halloween mission: success

woohoo. the children came, ravaged, and left. heh.

today, while i was at school i stole our studio pumpkin. when i got home i quickly made a ghost out of a white pillow case, plastic bags, and a thick black sharpie. I decided that if i wanted kids to come, i'd have to at least show them that we were in the halloween spirit. when i went to go get the candy out, i realized jeremy and john had already eaten half of it! i had to pull out some reserves from the back of the pantry (large packets of nerds).

jeremy cooked thai noodles for dinner. as i was washing the dishes, jeremy rang the door bell pretending to be trick or treaters. i quickly turned around half expecting it to be kids...but it wasn't. ten seconds later, i hear jeremy and john yelling at me telling me that there are kids coming. i was like "yeah right, whatever." they were like "we're not joking." the next thing i know, jeremy is ducking behind the counter and john is running up the stairs. there must be some pedaphobia in our house or something.

i answered the door and sure enough, there were kids. my first trick or treaters.
i said "trick or treat!" and gave them each two pieces of candy.

i got quite a few groups come and go through out the evening. at one point, i had a group of savages come and ravage my bowl. they were kind of rude and just started grabbing out of the candy bowl. no manners. there were some really cute costumes. this one little girl was dressed as a lady buy. it was adorbale. a lot of the kids were not in costume though. i wonder if it's trend for kids not to dress up anymore. i'm also wondering how much candy is the norm to give out. at some points, i passed out the candy and the kids were still standing there waiting...expecting more, i guess.

oh well. i was just happy they came.
happy halloween!


we had just finished a nice yummy thai noodle dish that jeremy had cooked and i was washing dishes.

no gays or atheists..what next? must have a girlfriend or boyfriend by age 16?

i'm so glad my parents never put my brother and i through the "scouts"...what a crock of crap.

Atheist Scout given a week to declare belief

happy halloween 2002

i'm not too hopeful about kids coming tonight. i might not be able to spread the joy of candy. i heard some guy say today that he hates halloween and was like "i don't support pagan holidays." ... hmm.. so i guess that means he doesn't celebrate christmas.

today, i overslept an hour and the jolted awake. it was so cold that i convinced myself that i should go back to bed and reset the alarm for five more minutes. i slept for another hour. jeez.

i went to class today and had some design graphic consultant tell me that i should design my building in the shape of a dog house. i didn't want to tell him that if i took his advice, i'd be kicked out of the school of architecture. granted, there are some desinger/architects who can get away with such a cheesy concept but i'm nowhere near that.

jeremy, john, and i went to eat at this vietnamese restaraunt called 888. they have some good cheap noodles there. when we got back, jeremy turned off all the power in the house to find out which circuit the door bell was connected too. who would have guessed it'd be the master bedroom. we had to shut down the server in order for him to replace our door bell switch. the other one was cracked and broken. so now we have a fresh door bell ringer in case the kids do come around. by the way, that's not why he changed it. :)

john went to his bowling league after that and jermey and i crashed out. i've finally emerged from slumber but jerms is still out. i think he's gonna be out for the rest of the night. i'm debating right now on wether to go back to sleep or try and get some work done.

i'm kind of excited about tomorrow.. this must be how the witch in hansel and gretel felt.
"i've got all this candy and sweets, i wonder if the children will come..mwahahahahaha"

capture the flag

it's going to be another long night i think. i am so uninterested in my two academic classes. oh well. i don't really want to go into it right now. all i know is that i have two assignments and some reading to do by tomorrow. i have an 8am class..



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jeremy and john have been playing Tribes all night long. i'm not sure why they picked it up but they did. i tried to take a nap earlier this evening but they were too loud. i only got about a good half hour of down time. i went downstairs to escape the yelling and blasting sounds of the machinery...but it wasn't enough. they were just too freaking loud. i was lucky enough to have two cuties join me while i was napping. i didn't even know they joined me until jeremy woke me up to take pictures of them.

silly things. i have a feeling both jeremy and john are going to have a hell of a time waking up tomorrow morning too. i'd much rather be playing than worrying about my paper. i wish they would finish already. it's so hard to concentrate with all this yelling going on.

i screwed myself this weekend

well, it's been a pretty unproductive weekend. my brother asked me to come home with him, so jeremy
and i agreed. this weekend was supposed to be my catch-up weekend but now it's just an additive to my
ongoing line of procrastination. i might have to suck it up tonight and just do an all nighter.

i did have some fun this weekend. we visited a lot with our old friend who lives here and owns a Maggie Moos icecream franchise. i felt guilty but we got lots of free ice cream when we visited him. his store has 8 cameras with more to come. you can view them online too. i plan on linking them up to my website when i get some free time. the cameras came in handy too. they've caught two criminals on the webcams so far.

while we were there, jeremy and our friend, hani, played war3 in the back of the Maggie Moos storage room. He has two nice computers hooked up in the back where he lets his employees play on break. i swear thought, i just can't get away from that game. even an icecream store isn't safe. i'd pick up the game myself but i just don't have the time.

jeremy and i carved pumpkins this weekend too. mine ended up looking like ass. i meant for it to come out really cool but it was aweful. i threw it away. we're leaving jeremy's pumpkin here for my parents to have for halloween. i seriously doubt kids will come to our neighborhood. but we'll see.

i'm packing up to go right now.. a little tired, a little worried..and most def. craving more ice cream.
ETA back at Austin...8:30pm.. omg. i'm screwed.

midterms, crafting, and free drinks

i am working on my architecture history midterm right now and jeremy is crafting (war3 that is). john is in his room crafting as well...while simultaneously studying (cough). i've found a new drink that is "everything" free...sugar, caffeine, calorie, fat, and sodium free.. AND it tastes good. It's called Hill Country Fare Strawberry Natural Flavored Sparkling Water Beverage. I must buy more.

I wish I was done with this crappy test. I have never been so unmotivated to take a class before. I guess this is what happens when you try to force nonsensical ideology down a skeptics throat.

ugh. wish i were done.

the nothing state

you think that you're falling, but you're not
you want to feel sorry for yourself, but you're spoiled
you want to believe that misery exists regardless, but who cares
you want to think that living is worth the time, but it's a quarter past four

and its time to stop everything. take me to the masses..where ignorance roams and sorrow only exists in fairy tales.

simading ding

jerms went off to play basketball today. i stayed at home and played the sims unleashed . that game really pisses me off. it's like crack cocaine. you just can't stop. my REAL cats are banging at the gate jeremy and i made two days ago. we constructed a gate for the upstairs so the cats can't get up and bite our wires. they're hungry. i am too. i have a midterm i'm supposed to be doing. it's a take home but i just can't get myself motivated enough to touch it. i also have a paper to write before tonight as well.

we also got the server up so now i have a 24/7 cam. wohoo. i know, it has little significance..but it makes me happy. anyhow. the server is in our room right now and we're about to move it into the laundry room between john's and my room.

i'm waiting for jeremy to get back now. i'm also downloading a porn from a friend. he said the chick in the amateur video reminded him of me. so we shall see. gah. i'm hungry. i don't know where we're going to eat tonight. maybe we'll get some ice cream. time to call up my icecream partner.

sim unleashed

oh no. i'm about to get sims unleashed!
can i deal with the consequences?

ornament, false or true

so i just got out of my architecture history II discussion session. as usual, i sat there very disgruntled with many things on my mind and not the will to say them outloud. today our topic was on ornament. most of the readings we have on ornament in architecture are about this idea for the ideal or about a passageway to a universal order about truth and beauty. i think this is complete nonsense. i don't believe in an innate order to beauty. there is not truth in expression. it is all relative. the idea of ornament, in reality, is simply about expression or domination of expression. today, expression is forbidden in design through ornament. if you use ornament, it is considered irresponsible or dishonest.

here i where i diverge on thoughts..which is why i never speak out in class. i'd just backfire on myself all the time. for one, architecture can be about responsibility. it can be about public works and creating culture and good health. on the other hand, it can be about control, manipulation, and domination. i don't know yet, how i will approach it in practice...or is there way to f*ck with people's minds and help them too?

swoosh. nothing and no net.

oy i got a work out today. jeremy and i went to go play basketball with our friend eric and sean. i hadn't touched a basketball in years. i think the last time i played a real game was my first time which was over 6 years ago.

when we got there, two groups were using both sides of the court to play. one of the groups was the one that jeremy usually plays with during mondays and wednesdays. he didn't want to go out there cuz he declined to play with them earlier. we waited for eric to show up and decided to go eat before we played.

we went to jason's deli which was only a block away and i got a salad bar and jeremy got a huge potato and eric got a huge beef eater. when we got back to the court, there was still one group of kids playing. unfortunately, they were playing on the side with the light so we played in the dark for awhile. luckily, the finished pretty soon and we were able to move to the other side. sean showed up a few minutes later and we played a game of two on two.

i had a special rule where the other team couldn't use their hands while guarding me. we still lost but it was a lot of fun. it's like getting a work out without knowing it. one minute you're dribbling the ball and the next thing you know, you've been working out for an hour.

i was very paranoid about being too weak. i'm very defensive about my gender and i hate for people to get the impression that girl's can't play basketball based off of how i play. i thought i played pretty hard. i got a few rebounds and almost got in a few blocks.
i dunno. i don't know why i worry about those sorts of things. i try to be aggressive but i don't really take sports too seriously. i think that's the difference between when i play and when my guy friends play. they get really into it and emotions get involved..etc..

anyhow, after we finished, jeremy and i shared an ice cream at marble's slab. now we're at home and jeremy is writing a program for us to use. it's supposed to help us pick out restaurants based on location, price, type, speed, and quality. i created a database of restaurants during class.. hehe.

it could be you

another attack in Washingtong. i'm getting the idea that the sniper has something against suburbia.

i'm glad that no one i know has posted anything about being terrorized by the sniper attacks. i have to admit that it is a bad situation but so are murders and rapes in general. in fact, you are more likely to be killed from a non-terrorist attack than a terrorist attack. if you think about all the money we're spending on our "homeland" security, it makes you wince a little. why isn't that money going to protecting us from ourselves? i guess, however, if you factor in FEAR, rationality gets erased from the equation. what price we pay for a peace of mind.

love is hate

what is fair?
it simply does not exist in a world where you can not fully be conscious of
all injustice.
if you are unaware of being wronged, are you still wronged?
it is impossible for an individual to exist on a universal, omnipotent reality.
we are closed systems and our ideals are severely flawed by our lack of simply knowing.

when breathings becomes monotonous

there has been a change in my world, my entire existence... a slow creeping disdain for my flesh. a disgust for breathing. i am a spoiled slothful waste of a human being.

i just don't know what to do with myself anymore. is there anything worth doing?
i'm not sure what it means to be happy anymore. i'm not sure what it means to be human anymore.

i find myself wanting to wrap my cold fingers around my skull... i want to push the thinking out. i want to forget that existence is as trivial as it is. rid me of my useless daily rituals.

different things

i've been contemplating trying out a new hair style. i really want to cut my hair short and get bangs. i'm just really scared of what might happen. the last time i cut my hair short, i immediately wanted my long hair back. anyhow, i decided to play around with photoshop and see what might result.

Coming out party

I went to the UT Pride Night party at the Forum last night with . I tried to get Jeremy to go but the club scene just isn't for him. Anyhow, Karen came over early and ate some of our leftover gumbo. Afterwards, we watched Will and Grace and parts Without a Trace before heading out. We met up with another friend of hers who brought some other girl along. The "friend of a friend" chick was your typical young college chick who is rebelling against an establishment she knows nothing about.. it was kind of amusing, at least.

While I didn't get to dance (no one was dancing), I did get to hang out with Karen on the roof terrace of The Forum and chat. The only people out on the dance floor were a train of guys without their shirts on doin' the nasty dance. hehehehe. it was fun to watch, i suppose. The rebellious chick made a comment about how the Austin gay scene wasn't as happening as the Dallas gay scene. I have to admit, I was expecting a lot more people dancing like crazy and less talking. OH well. There was talk of going to Boy Cellar on "girl cellar" night one week. Hopefully there will be lots of dancing then.

Aside from the smoke, I have a very fun time. I feel lucky to have connected with such a unique person. I think that's pretty rare.

Damn..if they had only played Diana Ross's song, I'm SURE everyone would have been on the dance floor. I know I would have!

"oh I'm comin' out! I want the world to know! GOT to let it show!"

waiting for gumbo

gumbo is in the pot and fresh rice is cooking right now. mmmm. it smells delicious!
i can't wait to eat!

i just spent all evening re-arranging the room. i don't believe in karma or fung shui or room energy..but i believe in change. :) it makes me feel good to re-arrange things every once in awhile. i feel so much better now.

i was floating in a sea of "nothing matters" earlier today. i conceptually still feel the same right now but it has been dulled. i just kept rationalizing with myself today. i thought that the benefits of me sleeping are beginning to outweigh the benefits of being concious. if this is true, wouldn't i be better off dead? dead means going to sleep and never having to deal with the snooze button, right? it would be a valid option, i think, if it weren't for other people who still like to live.

i got bugs

i caught a bug and i'm going to eat it. :) just kidding. my monitor is littered with plastic bugs. i've got a grasshopper, a fly, a scorpion, beetle, and lady bug.

i've been so out of it lately. tired like nothing else. i just can't seem to get my life in order...or at least seemingly in order. last night i crashed out as soon as i got home until almost 10pm or so.

i'm waiting for jeremy to get back home from work right now. i'm going to try and convince him to eat out at Vinny's tonight. we haven't eaten there in a while. tomorrow is icecream day with my icecream partner, jennifer. food is my life...and sleeping.

i have to go do some research now. avoiding "real" reading and starting up on my paper due next week. :(

Life Right Now(1-10): 6

I want to be a candy pimp

I love Halloween. I love to spread the joy of candy to all the young ones!
Start um' out young to appreciate quality chocolates and candies. :)
I don't think my condo is an area where kids go door to door so I don't think I can pass out candy here. I thought about going home to do it but it's on a weekday. I don't know anyone who has a house or lives in a neighborhood where kids go trick or treating..so I'm pretty much SOL on the passing out of candy. I had some glimmer of home when I got an email asking for volunteers for the Halloween city event. I went to their website to sign up as a volunteer but all they wanted were people to put together tables and take them apart. The closest chance I'll get to passing out candy is in two year when Halloween is on a weekend and I can go home to do it. hehehe. until then, the candy is all mine.