Matrix Reloaded" is full of mumbo-jumbo regarding spiritualism and Eastern philosophy, mixed with Hong Kong-style martial arts fights, cyberpunk action, and slam edits."
Review: 'Matrix' offers tales from the cryptic
"The Matrix" is like last year's "Dark City." It lets you know early on that it won't be making a bit of sense, then repeatedly tries to convince you that the nonsense is actually deep and meaningful."
he also bought dessy a present. it's a pink fish with a bell. the fish has an information pad on the back of it incase she gets lost. that's doubtful though since she's terrified of the outdoors. she's worked her way to the outside of the door before but runs back inside every time she hears a loud noise.
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i read the matrix reloaded review today on CNN. i was pretty disappointed with the review.. so i looked up CNN's review for the original Matrix and it was just as bad. this gives me hope. it sounds like the reviewers both can't grasp the complexity of the plot. they think it's all a bunch of buddhist, spiritual hooopla...
Matrix Reloaded Review: Review: 'Matrix' visually stunning, but empty
"As in the original, "The Matrix Reloaded" is full of mumbo-jumbo regarding spiritualism and Eastern philosophy, mixed with Hong Kong-style martial arts fights, cyberpunk action, and slam edits."
Review: 'Matrix' offers tales from the cryptic
"The Matrix" is like last year's "Dark City." It lets you know early on that it won't be making a bit of sense, then repeatedly tries to convince you that the nonsense is actually deep and meaningful."
Tuesday, May 13, 2003
apples, oranges, and tigger
tigger is such a cutie... a fat cutie and i love his extra fluff too. this is what happens when the fruit bowl is empty. tigger climbs in and makes himself a fruitopia bed. :)
he did the same thing with the other bowl we had but it was larger. he really fills the bowl out.
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i just got done playing around with my webcam some more. i got it to stream and all that jazz about a week ago. i was also playing around in photoshop trying to figure out how to implement some of my misc graphics into my website. i was thinking of some kind of refrigerator art thing.
i also started on my emoticons again. i just don't think i want to make 20 different emotes... not worth it, yet. plus, the ones out there are really good and i don't use them anymore.
i'm feel creative. just don't know what to do..looking for inspiration.
P.S. GOOD LUCK! HOPE EVERYTHING GOES WELL.
he did the same thing with the other bowl we had but it was larger. he really fills the bowl out.
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i just got done playing around with my webcam some more. i got it to stream and all that jazz about a week ago. i was also playing around in photoshop trying to figure out how to implement some of my misc graphics into my website. i was thinking of some kind of refrigerator art thing.
i also started on my emoticons again. i just don't think i want to make 20 different emotes... not worth it, yet. plus, the ones out there are really good and i don't use them anymore.
i'm feel creative. just don't know what to do..looking for inspiration.
P.S. GOOD LUCK
pixel art
thanks to 's instructions, i was able to create my first real pixel art.
i made it my default icon for now. it sucks but it was fun. it's a picture of jeremy and i on the couch with tigger and dessy up front. it's hard to draw a black cat without it looking like a black blob..so i made her look like a grey rat instead. hehe..
i made it my default icon for now. it sucks but it was fun. it's a picture of jeremy and i on the couch with tigger and dessy up front. it's hard to draw a black cat without it looking like a black blob..so i made her look like a grey rat instead. hehe..
anhedonia icon
i got inspired by and her little icons so i did one that i thought she might like. have a look! she's been having spider problems.
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it's not as detailed and as cool as hers but its representative..dunno how to do the detail pixel thing.
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it's not as detailed and as cool as hers but its representative..dunno how to do the detail pixel thing.
oh oh uh-oh oreo cookie
damn it all. is there nothing good and healthy to eat in this world? shall we all just take our plate of air and spoon it up? first french fries, then potato chips, and now oreos. they all have trans fat..that stuff thats just like eating pure lard. ugh. i love my oreos. i don't know if this is enough to call for a ban...at least not in my pantry. but damn. would have been nice to never have read this. ignorance is bliss. it's not our body's fault that it can't handle saturated fat. who wants to live till their 80 anyhow!
suit seeks ban on oreo cookies
suit seeks ban on oreo cookies
Monday, May 12, 2003
crawfish, ice cream cake, steak
finished up school last Friday. jeremy and i went back to boremont this weekend to visit the folks. we celebrated mother's day and my brother's birthday on Sunday. we had crawfish and some yummy ice cream cake. i didn't do much otherwise.
i watched some playoff NBA games and did some shopping for presents. it's always weird going home because its got a part of me that i have pretty much left behind. it's funny because we passed by a billboard on the way home that said Beaumont, the RIGHT side of Texas... i kept thinking it should say Beaumont, the WHITE side of Texas. hehehe. It's not that small of a town..roughly over 100,000 people. We've got all the major chain restaurants, shopping centers, and even going to get its own hockey team. there's just something so simple about the place...like you know if you live there you have settled for living out your life quietly..complacent...content..the rest of the world can revolve around and it doesn't really matter.
anyhow. on Sunday, we boiled crawfish in the backyard and played frisbee. afterwards, we had cake and opened presents..both for mother's day and for my brother's bday..they happened to be on the same day this year. my brother is 20 years old. it's so weird. he's my kid brother and he's no longer a teenager..which makes me OLD. hahah.
today when we got back to Austin, Jeremy took me out to eat at OUTBACK with our friend Eric. He had promised to get me steak to celebrate me finishing this semester off.
i stuffed myself silly! i had the steak and veggie griller. it was a steak medallion on a bed of rice topped with pineapple, mushrooms, onions, and green stuff. mmmm..
sorry you veggie thrillers.. i love my cow.
after we finished, we stopped at blockbusters and rented Darkness Falls. it was your scary flick... some supernatural bitch going on a terror run and stupid victims making stupid mistakes and getting themselves killed. horror movies and romantic comedies are all the same. they require you to lower your intelligence level a few notches in order to enjoy them. if you can't do that..you're sol.
i'm downloading episode one of animatrix right now. i'v never seen them. heard they were good. www.theanimatrix.com
i watched some playoff NBA games and did some shopping for presents. it's always weird going home because its got a part of me that i have pretty much left behind. it's funny because we passed by a billboard on the way home that said Beaumont, the RIGHT side of Texas... i kept thinking it should say Beaumont, the WHITE side of Texas. hehehe. It's not that small of a town..roughly over 100,000 people. We've got all the major chain restaurants, shopping centers, and even going to get its own hockey team. there's just something so simple about the place...like you know if you live there you have settled for living out your life quietly..complacent...content..the rest of the world can revolve around and it doesn't really matter.
anyhow. on Sunday, we boiled crawfish in the backyard and played frisbee. afterwards, we had cake and opened presents..both for mother's day and for my brother's bday..they happened to be on the same day this year. my brother is 20 years old. it's so weird. he's my kid brother and he's no longer a teenager..which makes me OLD. hahah.
today when we got back to Austin, Jeremy took me out to eat at OUTBACK with our friend Eric. He had promised to get me steak to celebrate me finishing this semester off.
i stuffed myself silly! i had the steak and veggie griller. it was a steak medallion on a bed of rice topped with pineapple, mushrooms, onions, and green stuff. mmmm..
sorry you veggie thrillers.. i love my cow.
after we finished, we stopped at blockbusters and rented Darkness Falls. it was your scary flick... some supernatural bitch going on a terror run and stupid victims making stupid mistakes and getting themselves killed. horror movies and romantic comedies are all the same. they require you to lower your intelligence level a few notches in order to enjoy them. if you can't do that..you're sol.
i'm downloading episode one of animatrix right now. i'v never seen them. heard they were good. www.theanimatrix.com
Wednesday, May 7, 2003
am i going to live doctor?
i lost a lot of time tonight. last night i began developing stomach pains that faded later into the night. today they started up again a few hours after lunch and then escalated to full blown agony after dinner. i don't think it was anything i ate. i'm not sure what it was. it's not gas.. and its not indigestion. i've had this pain before. i'd wake up in the middle of the night with this pain. it's occurring right where my stomach and heart meet.
i'd say that it was equivalent to having a 2x4 lodged into your chest. it hurt sooo bad.
i took some pepto but it didn't help. i had to just lay down and bare the pain for an hour or two. i ended up watching the lakers get pummeled by the spurs and by the time i finished watching the anna nicole show, the pain started to subside. it wasn't until E!'s show Britney and Justin Love Chain finished that i was able to get up and function without wanting to kill myself. (just a note for those who are interested: the anna nicole show was about her selling her art. childish scribbles..being sold for 5 grand. the world is so fucked up sometimes)
so now its close to 2am and i haven't finished my studio stuff. nowhere near finishing. i'm still feeling a little pain. i'm also drained from all the writhing and tossing i did in bed while my guts were turning inside out. tired. tired. tired. i have to wonder to myself if i'd be more productive staying up all night or waking up early in the morning....that is, if i can wake up early.
anyhow. i guess i'm just thankful i can breathe without pain now. i don't know what happened. maybe i need to stop eating so much. jeremy tried to diagnose me on webMD.com but every single inquiry leads to the inevitable "please contact your physician immediately" page. useless.
i think i will call it a night. hopefully my ass will be up by 8am to start some REAL work..and no procrastinating.
p.s. no its not my time of the month either so that wasn't it. besides, that stuff never gives me cramps.
i'd say that it was equivalent to having a 2x4 lodged into your chest. it hurt sooo bad.
i took some pepto but it didn't help. i had to just lay down and bare the pain for an hour or two. i ended up watching the lakers get pummeled by the spurs and by the time i finished watching the anna nicole show, the pain started to subside. it wasn't until E!'s show Britney and Justin Love Chain finished that i was able to get up and function without wanting to kill myself. (just a note for those who are interested: the anna nicole show was about her selling her art. childish scribbles..being sold for 5 grand. the world is so fucked up sometimes)
so now its close to 2am and i haven't finished my studio stuff. nowhere near finishing. i'm still feeling a little pain. i'm also drained from all the writhing and tossing i did in bed while my guts were turning inside out. tired. tired. tired. i have to wonder to myself if i'd be more productive staying up all night or waking up early in the morning....that is, if i can wake up early.
anyhow. i guess i'm just thankful i can breathe without pain now. i don't know what happened. maybe i need to stop eating so much. jeremy tried to diagnose me on webMD.com but every single inquiry leads to the inevitable "please contact your physician immediately" page. useless.
i think i will call it a night. hopefully my ass will be up by 8am to start some REAL work..and no procrastinating.
p.s. no its not my time of the month either so that wasn't it. besides, that stuff never gives me cramps.
Tuesday, May 6, 2003
bacon sugar cookies
last night i decided to put my new baking gear into use. i pulled out my mother's recipe book she gave to me for my graduation a few years back. i found a good sugar cookie recipe...it's actually called a dutch cookie...but it seemed like a sugar cookie to me.
i made cool shapes with the first batch but they spread too much so i ended up going back to round cookies for the next two batches.
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i think they turned out very well. i even put icing on them. smiley and frowny faces. we had a few and i think the over all result was very good. i stuck them in the microwave overnight so the cats wouldn't get them. i was too lazy to put them in tupperware. BIG mistake. the next morning, jeremy pulled them out and cooked bacon in the microwave. he then put the cookies BACK into the microwave.
later that day, came over and i offered him one of the sugar cookies. he said it tasted like sausage! i was like OH NO...the cookies must have absorbed the bacon essence. GROSS. i didn't taste it at first but later that night i stuck one in my mouth and it had this nasty bacon after taste. even jeremy agreed. we had to throw my batch away!!!! :(
maybe baking isn't for me after all. here's the recipe for anyone who feels like trying it.
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Dutch Cookies
1 1/2 sticks of margarine
1 1/2 cups of sugar
1 tsp vanilla
4 tbs milk
2 cups flour
3/4 tsp baking soda
cream margarine and sugar; add remaining ingredients. mix well.
roll in waxed paper and refrigerate until firm. slice thin. place on ungreased cookie sheet. bake 10 minutes at 350 degrees until lightly brown. cool before storing.
alachia's annex: add 3 tbs more margarine and 1/2 cup more sugar. also sprinke sugar lightly on cookie before baking. cut small but thick slices for cookies to spread less.
i made cool shapes with the first batch but they spread too much so i ended up going back to round cookies for the next two batches.
click on image to see more
i think they turned out very well. i even put icing on them. smiley and frowny faces. we had a few and i think the over all result was very good. i stuck them in the microwave overnight so the cats wouldn't get them. i was too lazy to put them in tupperware. BIG mistake. the next morning, jeremy pulled them out and cooked bacon in the microwave. he then put the cookies BACK into the microwave.
later that day,
maybe baking isn't for me after all. here's the recipe for anyone who feels like trying it.
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Dutch Cookies
1 1/2 sticks of margarine
1 1/2 cups of sugar
1 tsp vanilla
4 tbs milk
2 cups flour
3/4 tsp baking soda
cream margarine and sugar; add remaining ingredients. mix well.
roll in waxed paper and refrigerate until firm. slice thin. place on ungreased cookie sheet. bake 10 minutes at 350 degrees until lightly brown. cool before storing.
alachia's annex: add 3 tbs more margarine and 1/2 cup more sugar. also sprinke sugar lightly on cookie before baking. cut small but thick slices for cookies to spread less.
letter to the lonely
it's weird. i don't know who to talk to anymore sometimes. i have my problems, my own worries, my own doubts, my own moments i'd like to share. i can share with jeremy a lot but his only reciprocation is sympathy not empathy. he doesn't know what its like to be in the mind of someone who is kind of flailing or lost. he knows what he wants in life. he's confident that he's found his happiness in life. for the most part, he's content with the way the world is or at least his part in the world.
my other friends, who could possibly empathize..they have their own problems...some far worse than mine. they're still growing and changing and just as lost themselves in some ways.
i can cast my problems online to the world of global exchange..but casual acquaintances and casual emails aren't intimate enough. between the lines and the text, some of what you are trying to say gets lost..the facial expressions, the inflexions in your voice, the way your hands move...those things say things too.
so i stay blank. frustrated. and alone. i'm learning to be okay with that. perhaps, only i will truly be able to get myself through my life.. i just keep thinking it would be nice if i had a partner in misery as well. :)
my other friends, who could possibly empathize..they have their own problems...some far worse than mine. they're still growing and changing and just as lost themselves in some ways.
i can cast my problems online to the world of global exchange..but casual acquaintances and casual emails aren't intimate enough. between the lines and the text, some of what you are trying to say gets lost..the facial expressions, the inflexions in your voice, the way your hands move...those things say things too.
so i stay blank. frustrated. and alone. i'm learning to be okay with that. perhaps, only i will truly be able to get myself through my life.. i just keep thinking it would be nice if i had a partner in misery as well. :)
Sunday, May 4, 2003
Saturday turned into Sunday and i was still there
i went to school around 2pm Saturday afternoon and didn't come home till 4pm the next day. i'm so zonked. i thought about crashing as soon as i got home but i decided to remain active instead. my partner and i worked all night and day to complete our set of working drawings to turn in by Tuesday. we wanted to finish the 2d drawings and be done with them so we could have time to work with the 3d ones.some time around 3am, he and i decided we weren't going to leave the studio until we were done completely. it feels good to be done.
as soon as i got home, jeremy and i took off to get food and go to fry's electronics. we had a late late late lunch around 4pm at Jason's Deli. I got a build your own sandwich. i always get it with smoked turkey, wheat bread, lettuce, tomatoes, pickles, onions, sprouts, and mustard. yum yum yum. i usually love their complimentary ice cream but their vanilla was all out. :( bum bum. i'm a vanilla villain not a chocolate chica.
we went to fry's after that. i was falling asleep in the car. when we got there, i was very disappointed to find that the thing i really wanted was on sale but there was only one left. i was going to get my brother the same thing for this birthday which is this weekend...that means, i had to buy the last one for my brother. i came up short handed. jeremy found some stuff to buy though. he bought a 208 cd case for 14 bucks and a lap top power adaptor for the car. the adaptor plugs into the car outlet but has an actually plug outlet you can stick your appliance to.. pretty nifty.
i was so disappointed and cranky after fry's that jeremy took me to best buy and old navy. i ended up coming short at those places as well. jeremy found several short sleeve shirts at old navy and i picked out a dark grey shirt for him that turned out to be 2 dollars. coolio. SO...since i came out empty handed again, Jeremy took me to Bed Bath and Beyond. we bought some stuff for mother's day and i finally found something i really wanted. it was a set of 100 cookie cutters! now i get to make fun looking cookies and brownies. yeah! i also got a baking sheet especially made for cookies.
on the way home i dozed in and out of sleep. i thought for sure that when i got home, i would crash. instead, i took a shower and started cleaning the leftover clutter from our room. i put away the gifts we bought and started a load of laundry. i'm trying not to crash too soon. i want to stay on a normal schedule. plus, i'm kind of hungry. i don't want to miss dinner.
i don't know what day it is. Sunday.. yeah.. so that's been my weekend so far.
no cowboy beebop.. no xmen 2
no fun really...
but mavs did win the playoffs
got my studio work pretty much done
got to go shopping
jeremy and john are playing No One Lives Forever 2 right now. i was thinking of joining.
a half alive player. it should be fun.
as soon as i got home, jeremy and i took off to get food and go to fry's electronics. we had a late late late lunch around 4pm at Jason's Deli. I got a build your own sandwich. i always get it with smoked turkey, wheat bread, lettuce, tomatoes, pickles, onions, sprouts, and mustard. yum yum yum. i usually love their complimentary ice cream but their vanilla was all out. :( bum bum. i'm a vanilla villain not a chocolate chica.
we went to fry's after that. i was falling asleep in the car. when we got there, i was very disappointed to find that the thing i really wanted was on sale but there was only one left. i was going to get my brother the same thing for this birthday which is this weekend...that means, i had to buy the last one for my brother. i came up short handed. jeremy found some stuff to buy though. he bought a 208 cd case for 14 bucks and a lap top power adaptor for the car. the adaptor plugs into the car outlet but has an actually plug outlet you can stick your appliance to.. pretty nifty.
i was so disappointed and cranky after fry's that jeremy took me to best buy and old navy. i ended up coming short at those places as well. jeremy found several short sleeve shirts at old navy and i picked out a dark grey shirt for him that turned out to be 2 dollars. coolio. SO...since i came out empty handed again, Jeremy took me to Bed Bath and Beyond. we bought some stuff for mother's day and i finally found something i really wanted. it was a set of 100 cookie cutters! now i get to make fun looking cookies and brownies. yeah! i also got a baking sheet especially made for cookies.
on the way home i dozed in and out of sleep. i thought for sure that when i got home, i would crash. instead, i took a shower and started cleaning the leftover clutter from our room. i put away the gifts we bought and started a load of laundry. i'm trying not to crash too soon. i want to stay on a normal schedule. plus, i'm kind of hungry. i don't want to miss dinner.
i don't know what day it is. Sunday.. yeah.. so that's been my weekend so far.
no cowboy beebop.. no xmen 2
no fun really...
but mavs did win the playoffs
got my studio work pretty much done
got to go shopping
jeremy and john are playing No One Lives Forever 2 right now. i was thinking of joining.
a half alive player. it should be fun.
Friday, May 2, 2003
new room: before and after
today has been one of those tiring days that borders on never ending.
at school, i had software and hardware troubles. my eyes were bugging me and i was massively hungry.
when i got home, jeremy started cooking hot dogs. we had hotdogs with chilli, chips and salsa, and a pickle.
we then decided to try and re-arrange the room before the maverick's game. this was a massive undertaking. we had already planned it out earlier that week, taking measurements and plotting out where the furniture would go. for sure, we needed a new setup that allowed us more room to move. we've moved both the computers against the back wall and pulled the bed out into the center and the tv where my computer used to be.
i was exhausted afterwards but treated myself to some icecream. i needed it. then i got to watch the rest of the mavs game... what a horrible game. they lost by a landslide...and they gave up three quarter into the game. terrible terrible terrible.
i think i'm going to get the sheets out of the dryer, set the bed, brush my teeth, take out my contacts, and go to sleep.
at school, i had software and hardware troubles. my eyes were bugging me and i was massively hungry.
when i got home, jeremy started cooking hot dogs. we had hotdogs with chilli, chips and salsa, and a pickle.
we then decided to try and re-arrange the room before the maverick's game. this was a massive undertaking. we had already planned it out earlier that week, taking measurements and plotting out where the furniture would go. for sure, we needed a new setup that allowed us more room to move. we've moved both the computers against the back wall and pulled the bed out into the center and the tv where my computer used to be.
 before |  after |
 before |  after |
 before |  after |
 before |  after |
i was exhausted afterwards but treated myself to some icecream. i needed it. then i got to watch the rest of the mavs game... what a horrible game. they lost by a landslide...and they gave up three quarter into the game. terrible terrible terrible.
i think i'm going to get the sheets out of the dryer, set the bed, brush my teeth, take out my contacts, and go to sleep.
solicitors, spin, fred durst, and pom poms
jeremy is a sucker for solicitors. he feels guilty and sometimes falls into their luring trap. i keep telling him, JUST SAY NO. you are not obligated to buy. they have a right to ask and you have a right to reject.
last fall, he fell prey to this young lady trying to sell magazines in order for her and her fellow students to go on a trip or something like that. first of all, that disturbs me a lot. i hate solicitors, especially young pre-teens and teens who solicit people for money so they can get new cheerleading pom poms or go on a ski trip for spring break. i got dooped when i was in highschool, some girl got me to pledge money for her on a marathon. i assumed it was for some charity like breast cancer association or something like that. it turns out that her dance team needed new uniforms. i was pissed when i found out. anyhow, i digress. (just thought i'd share my bias)
SO he ordered a magazine subscription to SPIN for like WAY too much money. i know his heart was in the right place. he wanted to do something nice for the girl and at the same time get me something. but it was a total rip off. plus, i don't like SPIN. sure, it has some okay articles sometimes but over all, i don't care about whiny rockers and their goals to top musical charts. blah blah blah boring. i'd rather have newsweek or vogue. i'm a sucker for politics and style...neither of which i'm good at.
the spin magazine that came in yesterday had the title 75 sleazy moments in rock. it turned out to be one of those lame vh1 sort of count downs. i just don't give a damn about spoiled rock stars... but i'll admit, sometimes its very interesting. for example. the article entitled "I Saw Britney Naked!" was a great sarcastic article aboout rock cocks passed their prime trying to use their sexual prowess to elevate their star status. it doesn't work, in my opinion.
Here's a clip: "Most blabbers try to rationalize their behavior. "It would have been kiss and tell if I hadn't been responding to my fans," Durst insisted on the Stern show. But his wishful dishing had nothing to do with the 11-year olds baiting him online ("Yo, Britney played you, dog!"), it didn't even have anything to do with Spears. It had everything to do with the fact that Durst- a chubby, balding, marginally talented dude- was motivated by crippling insecurity and a desperate need to appear sexually desirable. At the height of his fame, Durst was turning Playboy centerfolds away, but this ain't 1999. Now, if even one girl reconsiders his appeal because Spears might have found him hot, Durst wins."
The articles goes on to talk about Michael Jackson, Justin Timberlake, Eminem, and a few others. i just liked hearing fred durst being called a chubby, balding, marginally talented dude. i'm glad someone can see reality pass the star status. (sorry if i'm offending any limb bisket fans) ...
i wanted to exchange the magazine for something else which they clearly state you can do but what they don't clearly state is HOW. i went to their site and they have an faq, a contact page with no contacts on it, and a login for which i have not user name or password. so poooo. hopefully their will be more star slapping..
* this post has been brought to you buy jeremy's sappy heart and fat wallet
last fall, he fell prey to this young lady trying to sell magazines in order for her and her fellow students to go on a trip or something like that. first of all, that disturbs me a lot. i hate solicitors, especially young pre-teens and teens who solicit people for money so they can get new cheerleading pom poms or go on a ski trip for spring break. i got dooped when i was in highschool, some girl got me to pledge money for her on a marathon. i assumed it was for some charity like breast cancer association or something like that. it turns out that her dance team needed new uniforms. i was pissed when i found out. anyhow, i digress. (just thought i'd share my bias)
SO he ordered a magazine subscription to SPIN for like WAY too much money. i know his heart was in the right place. he wanted to do something nice for the girl and at the same time get me something. but it was a total rip off. plus, i don't like SPIN. sure, it has some okay articles sometimes but over all, i don't care about whiny rockers and their goals to top musical charts. blah blah blah boring. i'd rather have newsweek or vogue. i'm a sucker for politics and style...neither of which i'm good at.
the spin magazine that came in yesterday had the title 75 sleazy moments in rock. it turned out to be one of those lame vh1 sort of count downs. i just don't give a damn about spoiled rock stars... but i'll admit, sometimes its very interesting. for example. the article entitled "I Saw Britney Naked!" was a great sarcastic article aboout rock cocks passed their prime trying to use their sexual prowess to elevate their star status. it doesn't work, in my opinion.
Here's a clip: "Most blabbers try to rationalize their behavior. "It would have been kiss and tell if I hadn't been responding to my fans," Durst insisted on the Stern show. But his wishful dishing had nothing to do with the 11-year olds baiting him online ("Yo, Britney played you, dog!"), it didn't even have anything to do with Spears. It had everything to do with the fact that Durst- a chubby, balding, marginally talented dude- was motivated by crippling insecurity and a desperate need to appear sexually desirable. At the height of his fame, Durst was turning Playboy centerfolds away, but this ain't 1999. Now, if even one girl reconsiders his appeal because Spears might have found him hot, Durst wins."
The articles goes on to talk about Michael Jackson, Justin Timberlake, Eminem, and a few others. i just liked hearing fred durst being called a chubby, balding, marginally talented dude. i'm glad someone can see reality pass the star status. (sorry if i'm offending any limb bisket fans) ...
i wanted to exchange the magazine for something else which they clearly state you can do but what they don't clearly state is HOW. i went to their site and they have an faq, a contact page with no contacts on it, and a login for which i have not user name or password. so poooo. hopefully their will be more star slapping..
* this post has been brought to you buy jeremy's sappy heart and fat wallet
Thursday, May 1, 2003
victory dance
i finished the papers. yeah. i did a victory dance but no one saw or cared. oh well.
it feels so good. its disabling actually knowing that my graduate career is finally coming to an end. the only thing i have left is to finish up my studio for this semester and take a ten week studio in the summer.
"congratulations, myself"
"why thanks, myself, congrats to you too!"
it feels so good. its disabling actually knowing that my graduate career is finally coming to an end. the only thing i have left is to finish up my studio for this semester and take a ten week studio in the summer.
"congratulations, myself"
"why thanks, myself, congrats to you too!"
 wohoo! |  yeah! yeah! |  sweet! |
can i give them my right to get married?
i'm so sickened and disgusted by our culture. that we would wallow in fear of living, cowering behind a wall of righteousness. in a christian nation, and that is what i'm living in, you are taught very young to discriminate based on your own beliefs. those who don't believe are wrong and going to hell. one christian told me that you must get to kids when they are young because the path to faith is fear. surely, millions of years of evolution has not come to this... it seems self defeating. it seems that while we are at the pinnacle of living, we try to bind ourselves back down.
the doma, defense of marriage act, passed through the House in Texas yesterday. this bill discriminates against any kind of marriage other than that between man and woman.
do they think that by not allowing homosexuals to get married, they're going to eliminate all the homosexuals in texas? if marriage is really a concern for the the legislature, why don't they fine people for breaking their marriage contract? why? because marriage is just a social mask we put over relationships to publicly announce that things are OKAY..and things are going AS ACCORDING TO HOW IT SHOULD. relationships are so much more complex than that.... they go beyond marriage in my opinion.. if a relationship only exists in marriage, it's a total lie... but in this world, you need marriage in order to prove that a real relationship exists. it's really a shitty deal. i just don't understand why this issue would be so high on their priority list when there are other things in texas that need to be dealt with. can you believe it? my tax dollars went towards all of this.
but i have a sneaking suspicion that a lot of christian coalition money was behind this. lobbyist are the devil. too bad the GLBTA doesn't pass around a collection plate demanding 10% of your income...then maybe things would get done. :P
the doma, defense of marriage act, passed through the House in Texas yesterday. this bill discriminates against any kind of marriage other than that between man and woman.
do they think that by not allowing homosexuals to get married, they're going to eliminate all the homosexuals in texas? if marriage is really a concern for the the legislature, why don't they fine people for breaking their marriage contract? why? because marriage is just a social mask we put over relationships to publicly announce that things are OKAY..and things are going AS ACCORDING TO HOW IT SHOULD. relationships are so much more complex than that.... they go beyond marriage in my opinion.. if a relationship only exists in marriage, it's a total lie... but in this world, you need marriage in order to prove that a real relationship exists. it's really a shitty deal. i just don't understand why this issue would be so high on their priority list when there are other things in texas that need to be dealt with. can you believe it? my tax dollars went towards all of this.
but i have a sneaking suspicion that a lot of christian coalition money was behind this. lobbyist are the devil. too bad the GLBTA doesn't pass around a collection plate demanding 10% of your income...then maybe things would get done. :P
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