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friendships, kabobs, and high school

i'm afraid of living sometimes. i'm afraid of people and afraid of initiating hope where there might not be any. i'm very hesitant these days to engage in meaningful friendships because i'm afraid failing once again. there's something about me that's easy to fall from. maybe it's my hatred, pessimism, or depressive nature. we're all dying, so what's the point of living. few people in this world, make my life worth the living. i wonder what happens when they all fade away....

the kabobs are looking good. they have marinated all night long. i've got the dining table ready and set out some more cookies. i'm going to pick up a cookie cake this afternoon. when jeremy gets here, we're going to pull out the barbecue grill and make the vegetable trays.

i had a weird dream about high school last night. i had that same feeling of not belonging that plagued me throughout my high school career...of longing to belong. why do we feel the need to be connected? is it genetic or social?

three blind mice

jeremy's grandmother got admitted into the hospital last night after she started feeling dizzy. they think it might be a blood clot or a bad reaction to medication she is taking. the had to do all sorts of tests on her including a cat scan. jeremy and i visited her in the afternoon while she was still waiting to do more tests. i think she's going to be okay and hopefully she can leave the hospital by tomorrow.

we did a lot of errand running today. we're preparing for my birthday party tomorrow. i always celebrate my birthday on new year's eve so we can pop firecrackers. this year, we might not get to do fireworks because of the massive amount of rain we've been having tonight. my hope is that it dries out by tomorrow and the rain stops for good.

our menu for tomorrow night consists of kabobs made of onions, mushrooms, pineapple, bell peppers, and BEEF. we're having chips and salsa, dill pickles, vegetable tray, and lots of cake to go with it. i'm getting two types of cake. my friend hani, gave me an icecream cake this evening and i'm ordering a cookie cake tomorrow afternoon. i wanted to get both kinds for people who like them both. :D like me. i think they'll compliment each other. my mouth is already watering.

speaking of food, jeremy's sister made these chocolate mice out of hershey kisses and a chocolate covered cherry for christmas. i thought they were too cute to eat.


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games, driving, photos, and a birthday

my father is working at my computer setup trying to get my mother's new computer ready for use. i haven't been able to use my computer for two days now.
thus, no site updates...

two nights ago, Eric, Hani, Jeremy, and I went to Walmart to find some games to play. we ended up buying Moods and Battle of the Sexes. Instead of plyaing the games that night though, we ended up driving around b-town. hani drove us to crocket street which about 1/10th of what 6th street is to Austin. we just walked around and looked at the clubs, bars, and people. it was short walk. :D

we then drove around the downtown area along the port of beaumont and looked at great big vessels and oil refinaries which beaumont is known for. we got lost somewhat in the bad neighborhoods...or at least that's what everyone calls them since a lot crime happens there. a lot of people in the car were making fun of the broken down houses and close location to the pollution of the refinaries. yet, as i looked at the houses, i noticed signs of humanity eveywhere. there were little flower pots and trees on the porch. on the front door, many people had beautiful welcome wreaths. and, so many people had christmas lights decorating their houses. i was thinking that maybe these people aren't so poor really, at least not at heart.

yesterday, jeremy and i took his mother out to eat at Johnny Corrinos which is another Italian chain resaurant. actually, she paid for it but we kept her company. :D after we ate, we went back to their house and she and I went through old pictures of the family so i could pick out which ones i wanted scanned. jeremy isn't one for nostalgia so he doesn't have any pictures of his family with him. we found this old picture of his mother taken for her first marriage and it was so beautiful. it looked like something out of a fairy tale...which goes to show how deceptive pictures are. they eneded up getting their marriage annulled not long after they were married. the photo was done in brown tone and it is stunning. she has beautiful eyes which jeremy has also.

later that night, while jeremy, john, my dad, and i were talking about the future of technology, i turned 25. it popped on my dad's calender software and he was like "op! happy birthday!" hehe. so yes. i'm now a quarter of a century old.

i'm planning on going shopping today. i need to return a hoodie i got and look for some shoes. i think i might stop by Maggie Moo's Ice cream today and treat myself to some ice cream.

gum disease, suits, and leftovers

the day after christmas was quite as eventful but far more painful than christmas. i had to get up at 8am for a dentist appointment.
i got this hygenist named sharon who practically cut my mouth to pieces. i was squirming in the chair trying not to cry because i had passed my
threshold of pain. the dentist ans hygenist were like "it's not good when your mouth bleeds like this. it means you have gum disease." and i'm like, "what do you expect to happen when you stab my mouth with razor 2000 times!" well, i kept that to myself but i was in so much pain. my gums still ache. the funny thing is that i floss more than anyone i know but i have the worst gum bleeding. even my brother's mouth wasn't that bad according to the dentist.

jerms and i went over to his parents house after that and had some homecooked breakfast. i had strawberry crepes and sausage. it was good. it was also the first time i had breakfast in months.

around 10am we set up to go shopping with my friend jennifer for clothes and shoes. i ended up getting 3 pairs of jeans so now i don't have to wear the same one over and over again. i wanted to get some brown boots but nothing i tried on was perfect. i've learned my lesson about shoes. if they don't feel comfortable on the first fit, don't buy them. you're not supposed to break in shoes with your feet. we dropped jennifer off at 1:30pm so she could go see the two towers with her family. we then headed back to my house to fix us some leftovers from christmas dinner.

we watched a dvd and kind of napped until it was time for jeremy to go. he had to have dinner with his folks since his parents were cooking his favorite dish..chicken fried deer. i wanted to eat with my parents, so i stayed behind and called up our friend Hani. He, his sister Ramona, and her friend Jon, and I went to Men's Wearhouse to find Hani a nice outfit to wear for his New Year's Eve party. Ramona was going to buy this suit for her brother as a Christmas present. Jon was there because he likes to shop, one of the few men that i know who does. I was there as a fashion consultant. hehe. Man oh man. that is some high class shopping. there's this person who follows you around with a measuring tape and makes sure everything fits you. they then try to find every parcel of the outfit they think you'll like and buy. We finally found him a nice black turtleneck with a leather jacket, grey dress pants, a fancy belt, monk strap shoes, and even socks. a tailor had to come out and mark the fitting so she can take parts in and cuff the pants. she had to grab the butt part of his pants at one point and he practically jumped. hehehe.

we dropped ramona and jon off at hani's store (maggie moo's ice cream) and then headed back to my place where we were supposed to be having dinner at 6:30. however, when we got there, only my brother was there. we ended up snacking on cookies and chex mix while i got dinner ready for when my parents and nat returned home from shopping. i had on my maggie moo cow spot apron and it made me feel like a real chef for some reason. i was only warming up food but i felt like a professional. just as hani and i were about to give up and just start eating, my parents showed up around 8pm. by then, jeremy returned and we all ate together.

that night, hani, jeremy, nat, and i played spoons and started working on my 1000 piece pooh bear puzzle i got for christmas. i gave up after the border was done. i was so tired i crashed out. the rest of them worked on until 2am or so. they decided to call it quits cuz they have to wake up before noon tomorrow. we're going to go eat lunch with an old friend...or I was going to..but i needed back up help cuz this friend is a dominant talker and i need ammunition to back me up.

so now its morning..or late morning. i'm a bit tired and my back hurts a little. i'm wearing this new scent jennifer got me for christmas and my new jeans. i'm kind of in the mood to go shopping again..but with what money?

wohoo. this was a very good christmas. i got a million great things and we had so much fun. as we speak, i'm wearing a swanky new watch i got made of bungi chord. we took over 300 pictures so it will probably be next year before i get them all up. heheh.

i'm going to post my loot up when i have more time. i have a dentist appointment tomorrow at 8am. not looking forward to it. not at all. THEN, we're going shopping for ater xmas specials. THAT should be real fun...and i'll have clean teeth while i shop.

hope everyone had a merry christmas..

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Merry Christmas and the Cam

Merry Christmas ya gimps. hehehe.
It's about 1am here. we just got done setting up the camera for live viewing of our xmas celebration tomorrow. it's so cool. i guess i'm just a video geek. i can't help it. i get excited about this sort of stuff.

if any of you get bored during christmas afternoon, toon in and watch us celebrate massive commercial gluttony. we should be starting around 1:30pm or so but i plan on leaving the cam live all christmas morning through night. our xmas fest is prolly going to last from 1:30pm-4pm..if we're lucky!

CLICK HERE to go to the Christmas Cam

all i want for christmas is to win the powerball

christmas approaches. it is the eve of all mighty presents day. hehe.
i still have some errands to run, last minute shopping and whatnot. i had to get up early today to
drop off a gift at my friend eric's place. i then had to pick up some strawberrys, salad, and angel food cake at the grocery store.
then i had to swing by honey b ham to pick up some ham my dad had ordered. we're having fried turkey and honey b ham for
christmas. my mom showed me the christmas menu. i'll post it later. it's yum.

we went to see two towers yesterday. i actually didn't like it as much as the first one. i thought there was too much character introduction and
hollywood bs going on. anyhow, we hung out with Hani afterwards and he came over. That night, Hani, my dad, Jeremy, Nat, and I drove 25 minutes to Louisiana and bought Power Ball Lottery tickets. The jackpot is up to 300,000,000 dollars now. We were talking (more like fanstasizing) about what we'd do with that much money. We all agreed it'd be best to give most of it away. We also made a pact. if anyone in the car won, we'd give each other at least a million dollars..and more if we felt generous. hehe. i think with all the dreaming we did, we already got our lottery ticket's worth. :D

still have presents to go drop off. playing santa clause today. ho ho ho. jeremy and i have to go to his grandmother's place today for their traditional Christmas Eve thing. They do family pictures, go to the Children's Mass, and then have gumbo. I'm totally in it for the gumbo. hehe.
WELL, if i don't post again till tomorrow.

Have a Great Christmas Everyone! Eat lots! and also Eat lots again.

made it home

we got up around 10am today and got ready for our trip to b-town. we barely fit in the car and we still had Nat to go pick up. we have sooooo many presents! it's so crazy. the drive wasn't long at all. we flew home practically.

when we got home, i noticed there were a million more presents under the tree. there were so many that they had to start another huge pile in the dining room. this christmas will be so fun and exciting. i haven't a clue as to what people are getting each other. i think i'm going to broadcast the even live... a chum family exclusive. hehe.

when i got home, i had to run to the target with my dad and nat to go return a present. after buying it, i decided it was a boring and dumb gift. we then went to the mall to look around. i saw some boots i may want to go back for during the after xmas sales. :D

we then went to visit some family friends. their two daughters have kids and my gosh, they were rowdy. one kid is about 5 or 6 and he was like a super hyper active crazed maniac. it was nuts.
it reminded me of why i don't want one.. especially not now. i don't have that kind of patience.

we ate peking duck when we got home and had some icecream cheesecake.
Nat spent time watching Lord of the Rings, Fellowship of the Rings since she's never seen it and we're taking her to see Two Towers tomorrow. My MOM is even coming to see it! She said she liked the first one because the scenery was so nice. i told her there was going to be less pretty scenery in the next one. my dad can't come because he has work tomorrow. i told him to play hookie. haha. oh well. someone has to put the gold in the pot.

now i'm playing around with adjusting my cam software for home. i also hooked up my brother's Logitech speakers up to my computer. they're awesome. you can really tell a difference as far as quality compared to mine.

so.. Two Towers tomorrow. woohoo.. can hardly wait.

alachia's portrait studio

i've been very exhausted all day long today. after tigger rudely woke me up from my peaceful sleep, i've been feeling it all day. i got up, fed the cats and made the bed. i then did some email and chatted with some cool people online. i then went to go watch the movie Gia that i rented. it wasn't what i expected at all. i hate watching movies where people destroy themselves with drugs ( i.e. leaving las vegas). i guess i can't relate.

my friend jennifer came over around 2pm and we took some photos of her. she wanted to get some photos of herself since that's what her mom wants for christmas. she went to sears to get it done but they were going to charge her 50 dollars for one set of prints and even more for any additional poses she wanted.


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we took about 40 pictures and then narrowed them down to four. i took one of the images and put in two different background sets like a real portrait studio. it was fun. i love being creative and i love taking pictures of people if they'll let me.

jeremy and i just did our packing. we're leaving tomorrow around noon, i think. i'm going to pick up my dad's bestfriend's daughter, nat. she's staying with us again this year for xmas break.
i'm about to finish wrapping the last of the presents. it's going to be a crowded car tomorrow.

by this time tomorrow i should be home with the folks in b-town.

the last full day in austin for december

tigger woke me up this morning trying to break the door down. he was whining like a baby too.
it drove me insane. i really needed to sleep too. oh well.

there's going to be a sex and the city marathon new year's eve for season four and five. i'm going to miss it! i don't have hbo at my house in b-town. that sucks.

i'm staring at the pile of gifts i still have to wrap. ugh. not looking forward to it. i'm about to go downstairs and watch Gia. Then, I'm going to take pictures of a friend so she can have pics to give her parents. I print out nice pictures now. It's fun.

I'm so tired now. I just want to crawl back into bed. jeremy is at work. he's bored out of his mind. he's at the office all by himself. i don't know how he does it.

ugh. still need to clean and pack before tomorrow.

oh xmas tree oh xmas tree

so this is what i did today:

went to the municipal court and got one of my tickets removed
went shopping for final gifts with eric
ate at pluckers with eric and jerms
watched unfaithful (makes me look at hallways differently)
teased jeremy about his xmas presents
took a shower
did email
made a digital xmas tree

get your free tickets

i just woke up. i was about to meet my friend, Eric, to go shopping but then i remembered i had two parking tickets i needed to contest from my last day of school. apparently i parked in a no-parking zone but there was no sign on my curb and there was a huge construction truck earlier blocking a sign across the driveway.

since i was gone all day, they gave me two tickets. i feel as if i don't deserve the tickets since i wasn't intentionally braking the law. i don't understand unwarranted punishment. however, if ignorance is no excuse, i'm going to ask them to bring the charge down to one ticket.

man. i hate dealing with egos.

forgetting you

where does all the pain go? it never exits, it has no escape. it just shifts from one emotional spectrum to the other.

sometimes i get angry and other times i'm simply void of emotion. melancholy was my best friend until i found misery.

so much nothing to do

jeremy just went off to go play basketball.
i wish i were a guy sometimes. i wish my life had been about playing basketball with the "buds" and hanging out with no emotional ties to anyone. would have been great.

i'm just sitting at home now trying to figure out what i should do next. i just finished my paid work and thought about renting a movie. i've been meaning to see the movie "gia" but haven't been able to. it was playing at gurlz cellar the other night so it reminded me that i wanted to watch it.

i should probably do some emailing and catch up. i've been pretty bad this past month being busing with the end of school and stuff.

those who haven't seen

jeremy and i watched blade 2 last night. it's been awhile since i've seen it but i still like the first one better. our friends ditched us and went to see the two towers without us. we're going to see it when we get to beaumont. i can't wait. i've heard nothing but great things about it. i knew it was going to be good anyhow.

here's what one friend wrote to me. it was exactly what i'd say if i had already seen the two towers:

"Some co-workers and I went to see Two Towers yesterday...man, even though I haven't seen many of my fav. movies when they came onto the big screen, I haven't been impressed with such a epic movie since we went to watch Braveheart(do you remember that? us and jeremy, hani, raymond...about the last day of school...before summer of '95..those were the days..). And this far surpasses that in every way...and easily surpasses the first one, FOTR, and the Star Wars dud (well sort of, especially after watching TTT) that came out earlier this year...The way the Helms Deep battle is done makes the coliseum fight in AOTC look as if George Lucas is still learning how to direct...he could learn a few tips, like hire a real digital effects crew next time.."

hahahaha. cracks me up. well, i'm doing some paid work right now. i got some last night and probably won't get to do my shopping today because of it. it's so monotonous. i'm basically just tracing a drawing. if they only knew the power of my mind, they'd harness it for better use.

okay, back to my CAD monkey duties.

quackers in the night

well, i was determined to go boogying last night and sure enough, i did. i called up karen () last night to see if she wanted to eat spaghetti with jerms and i but her phone was busy. she ended up calling later that night and was hungry. i offered to take her to Freebirds to get a burrito since she had never eaten there before. i also had ulterior motives. Marble's Slab is right next to Freebirds and i've been bugging for some ice cream.

Freebirds ended up being closed so we went to Jason's Deli since she had never eaten inside before. she got a turkey sandwich which she gobbled all down. we went to marble's slab afterwards and i got my usual. karen got some nestle's crunch mixins that she ended up not liking. it ruined her whole ice cream and she was only able to play with it rather than eat it. i had to take it away from her eventually and throw it away. i had to put the ice cream out of its misery.

i forgot to pick up all my studio equipment last weekend so i dragged karen along to help me haul all my stuff home. i forgot to give her the xmas present i bought earlier so the trip home was needed anyhow.

we didn't know where we were going to go dancing so we ended up walking around 6th street for awhile. finally, we decided to take a chance on boy cellar, a gay club on 4th street. on Tuesday nights, it turns into gurlz cellar and so that's where we headed. when we got there we noticed there was a line, so we knew the place was going to be happening. while we were waiting in line the Austin Duck Bus Tour drove by and a bunch of the people threw duck beak gazoos at us. heh. we scored some free stuff. it was cool.

inside, the place was packed. the music was great too. i even danced on the blocks for awhile. karen turned out to be a really good dancer. she had me fooled earlier, asking me all these questions about how to dance and being timid and what not. it was so fun. i'm so glad to have found a dancing buddy.

when we got out, we both quacked our way back to the car. i was so exhausted. i didn't wake up till 1pm the next day.


"karen, ducking around"
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"what a bunch of quackers"
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"silly beans"
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waking worries

i woke up this morning thinking i was going to be all excited about going shopping. however, i woke up today feeling extremely lonely and depressed. i had a dream about an old friend. for some reason there are always explanations, skewed perceptions in my dreams. its as if i'm always looking for the answer to "why?" and my mind is trying to give me answers so it will be at rest finally.

anyhow, after jeremy left for work, i was totally alone with the kitties. john has already left to go home so the house is vacant to me. i don't know why, but i just felt totally alone. i wanted to scream out to the world that i was still alive.

i'm staring at a pile of gifts to wrap and a pile of clothes to wash and a bed that needs to be made. i still have a lot of shopping to do. i need a shopping partner..one that's willing to watch me get side tracked a lot. :)

sigh. i guess i better go start the day. prolly won't head out to go shopping till later.

the white christmas

and yet christmas makes me remember of things i don't have in life and/ or will never have again. i've been talking with an old friend recently and we've been discussing how strange it is to look around and see which of our friends are still with us. those who i would have thought would be there forever have all but disappeared from my life. those who were not so close to me are still around. i guess its easier to keep acquaintances than friends.

i guess this season also makes me melancholy. i dream of wishes that can't come true and snowflakes on all our texas noses......

shop till you drop

i did some major shopping today. it's not over yet though. i still have to go cross city tomorrow to pick up more presents. i'm trying to buy relatively inexpensive fun gifts this year. i don't want to overdo it like i did last year. i think i made people feel uncomfortable. i like to give but i guess you have to be reasonable sometimes.

one of the gifts i went out and bought was for adrian's girlfriend, mikey. during the white elephant gift exchange, i took her disney mug of eeyore. at first she thought it was a tigger mug and was very excited about it...so i got her a tigger mug today. i think she'll like it alot.

i love christmas time. i love being with my family, eating good food, visiting old friends, and doing holiday shopping. i plan on hitting the stores for the after christmas specials.

i went to get jeremy's oil changed today at the dealership in Austin. since he uses synthetic oil, the price was unbelievable. 56 dollars! his preferred customer discount from the other dealership in ft. worth didn't transfer. what a jip.

jerms and i are going to crash downstairs on the futon tonight to sleep with the kitties. i'm going to pop in a movie and watch it till i get droopy eyed. last night, i went to sleep really really late and couldn't get to sleep. i was lying there under the covers with my eyes closed and realized after an hour that i was still awake. it was awful. it felt as if i were a trapped consciousness in a dead body.

i'm gonna see if karen wants to go dancing with me tomorrow. i want to boogy.

the christmas party (2002)

we had our chirstmas party last night and it went very well.
our menu included:
an award winning chilli recipe,
rice
beans
jeremy's mom's salad recipe
chocolate chip cookies
cupcakes
chips and salsa and queso (from serranos)
vegetable plate with lite sourcream dip

we played Mafia most of the night since we had a fairly large group of people. it's this game where you draw cards and if you have the ace, you're the mafia and if you draw a jack, you're the cop. the rest of the cards are townspeople. there are two mafia and one cop.
when the game begins, the host tells everyone to lower their heads and close their eyes. then the host says, "mafia, raise your heads." so the two mafia people raise their heads and the host knows who they are. then the host says "mafia, choose your victim." then, the two mafia people have to agree on who they want to kill and point to them without making any noise. then the host says "mafia, lower your heads."

then the cop is asked to raise their head. once he does, he has one guess at who he thinks the mafia is. the host will either nod yes or no. then the cop places his or her head down and the everyone is asked to raise their heads. the host says who died and then the accusations begin flying. if the cop guessed correct, he or she must convince everyone else that a certain person is the mafia or if they know who isn't mafia, they have to convince everyone not to accuse that person. once the a townsperson makes an accusation, someone has to second it. then the accused has to defend themselves. afterwards, a vote is taken. if the townspeople vote that they think they've got the mafia, that person is dead.

the point of the game is either for the mafia to be the last standing or the townspeople to vote the mafia off.

there was a lot of diplomacy, logic, and direct lying involved. i didn't like being the mafia but i loved people a townsperson trying to figure it out.

at around midnight, we played our white elephant gift exchange game. we all drew numbers. the first person gets to open the wrapped gift of their choice. then they get to unwrap it. the second person can either take the first person's opened gift or open a present of their own. if the someone takes the another person's gift, that person gets to either take another opened present they like or open another present.

i ended up taking a person's present. it was an eeyore coffee mug from the disney store. i felt really really guilty that night for taking it because the girl i took it from really liked it. i know the whole point of the game is that everything is less than 5-7 dollars so we can all go out and buy the gifts for ourselves..but still. she's our friend's girlfriend. i think i'm going to buy her the same mug only a different character that she likes...tigger.

we played taboo and trivial pursuit as well. those weren't as fun as mafia though.

i'll post the two or three pictures i took from last night later.

now i have a history final to take. fun fun.

p.s. karen () came to my party and i think she had a relatively good time. i made her stay longer than she wanted to so i'm sure she's crashed out right now. she was so tired by the time we ended the party, i probably should have offered to take her home. she ended up being the mafia like 75% of the time we played the game. it was insane.

december wallpaper

I stayed up till 5 something last night and woke up around 9am to finish my project for my presentation today. I was so unmotivated that I spent most of the night creating a new wallpaper for my desktop. Here's how productive I was:



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i'm about to head out school to go print out my presentation boards. I'm gonna grab a smoothie from the chippery while I'm at it. :) yummy.

christmas cards away

i think i've finally gotten all my xmas cards out of the way.
i love excuses to send snail mail.

a new collaborative creative writing project

as if there aren't enough stories about misery.
i started to do some creative writing today. a friend and i are thinking about putting together a collection of short stories or some kind of creative project. i'm excited about it. i hope it doesn't fall through like all my other creative projects.

it's supposed to be about a person much like myself. it's a young man who is living a completely ordinary life but sees the world through the eyes of a completely introverted, skeptical, miserable person. sounds awful i know but its awesome for me. hehehe.
so here's a start:

Sometimes my mind dances with my eyes. I catch glimpses of demons. No, they're not real demons nor do I believe in demons. However, these images are real for the tiny moments in which they appear out of the corner of my eye. What is reality anyhow? The only reality that we can ever know is the one we experience. Of course, there have to be other realities out there, ones that exist outside of our scope of comprehension. Sometimes I wish my skepticism would be run through by an act of God. I think it would be easier to believe in a higher power, a moment and existence greater than my own. Life otherwise, is quite arbitrary. And yet, at the same time, it is completely priceless and compelling. We are the maker of our own wills. We feed our own life with the lies of subjective truths in order to find the will to breathe each day. Meaning is child's play. Living is hell

What I did.

Okay that was my plan but this is what I did.

I started to watch the Many Adventures of Winnie the pooh,
then stopped to get a midnigth snack
then went to bed.

slacker.

what's the plan?

okay, this is my plan.
i'm going to finish watching the Many Adventures of Winnie the Pooh,
then i'm going to think of a topic for my presentation on Thursday,
then i'm going to update my site,
then i'm going to get a midnight snack,
and then i'm going to play on my computer,
and then i'm going to sleep.

gumbo time

what time is it?
i think it's gumbo time.
i'm hungry.
again.

jeremy is napping.
i am going to wake him up.
why?
because it's gumbo time.

like a washing machine

had a pb&j for lunch.
woke up at a decent hour so things are going fairly well considering this is my life we're talking about. i think i almost broke the washing machine. i overloaded it with too many jeans and towels. jerms always tells me to separate towels from clothes but i refuse to be that anal. heh. he'll prolly say "i told you so" now.

my friend eric forgot about the christmas party i'm having this weekend. so much for friends that remember me. i was pretty upset this morning when i found out he scheduled work for this saturday. he's going to be fresh out of bartending school..and doing some gig.

my friend hani, from beaumont is coming up though. i'm happy about that. i think we're going to cook chili, rice, and cookies.

i'm half way done with my paper. i took break from it for two hours. i better get back and finish.

hungry and not studying

it's a very cold and wet day today, definitely a gloomy winters day. i woke up pretty late today but not as late as my brother. we both don't have school anymore. he has to study for finals and i have to finish papers and projects.

we went to see harry potter, chamber of secrets yesterday afternoon. it was a complete waste of time in my opinion. i was pretty disappointed because i liked the first one quite a bit. i think the kids have lost their "cute edge" and since this is the second book, i expected a lot more plot development and perhaps some actually magic.

i think the next few days are going to be pretty stressful considering how little i've gotten done this weekend. i'm about to try to finish up my history paper. i'd like to get that out of the way. no more playing.

right.

i'm starving right now. there's nothing to eat in the house. we need to go grocery shopping. i need food! i keep sticking gum in my mouth but it's not helping much. give me food.

cheesecake factory

We got a pretty late start this afternoon but the day turned out to be pretty eventful. John finally got ready and we headed out the door. We had to pick up his friend Chris first and then we were off to the Cheesecake Factory. John and I ordered the Ceasar Salad and Louisiana Chicken Pasta. Their ceasar salad is HUGE-mungous! Gigantic. It's enough to feed my entire family. The entire meal, we talked about all of our friends and pondered the ideals of ambitions.

After we were done eating, we dropped Chris and John off. We then headed to Famous Footwear to return the boots I bought earlier this week. When we got there, I discovered that the shoes I had bought were now twenty dollars cheaper. I then decided to ask them for a price difference instead of returning them. I felt great being able to keep my boots. I've always wanted tall boots. Now I have to buy things to go with them. :D

We then went on a shopping spree. We got lots of presents out of the way. We also bought our presents for the xmas party this weekend. We're doing a white elephant gift exchange. Basically, everyone draws numbers and then the first person unwraps any gift they want. The second person then gets the choice of taking the first persons gift or opening another gift and so on.

After we got home, I spent a good hour wrapping presents and then another two hours writing christmas cards and then another printing out pictures for empty picture frames.
now it's almost 2am. john and jerms are playing warcraft III...they're in a 3v3 game.
i'm hungry. i wonder what's in the fridge?

the christmas party

Yesterday was my last day of classes. My teacher sat us down for instructions about our final review next Friday. The only requirements he gave us was to be there from 9am-3pm and put the pictures on powerpoint. Hah. I thought that was awesome. I actually get free reign over how I present my project. This is an unprecedented event. Amazing really. I've also never been more impressed with the work my studio has produced before. I wish I could swipe some of the pictures of their stuff to post. Maybe I can dig through the network files and and find some. hehe.

Last night, Jerms and I went to his company's Christmas party. I was freezing the entire time because there was a draft flowing throughout the place. The party was at the Red Oak Ballroom. They had an open bar and appetizers which we helped ourselves too while we were waiting for his friends to arrive. I got sprite and some crackers.
When Jeremy's friend Todd finally showed up, we nabbed ourselves a table near the jazz band. That was a funny little mistake. The saxaphone player was totally tipsy and kept coming to our table to jam out in someone's ear.

Later, when the band was taking a break, he came over and sat with us and began discussing his trip to Paris, France on Monday. I learned more about him than I did any of Jeremy's co-workers. He was a 47 year old jazz musician who only recently started learning how to read music after 30 years of playing. He's never been married and he comes from family of 7 generations of Texans. He's recorded a few albums and has played for Jeremy's company xmas party 3 years in a row.

At the end of the night, the president gave a speech and awarded 3 employees with innovation awards which included a plaque and 3,500 dollars towards a vacation. They also announced that whoever had the orange dot underneath their glass wins the centerpiece at that table. Guess who won?! ME! hehe.. yeah! Something cool came out of the event after all.

Today, we have to do some Christmas shopping...if we ever leave the house.. it's already 2pm. we still haven't eaten. I'm waiting for John to take a shower and get dressed.

about how she wants him to go down on her

ruple: back
*** Auto-response sent to ruple: i'm online, just set to"away" for various reasons.
if i don't reply to your message then you're prolly one of those various reasons. heh.
alachia: like my message?
ruple: you were wrong about that avril lavigne song
ruple: your favorite one
alachia: what does she say?
ruple: about how she wants him to go down on her
ruple: she is actually saying she wants to see him go down on one knee
alachia: ah man. that sucks.
ruple: hehehe
alachia: that song sucks
ruple: i knew you would say that

shoes

yesterday i went shoe shopping. i need to find shoes to go with the dress i bought. i'm running out of time. i think it's pretty pathetic that i don't own decent clothing for special occasions. i ended up getting a pair of tall boots from famous footwear but after trying them on again at home, i've decided to return them. they just didn't go with the outfit. i'm trying to get my brother to go with me tomorrow to help me pick something that will match.

tigger and dessy are upstairs with me. they are both lounging on the bed keeping me company while i do school work. tigger seems really cold now. he got curled up into a ball after i took the picture so i put a blanket over him. my little roly poly.

u can see our optical tree on the nightstand. oh xmas tree. oh xmas tree.

hmmm..funny that i mention my shoe dilemma. i'm creating shoes in my 3d model right now for the display cases. heh.

i think marriage as lost its necessity and value

"Wolfgang Puck in divorce
LOS ANGELES, California (AP) -- Restaurateur and designer Barbara Lazaroff has filed for divorce from Wolfgang Puck after 19 years of marriage to the celebrity chef.

Lazaroff filed a petition for dissolution of marriage based on "irreconcilable differences," said her lawyer, Harold Stanton. The divorce was filed in Superior Court on November 27. "

i read stuff like this every day. in fact, i just heard of a break up of a seven year relationship earlier this week. i'm so distraught by this phenomenon of "irreconcilable differences." what is this? what's the point of getting married? was the 7, 10, 19, or even 25 years good enough. is it okay that marriages are just a temporary partnership? that's how it is appearing to me.

how about instead of getting married, people just sign 5-15 year contracts with each other that is up for negotiations 6 months prior to the end of the contract. i guess i just don't get the big deal about marriage anymore when divorce is just as common and multiple marriages are the norm. in leu of these sorts of facts, why the hell am i being pressured to get married?

the simple things in life are overrated

it must be nice being complacent with simple living. no drama. no worries. no unobtainable aspirations. sometimes i scoff at people who are emotionally shallow but really, i wonder who should be scoffed at. i shall never truly be at a point in my life where i can just be content or happy. moments of happiness are always brief and short lived. to me, there's no real point to anything except sustaining some sort of existence. hell, even if i believed in an ever after i'd prolly be dissapointed in that too. nothing is ever going to be good enough. nothing is ever going to be worth this living.

the cocktail dress

i just got back from shopping. let me say that shopping in austin is so much more draining than shopping in b-town. i guess that's like the difference between 900,000 people though.

i had to go buy a dress for jeremy's company's christmas party. the attire is for women to wear a nice elegant cocktail dress. at first, i got jeremy to let me wear a pant suit instead but then i thought i didn't want us to be too alienated. i don't have any real dresses so i had to go buy one. i tried to find shoes but i'm not used to buying expensive footwear so i was too uncomfortable having someone help me put shoes on my feet. i just gave up on the shoe thing. i'll go get something from payless or something. it's only for one night anyhow. i thought about keeping the tag on the dress so i could return it.

on the way home, i stopped by walgreens and bought some christmas things. i got some candy canes for the light tree and some red and green m&ms for the candy jar. i also got some wrapping ribbons. i contemplated on getting some cheap xmas cards but i think i might print my own out this year. we'll see.

jeremy called while i was on my way back and told me he was going to be really late coming home.. like 9-10pm. i want to wait for him to eat dinner so i'm snacking on chips and salsa right now. i'm starving.

deck the halls

i'm washing all of our new sheets right now. the bed set needs to be washed twice because it's still pretty stiff. i prolly should have spent the extra money and bought the extra thread count. ah well. i know now.

we put up christmas deocrations in the condo last night. jeremy bought christmas decorations before we left b-town yesterday. we got a light tree, star lights, and 200 white string lights. sometimes, it's totally fun knowing people can still suprise you. we put them up in the living room last night while listening to the few xmas cds i swiped from home. hehe. we also put up our optical christmas tree in the bedroom. i'd say we're ready for a christmas party.

oh yeah, jerms also got me reigndeer horns and those kissing bear things. i'd say we're pretty much in the season now. i'm trying to think of stuff i can make that's xmas-like. what kind of food says christmas? cakes? cookies?

turkey dinner

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you better believe it was some freaking good food!

cut the turkey

well, i've had a pretty good thanksgiving. it's been busy. it's always hectic when jeremy and i are trying to balance time with both of our parents and each other.

we had fried turkey on thursday with the works of sides. mmmmm yum. i think i've gained ten pounds from all the food i've eaten this weekend.

we also visited our friend Hani who owns a magi moos ice cream store here. we helped him close up thanskgiving night and played some make-shift pit.

friday morning, jeremy, eric, my dad, and i woke up around 4am and headed out of the house by 4:30am to get a jump start on the after thanksgiving day sales. i dropped off jerms, eric, and dad at best buy. they had to wait an hour and a half in the freezing cold to get in. i then headed to k-mart which was opening at 5am. i had to wait in line as well. my goal was to get a queen size bed set for only 44 dollars. the problem was getting to the aisle and picking out the one i wanted before everyone else. the best buy group scored big time as well. they each got a 48 speed cdrw for 10 dollars, a 80 gig hard drive and 256 ram for 40 dollars, and two packs of blank cd-rs for free. that's pretty damn impressive.

afterwards, we went over to bed, bath, and beyond and picked up some 400 count prima satin cotton sheets. we are ready to go!
hahaha. needless to say, my bed and computer got a big time upgrade this weekend.

i'm helping my parents set up christmas decorations right now. i just got through decorating the tree. picture posts to come.


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nano thoughts

good luck to all you nanowrimo freaks out there.

i'm beter than your kids

wohoo. only four more hours till we head off to b-town. thanksgiving here we come! i'm really excited about going home, eating fried turkey, dressing, and the rest of the goods, and then doing the whole day after thanksgiving shopping spree! i wish i lived in that city where they kick of the holiday spending spree with a parade and fireworks. okay. so maybe there's a bit of hypocracy to being a citizen of this country. (wink)

i'm still going to enjoy the holidays. here's my list of things to get:
-600 count prima satin cotton sheets
-new cheap shoes
-blue jeans
-clear shower curtain (cheap)
-gifts for xmas for misc people

so that's not much at all. i'll have to check the ads to see what's on sale and stuff. i'm nowhere near as good as my dad for bargain buying but i try to do the best i can.

we're all packed and ready to go. jerms is one of those prepare freaks who has to have everything ready to the last detail. hopefully john's got his stuff together so we can leave as soon as jerms comes home from work.

while i was at school yesterday, i found this link. it's damn funny.
here's an intro:
"If you work in an office with lots of people, chances are that you work with a person who hangs pictures up that their kids have drawn. The pictures are always of some stupid flower or a tree with wheels. These pictures suck; I could draw pictures much better. In fact, I can spell, do math and run faster than your kids. So being that my skills are obviously superior to those of children, I've taken the liberty to judge art work done by other kids on the internet. I'll be assigning a grade A through F for each piece: "

i am better than your kids

in the bedroom

i watched a really depressing drama today. in the bedroom. i knew it was going to be pretty heavy but..goodness. i had to take a break from watching it just to take a break from the depression. i thought the movie was pretty good though as far as drama goes.
the whole thing was like watching a nightmare fantasy. i'm about to head to bed now. i'm debating on wether or not to go to school tomorrow since it's optional. i'm not tired but i'm going to pop in magnolia and hopefully i'll just fade away.

creek crossing from sunday

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here comes the cold

today, the weather was like a whisper of death. i walked outside thinking it would be a bit warm and sunny but instead the sky was dark and the wind was silent and cold. my throat is feeling a bit scratchy now. i hope i'm not coming down with anything.

jerms and i were going to eat in today but he forgot to defrost the meat. we ended up going to this place called "888." We had the standard vietnamese vermicelli and grilled beef meal we always get. it's always a tasty treat. i was freezing after we got back so i jumped under the covers and took a nap. jeremy was lured in as well. who can resist a warm bed?

now, jerms is playing some custom war3 games and i'm getting a start on my next history paper. holy cow. yeah.

i'm really looking forward to going home for thanskgiving vacation. only two more days.

nature calls

jeremy, eric, and i went shopping on Saturday for a few things. we went to fry's to get some paper that was on sale and look for a few other things. we headed to best buy afterwards to look for the lotr soundtrack for jerms. it was 16 dollars so we decided it wasn't worth it. it took us awhile to find the bed, bath, and beyond after that but we finally made it. jeremy and i had to get some of those clothes storage vacuum bags. since our extra storage space in john's closet is caputz, we needed to find a good way to store clothes. we also gave a bunch of it away to goodwill. now we actually have an inch of breathing room into he closet.

we were going to go canoeing out at barton springs but after spending the money on shopping, we decided against it. since eric had never been to mt. bonnell, we took him up there for a brief walk and a view.

eric came over afterwards and helped us take down all the boxes in storage and consolidate everything. our room is a little bit better. we also sold jeremy's old speakers to eric. it was like a regular yard sale..but it was a room sale. :)

we then went back to eric's place (which is 30 minutes up in N. Austin), ordered chinese take out, and played the pit! wohoo. we left rather early since we decided to go hiking the next day.

Sunday, eric, his brother- sean, and his friend- mike showed up and we went to subway and got lunch to go. we drove up to the hills to do some hiking. we had a picnic outdoors and then headed off. i think we hiked 6 miles total. at one point, there was a creek crossing. two of the guys tried to skip over the creek on the rocks but jeremy, eric and i decided to take off our shoes and socks and brave the water. it was freezing, ice cold water!

at one point, we stopped to skip stones. i had never been able to skip stones before but eric showed me how and i got three skips in! it was pretty cool. we were going to try to pass across more water by building a rock bridge across but we stopped three rocks short. we ended up going further and then turning back when we reached a second entrance to the trails.

needless to say, i was pretty darn exhausted when we finished the whole ordeal. it was nice to get out and exercise though. i was also hungry as mad that night. i could have eaten ten steaks. instead, i ate a salad from wendy's and then snacked on pantry munchies all night long.

closet chaos

last night after jeremy and i got back from eating with our friends at Chili's and Marble's Slab, we hopped on our computers and started doing "geeky stuff." he started burning an entire spindle worth of svcd movies and i started doing some data consolidation on my computer since i only had 3 gigs left on my main hard drive.

john and his friends were downstairs watching the sopranos 1st season. it kinda peeved me that he started watching it without me. after all, i waited for him to watch most of the 3rd season. that's john though. he's pretty indifferent to other people sometimes. anyhow, since he was downstairs, jeremy extended his cd copying factory to john's room. i walked into john's room to visit jeremy and decided to try and find an old jacket i had hung in john's closet. (we had to put most of our clothes in john's closet for storage since our was packed). when i opened the sliding closet door, i noticed the shelf was collapsing! the weight of the clothes had caused the screws to rip from the studs of the wall. we had to move all my books and clothes out of the closet. today we have to go find a hardware store to temporarily fix the darn thing. we really need more space in this place. we're also going to bed, bath, and beyond to buy one of those clothes storage vacuum bags.

later that night, we watched Frailty. gawd. what a waste of time. for half the movie i was content working on studio work and occasionally turning around to see what was going on. however, i eventually quit working and set my attention to finishing the movie. it seemed like the movie was hours upon hours long. it just wouldn't end. it reminded me of some of my classes.. un-overtly redundant. in the end, i was pretty disappointed. if it weren't for the fact that the movie was about some pretty gruesome murders, i'd say the whole damn movie was pretty cheesy. if you're a believer or fanatic, this movie is for you.

this week i think i gave myself two olsers from stress. i finally finished my history paper today..only to have to rush into finishing up my paid work.

jeremy and i made a trip out to campus tonight so i could pick up some books to write my next paper. however, once we got to campus, i realized that i forgot my university id card! sunnambichwhore... yeah. that pretty much sums up my feelings about this week.

i have given myself a new goal to work towards in the kitchen. i'm going to learn how to make sphagetti like Vinny's does. I made sphagetti today and it sucked. It was bland, chunky, and tasteless. Jeremy was supposed to cook it but he had to work really late so I got started on it and ended up finishing it as well. I put in a whole pound of meat! I should have only put in half a pound. It was super thick. chunky monkey

here's a pic of me and my friends from this past weekend after a four and a half our game of Pit. Hanis' sister and her friend John were also there. Can you guess who in the picture won the game?

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picture perfect

my friend up in colorado sent me this pic awhile back. makes me wish texas was more than just desert, marsh, and hill country.


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ornament and character

i've been staring at the second half of my paper for a few hours now. i can't figure out how to start it all. there's something so unsettling about writing about irrelevant things...not irrelevant things in general, but irrelevant things to your life..career..education...etc. i keep checking the internet, my email, and taking sips of my dr. pepper. yes, i've resorted back to soda today because i need something to distract my mind from the bed.

tigger has been sleeping on the bed all day. i can't believe how much he can sleep. maybe i can enter him into a contest. he's such a huge cat. the massive amounts of fur he has doesn't help either. he's a mammoth which makes him sort of like having a gigantic living teddy bear around. i always want to pick him up and squeeze him. the other day, jeremy was holding him and he wanted off but he knew he couldn't get away. he just looked down and sighed heavily. hahaha. i love animals that have characters.

so anyhow, i guess i better get back to my paper about ornament. woohoo. i'm writing a paper about the search for a universal principle about the order of ornament and how it is a futile without also applying the notion of social or cultural influence. i just don't buy the argument that objects/decoration have a universal truth about them that is not derived from an environmental context.

i wish i were tigger

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the pit

ouch. this weekend really hurt me bad. i think every weekend has for the past month. i don't understand why i keep doing this to myself. our friend hani came up from beaumont to visit us. he, his sister- ramona, her friend- john, our friends- eric, akash, mike, and jeremy and i hung out Friday night. we played several card games like "spoons" and "kent." there were really fun...more fun than any other card games i've played before because they involved more physical action.

Saturday, we went with hani to go buy the lord of the rings collector's edition and some stuff from fry's electronics. then we went all over town trying to find him the game risk- lord of the rings version. we finally found it at a toys-r-us store. while we were there, jerms and i finally found the game we've been looking for for ages. it's called the pit, it's another card game that i played once during the christmas holidays at a friend's house. i've been trying to find it ever since. i was so excited. hani, eric, john (ramona's friend), jerms, and i played the game till almost 5 in the morning. it was insane.

Sunday morning we woke up around 11 and went out to eat at the place called "juan in a million." it's this locally owned mexican restaurant. the owner personally shakes your hand as you walk into his restaurant. it's pretty cool. the best things about this place is that you can get a huge meal for only 3 bucks and it's pretty damn good.



they all really wanted to play another game of the pit afterwards because ramonna didn't get to play it the night before. we ended up play for four hours straight without notice of the time. the game is so damn addictive. this was really good for john who is muslim and practicing the ramadan right now. he was starving but couldn't eat till 5:30. as soon as the clock hit, he was raiding our pantry. heh. i couldn't take that religion for sure.

anyhow, they left after that and jeremy and i went out to eat by ourselves. i then tried to do some reading for my paper. i thought about trying to write but i'm just too drained. such is my life. i always screw myself. so now i'm taking a LOOOONG break from my paper research. this semester has to end soon.

an order of steak to go please

i'm starving. there are two huge steaks downstairs waiting to be cooked. mmmm.. so hungry. jeremy had some overtime work to do so dinner was postponed till 7. my mouth is watering. i can't concentrate on school work because my tummy keep rumbling.

since i couldn't study or work, i re-arranged the living room and changed our bed sheets. there's nothing like good house work to keep you distracted.

PICS FROM THE MYTHIC_VAMP,SAY THANK YOU

hahahaha. i'm at the school's computers. i went to go type in a subject and a list of recent typings came up. they're not from lj. it must be from something else. maybe email titles. i don't know. here are a few of them.


American or Desi
bad bad bad boy good good good
bao, zai deng SIOMON nene
i am dying; sub and i'll live
not going to eugene again
PICS FROM THE MYTHIC_VAMP,SAY THANK YOU

i just got back from the smoothie place. i had the lady.
i went to pay and gave her three dollars and ten cents. she said "no, 3.30"
i appologized for my mistake and preceeded to pull out a quarter but a dime fell out also. she picked up the dime and the quarter while putting my other dime in the cash register. she then gave me a nickel. it seems such a shame that people are willing to lose face for a dime. i was really dissapointed.

the old man that works there spotted me a dime once. he was like "you can give me dime next time." he had not intention of having me pay him back either because when i tried to the next day, he didn't know what i was talking about.

my original title for this post would have been "the king and the old hag"

i'm off to class now. :(

lotr extended

ah. i feel downy soft fresh. hehehe. i just got out of the shower and just put on some nice clean jammies. makes me feel cuddly.

today hasn't been too eventful. i went to school, had my smoothie, and drove home. the drive wasn't too pleasant. i ran into a lot of traffic. one couple decided to stop dead in the road to talk to someone on the side of the street. lovely. austin driving is enough to drive anyone insane.

jeremy bought the extended version of lord of the rings today. we watched it. yup, 3.5 hours of my life gone. it was worth it though. the additional scenes were nicely woven into the main film. maybe one day when i'm really bored, i'll watch the movie with the commentary on.

tigger and dessy decided to watch the movie with us as well. however, they were content to watch it underneath our covers. heh. now i can't stop sneezing for some reason. we really need to do some chores around here. i plan on cleaning up the condo before our friend comes in this weekend.

da cats are on the bed now. tigger totally owns it.




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intelligent cats

it's pretty much been one of those days... sigh. i had trouble sleeping last night. my insomnia might be back. it went away for a few months. i remember, it's the worst feeling in the world. lying there, thinking, unable to stop thinking, always thinking simultaneous thoughts. this is how the world works when you're lying on your back at 2am knowing that after your brief unconscious break, you're going to be feeling like your head weighs two tons in the morning. i feel like the sleeplessness is like a trap, a huge whole where my mind is constantly being restarted. nights like that, i don't know when or what eventually lets my self collapse.

dessy is laying on the bed underneath an overturned laundry basket. she doesn't try to get out or even let out a sound. i think she knows that this is the only way she can hang with us upstairs. i like to convince myself that my cats are intelligent. i just couldn't have it any other way.

i was waiting in line today at the bank to make a deposit. the tellers were very slow and it pissed me off. i need to work on self control.

beauty and the beast

we just got back from schlotzsky's and grocery shopping. we got steaks for later this week. wohoo. actually we had steak enough for jeremy and i in the freezer but not enough for john also. see how nice we are? :) while we were there i loaded up on kleenex since my sickness has me going through them pretty fast. i also tried to find flexible neon straws but they only had the plain kind. sucks.

i just filled out a registration card for voting..so next time there will be no excuses. i'm trying to research for a papre right now but no luck. i'm just not into it.

jerms did the oddest thing awhile ago. he was reading the tv guide and was like,"hmm monday night football is on right now. beauty and the beast is coming on this week." then 5 minutes later without thinking about it he starts singing the theme song to beauty and the beast. it's cool when men are secure enough to sing disney toons.

have you seen the ring

i saw the movie The Ring awhile back. I took a picture of myself and look!




oh no!!!

(if you haven't seen the ring, disregard this message or just laugh at my funny face)

clips from jeremy's boredom, research

Unilever subsidiary Lipton approves an ad in which a man standing in line for communion holds a bowl of onion dip, presumably to improve the taste of the body of Christ. Under protest, Lipton withdraws the ad.


Eleven years after McDonald's announces that it has started cooking its fries in "100 percent vegetable oil" -- and one month after a Seattle lawyer files suit on behalf of Hindus and vegetarians who interpreted that to mean that the fries are meat-free -- the fast-food chain concedes that the "natural flavoring" in its fries is, in fact, beef fat.

w3 is the death of life

my weekend was pretty much everything but productive. i meant to do a lot of work on saturday but as it happens i end up eating, watching the sopranos (third season- we're almost done), and then eating again. we went over to a friend's house that evening for some tacos and a lot of war3 watching and playing. i just don't know how to get away from that game. thank god i learned how to play it finally or else i would have had to thrown myself over the balcony. my brother has played well over 1000 games already. that's crazy.

i've played maybe 5. i don't have the cd or anything so i basically play whenever anyone is willing to let me use their computer or cd. i think i can get one now for only 23 dollars online. damn. now my whole post has been about the damn game. w3 head. i dreamt about it last night to the point that i woke up totally wired after only 3 hours of sleep. i can't escape the damn thing. i must be free of it!..before it consumes me!

what ever happened to nice intellectual convos?

influenza

went to school a bit early today and got my flu shot. i got this really young looking guy for my shot administration and i was thinking the whole time to myself "i hope he knows what he's doing." they seem to have trained him well though because he knew how to initiate conversation and keep the patient distracted while the shot was being given. he started talking to me about how he wears sweaters because he lives off campus. i didn't really understand it. anyhow, after the shot, i got free apple juice in a nifty orange cup and drank it on the way to class.

during class something weird happened. about 15 minutes till the end of class, some black stuff starting shooting out of the air vents. we were viewing slides so it was dark and hardly anyone could tell but then this weird odor starting fuming out. the whole thing stopped about 5 minutes later but it was weird and scary. i kept staring up at the vent expecting some huge ball of fire to come gushing out.

i think i might need to lie down or think about taking some more dayquil. i'm starting to feel wobbly and woozy again. perhaps i need to pick something up to eat. food is always good medicine.

kaucshewweeze

woke up around 5am this morning unable to breath out of one nostril. it wasn't pleasant. i was very grumpy and wired from the nyquil having worn off. i remember pushing jeremy around on the bed because i couldn't get comfortable. luckily he was too sleepy to notice.

i went back to bed and woke up a couple hours later feeling a lot better. my sore throat has gone down and my sinuses are clearing up. i took some dayquil to help myself out some more. i then took some vitamin C, turned on my computer, and fed the cats.

i'm not writing a paper for my theory class today. i contemplated on skipping school again because i fear going out in the cold will make me worse. however, i need to go to school to get the flu shot anyhow. plus, i hate missing class where i think i'll actually miss some actualy learning.

i want something to drink but cold water makes me feel bad right now. orange juice might chew up my throat. hot chocolate is probably my best bet. time to go boil some water.

here comes the prepetually sick chick

haha. i read this off of a friend's friend's journal. i should add him/her to my list.

"The only thing standing between me and my novel (NaNoWriMo) is Minesweeper.
That, and insecurity about, well, everything. But mostly minesweeper. "


in other news, i'm officially sick. i'm staying home from school today in hopes to get better. i should have skipped school monday when it was cold and wet. that's what probably did it for me. i keep looking in the mirror to check and see how swollen my tonsils are. i woke up and the first thing i noticed was that swallowing hurt like hell. i also couldn't remember much about the night before. i remember jeremy getting into bed and then leaving to ask john to turn down his music. the nyquil put me out.

i don't really have medicine for a soar throat except chloraseptic. i dropped my real soar throat medicine in the toilet on accident. sigh. such is my luck.

i think i'm secretly jealous of everyone participating in NaNoWriMo. Sure, they're all facing self doubt, anxiety, and sleep deprevation but in the end, they're going to havea novel by the end of the month. i'm also curious if i could do it. i know i couldn't even attempt it this year because of school...but i also don't know if i'm capable of it. i never can finish anything i start. my mind just jumps around from priority to priority and story to story. i just can't commit. ;]

for all your nightime cold symptoms

i'm drowsy. i took some nyquil an hour ago to help me with my night time coughing, sneezing, sniffling, soar throat, fever...hehehe. i was productive this evening but i still didn't get enough done. hopefully i can wake up early tomorrow and finsih up my work for class. i'm contemplating on wether or not to go. i shouldn't have gone to class last monday when it was wet and raining. that's what did me in.

my brother got me the new tori amos cd. i've been listening to it nonstop for the past few days. there are some songs that remind me of Sarah Mclachlan's Touch album. It's not an extraordinary album but it's definitely going to get some playlist action for the next few weeks.

i want to do some chatting tonight but i probably shouldn't because i need to make myself crash out. i'm already drifting. it's taking me too long to write a sentence ..urrr.. thought.

voting, shopping, and aspartame

i wish i had been registered to vote today. john was going to vote but then we realized he was registered to vote in bmt not austin. jeremy could have voted too. he got a voter registration when he got a new driver's license. i even went online and had them send me a registration form but i never filled it out. oh well. i'll vote next time. it's all this moving around. bleh.

today i woke up with a sore throat. i think i'm coming down with something. i've been feeling light headed and woozy all day. i went to school, suffered, and then came home and did some chores. i cleared out the junk that was piling up in the pantry. i also started doing some work for my studio. i've decided that i need to be more productive during the week...or more productive period.

jeremy and i went grocery shopping after he got home from work. he's cooking lad-nah tonight, a thai noodle dish. i've decided not to buy anymore of that hillcountry flavored water stuff because they put aspartame in it. i've done some research over the internet and have found sites stating pros and cons of the substance. mainly the people who say that aspartame is safe are the manufacturers or companies that are profitting from the sell of it. however, the sites that go on about the harmful effects of aspartame are pretty spotchy. i decided it wasn't worth risking my health. i'll just go back to drinking water and orange juice. i guess my friend akash was right. when a drink sounds too good to be true, it usually is.

pros of aspartame

cons of aspartame

war3 newbie

wohoo. i just played my first game of WarCraft 3 and won. I then practiced with the computer and then jeremy. it gets really frustrating at time when i'm learning because people are screaming at me to do like a million things. I'd say i did pretty well for my first time around. i still don't know if it's worth buying the game.

jeremy and i are about to watch the first episode of the third season of the Sapranos. I've never seen the first or second season but he has. I guess here goes my next round of procrastination. I have stuff due for tomorrow. ah well. "i'll do it later". i can already see my dad shaking his head. :D

by the way, dinner was deer sausage.

halloween update

Last halloween night, Karen and I went out to 4th street to The Forum to see the Drag Queen show. It was pretty fun. I didn't have to exert myself too much which was good cuz I was fighting off a cold. The drag queens were okay. Diva Aguillera danced and lip sang to Missy Elliott's "Work It". The gay strippers weren't that good. No one really seemed interested in them. I think they didn't appeal to the younger gay crowd. I forced Karen to participate in the Halloween costume competition. She was dressed as a 1920s gangster equipped with the machine gun and everything. If she had been a young gay boy, she would have won first place for sure. As is, some stupid costume with double horns got first place. The second place winner was someone dressed in all black wearing a beak on their nose. Karen would have gotten third place if there was one. The competition was judged by people yelling and cheering. I screamed my lungs out for Karen. If I had my friend Eric there, she would gotten first place. hahaha.

Click on the pictures to see more.

PICTURES FROM FOURTH STREET at the FORUM


PICTURES FROM CARVING PUMPKINS AT MY PARENT'S HOUSE

Today, Jeremy and I went out to Fry's to pick up a new case for his computer. It is huge and green with a clear side panel. It looks cool but it is just way too large. I guess that's the price you pay for customization. We went to go see The Ring yesterday. It was pretty good but it left me asking a lot of questions about movies that play down your intelligence. Afterwards, we came home and played Tribes for awhile. Later that night, Jerms and I watched Windtalkers. UGH. What a horribly boring and pointlessly cheezy movie.

Hmm.. I'm kind of hungry now. I wonder what's for dinner.

halloween mission: success

woohoo. the children came, ravaged, and left. heh.

today, while i was at school i stole our studio pumpkin. when i got home i quickly made a ghost out of a white pillow case, plastic bags, and a thick black sharpie. I decided that if i wanted kids to come, i'd have to at least show them that we were in the halloween spirit. when i went to go get the candy out, i realized jeremy and john had already eaten half of it! i had to pull out some reserves from the back of the pantry (large packets of nerds).

jeremy cooked thai noodles for dinner. as i was washing the dishes, jeremy rang the door bell pretending to be trick or treaters. i quickly turned around half expecting it to be kids...but it wasn't. ten seconds later, i hear jeremy and john yelling at me telling me that there are kids coming. i was like "yeah right, whatever." they were like "we're not joking." the next thing i know, jeremy is ducking behind the counter and john is running up the stairs. there must be some pedaphobia in our house or something.

i answered the door and sure enough, there were kids. my first trick or treaters.
i said "trick or treat!" and gave them each two pieces of candy.

i got quite a few groups come and go through out the evening. at one point, i had a group of savages come and ravage my bowl. they were kind of rude and just started grabbing out of the candy bowl. no manners. there were some really cute costumes. this one little girl was dressed as a lady buy. it was adorbale. a lot of the kids were not in costume though. i wonder if it's trend for kids not to dress up anymore. i'm also wondering how much candy is the norm to give out. at some points, i passed out the candy and the kids were still standing there waiting...expecting more, i guess.

oh well. i was just happy they came.
happy halloween!


we had just finished a nice yummy thai noodle dish that jeremy had cooked and i was washing dishes.

no gays or atheists..what next? must have a girlfriend or boyfriend by age 16?

i'm so glad my parents never put my brother and i through the "scouts"...what a crock of crap.

Atheist Scout given a week to declare belief

happy halloween 2002

i'm not too hopeful about kids coming tonight. i might not be able to spread the joy of candy. i heard some guy say today that he hates halloween and was like "i don't support pagan holidays." ... hmm.. so i guess that means he doesn't celebrate christmas.

today, i overslept an hour and the jolted awake. it was so cold that i convinced myself that i should go back to bed and reset the alarm for five more minutes. i slept for another hour. jeez.

i went to class today and had some design graphic consultant tell me that i should design my building in the shape of a dog house. i didn't want to tell him that if i took his advice, i'd be kicked out of the school of architecture. granted, there are some desinger/architects who can get away with such a cheesy concept but i'm nowhere near that.

jeremy, john, and i went to eat at this vietnamese restaraunt called 888. they have some good cheap noodles there. when we got back, jeremy turned off all the power in the house to find out which circuit the door bell was connected too. who would have guessed it'd be the master bedroom. we had to shut down the server in order for him to replace our door bell switch. the other one was cracked and broken. so now we have a fresh door bell ringer in case the kids do come around. by the way, that's not why he changed it. :)

john went to his bowling league after that and jermey and i crashed out. i've finally emerged from slumber but jerms is still out. i think he's gonna be out for the rest of the night. i'm debating right now on wether to go back to sleep or try and get some work done.

i'm kind of excited about tomorrow.. this must be how the witch in hansel and gretel felt.
"i've got all this candy and sweets, i wonder if the children will come..mwahahahahaha"

capture the flag

it's going to be another long night i think. i am so uninterested in my two academic classes. oh well. i don't really want to go into it right now. all i know is that i have two assignments and some reading to do by tomorrow. i have an 8am class..



(click on pic to enlarge)

jeremy and john have been playing Tribes all night long. i'm not sure why they picked it up but they did. i tried to take a nap earlier this evening but they were too loud. i only got about a good half hour of down time. i went downstairs to escape the yelling and blasting sounds of the machinery...but it wasn't enough. they were just too freaking loud. i was lucky enough to have two cuties join me while i was napping. i didn't even know they joined me until jeremy woke me up to take pictures of them.

silly things. i have a feeling both jeremy and john are going to have a hell of a time waking up tomorrow morning too. i'd much rather be playing than worrying about my paper. i wish they would finish already. it's so hard to concentrate with all this yelling going on.

i screwed myself this weekend

well, it's been a pretty unproductive weekend. my brother asked me to come home with him, so jeremy
and i agreed. this weekend was supposed to be my catch-up weekend but now it's just an additive to my
ongoing line of procrastination. i might have to suck it up tonight and just do an all nighter.

i did have some fun this weekend. we visited a lot with our old friend who lives here and owns a Maggie Moos icecream franchise. i felt guilty but we got lots of free ice cream when we visited him. his store has 8 cameras with more to come. you can view them online too. i plan on linking them up to my website when i get some free time. the cameras came in handy too. they've caught two criminals on the webcams so far.

while we were there, jeremy and our friend, hani, played war3 in the back of the Maggie Moos storage room. He has two nice computers hooked up in the back where he lets his employees play on break. i swear thought, i just can't get away from that game. even an icecream store isn't safe. i'd pick up the game myself but i just don't have the time.

jeremy and i carved pumpkins this weekend too. mine ended up looking like ass. i meant for it to come out really cool but it was aweful. i threw it away. we're leaving jeremy's pumpkin here for my parents to have for halloween. i seriously doubt kids will come to our neighborhood. but we'll see.

i'm packing up to go right now.. a little tired, a little worried..and most def. craving more ice cream.
ETA back at Austin...8:30pm.. omg. i'm screwed.

midterms, crafting, and free drinks

i am working on my architecture history midterm right now and jeremy is crafting (war3 that is). john is in his room crafting as well...while simultaneously studying (cough). i've found a new drink that is "everything" free...sugar, caffeine, calorie, fat, and sodium free.. AND it tastes good. It's called Hill Country Fare Strawberry Natural Flavored Sparkling Water Beverage. I must buy more.

I wish I was done with this crappy test. I have never been so unmotivated to take a class before. I guess this is what happens when you try to force nonsensical ideology down a skeptics throat.

ugh. wish i were done.

the nothing state

you think that you're falling, but you're not
you want to feel sorry for yourself, but you're spoiled
you want to believe that misery exists regardless, but who cares
you want to think that living is worth the time, but it's a quarter past four

and its time to stop everything. take me to the masses..where ignorance roams and sorrow only exists in fairy tales.

simading ding

jerms went off to play basketball today. i stayed at home and played the sims unleashed . that game really pisses me off. it's like crack cocaine. you just can't stop. my REAL cats are banging at the gate jeremy and i made two days ago. we constructed a gate for the upstairs so the cats can't get up and bite our wires. they're hungry. i am too. i have a midterm i'm supposed to be doing. it's a take home but i just can't get myself motivated enough to touch it. i also have a paper to write before tonight as well.

we also got the server up so now i have a 24/7 cam. wohoo. i know, it has little significance..but it makes me happy. anyhow. the server is in our room right now and we're about to move it into the laundry room between john's and my room.

i'm waiting for jeremy to get back now. i'm also downloading a porn from a friend. he said the chick in the amateur video reminded him of me. so we shall see. gah. i'm hungry. i don't know where we're going to eat tonight. maybe we'll get some ice cream. time to call up my icecream partner.

sim unleashed

oh no. i'm about to get sims unleashed!
can i deal with the consequences?

ornament, false or true

so i just got out of my architecture history II discussion session. as usual, i sat there very disgruntled with many things on my mind and not the will to say them outloud. today our topic was on ornament. most of the readings we have on ornament in architecture are about this idea for the ideal or about a passageway to a universal order about truth and beauty. i think this is complete nonsense. i don't believe in an innate order to beauty. there is not truth in expression. it is all relative. the idea of ornament, in reality, is simply about expression or domination of expression. today, expression is forbidden in design through ornament. if you use ornament, it is considered irresponsible or dishonest.

here i where i diverge on thoughts..which is why i never speak out in class. i'd just backfire on myself all the time. for one, architecture can be about responsibility. it can be about public works and creating culture and good health. on the other hand, it can be about control, manipulation, and domination. i don't know yet, how i will approach it in practice...or is there way to f*ck with people's minds and help them too?

swoosh. nothing and no net.

oy i got a work out today. jeremy and i went to go play basketball with our friend eric and sean. i hadn't touched a basketball in years. i think the last time i played a real game was my first time which was over 6 years ago.

when we got there, two groups were using both sides of the court to play. one of the groups was the one that jeremy usually plays with during mondays and wednesdays. he didn't want to go out there cuz he declined to play with them earlier. we waited for eric to show up and decided to go eat before we played.

we went to jason's deli which was only a block away and i got a salad bar and jeremy got a huge potato and eric got a huge beef eater. when we got back to the court, there was still one group of kids playing. unfortunately, they were playing on the side with the light so we played in the dark for awhile. luckily, the finished pretty soon and we were able to move to the other side. sean showed up a few minutes later and we played a game of two on two.

i had a special rule where the other team couldn't use their hands while guarding me. we still lost but it was a lot of fun. it's like getting a work out without knowing it. one minute you're dribbling the ball and the next thing you know, you've been working out for an hour.

i was very paranoid about being too weak. i'm very defensive about my gender and i hate for people to get the impression that girl's can't play basketball based off of how i play. i thought i played pretty hard. i got a few rebounds and almost got in a few blocks.
i dunno. i don't know why i worry about those sorts of things. i try to be aggressive but i don't really take sports too seriously. i think that's the difference between when i play and when my guy friends play. they get really into it and emotions get involved..etc..

anyhow, after we finished, jeremy and i shared an ice cream at marble's slab. now we're at home and jeremy is writing a program for us to use. it's supposed to help us pick out restaurants based on location, price, type, speed, and quality. i created a database of restaurants during class.. hehe.

it could be you

another attack in Washingtong. i'm getting the idea that the sniper has something against suburbia.

i'm glad that no one i know has posted anything about being terrorized by the sniper attacks. i have to admit that it is a bad situation but so are murders and rapes in general. in fact, you are more likely to be killed from a non-terrorist attack than a terrorist attack. if you think about all the money we're spending on our "homeland" security, it makes you wince a little. why isn't that money going to protecting us from ourselves? i guess, however, if you factor in FEAR, rationality gets erased from the equation. what price we pay for a peace of mind.

love is hate

what is fair?
it simply does not exist in a world where you can not fully be conscious of
all injustice.
if you are unaware of being wronged, are you still wronged?
it is impossible for an individual to exist on a universal, omnipotent reality.
we are closed systems and our ideals are severely flawed by our lack of simply knowing.

when breathings becomes monotonous

there has been a change in my world, my entire existence... a slow creeping disdain for my flesh. a disgust for breathing. i am a spoiled slothful waste of a human being.

i just don't know what to do with myself anymore. is there anything worth doing?
i'm not sure what it means to be happy anymore. i'm not sure what it means to be human anymore.

i find myself wanting to wrap my cold fingers around my skull... i want to push the thinking out. i want to forget that existence is as trivial as it is. rid me of my useless daily rituals.

different things

i've been contemplating trying out a new hair style. i really want to cut my hair short and get bangs. i'm just really scared of what might happen. the last time i cut my hair short, i immediately wanted my long hair back. anyhow, i decided to play around with photoshop and see what might result.

Coming out party

I went to the UT Pride Night party at the Forum last night with . I tried to get Jeremy to go but the club scene just isn't for him. Anyhow, Karen came over early and ate some of our leftover gumbo. Afterwards, we watched Will and Grace and parts Without a Trace before heading out. We met up with another friend of hers who brought some other girl along. The "friend of a friend" chick was your typical young college chick who is rebelling against an establishment she knows nothing about.. it was kind of amusing, at least.

While I didn't get to dance (no one was dancing), I did get to hang out with Karen on the roof terrace of The Forum and chat. The only people out on the dance floor were a train of guys without their shirts on doin' the nasty dance. hehehehe. it was fun to watch, i suppose. The rebellious chick made a comment about how the Austin gay scene wasn't as happening as the Dallas gay scene. I have to admit, I was expecting a lot more people dancing like crazy and less talking. OH well. There was talk of going to Boy Cellar on "girl cellar" night one week. Hopefully there will be lots of dancing then.

Aside from the smoke, I have a very fun time. I feel lucky to have connected with such a unique person. I think that's pretty rare.

Damn..if they had only played Diana Ross's song, I'm SURE everyone would have been on the dance floor. I know I would have!

"oh I'm comin' out! I want the world to know! GOT to let it show!"

waiting for gumbo

gumbo is in the pot and fresh rice is cooking right now. mmmm. it smells delicious!
i can't wait to eat!

i just spent all evening re-arranging the room. i don't believe in karma or fung shui or room energy..but i believe in change. :) it makes me feel good to re-arrange things every once in awhile. i feel so much better now.

i was floating in a sea of "nothing matters" earlier today. i conceptually still feel the same right now but it has been dulled. i just kept rationalizing with myself today. i thought that the benefits of me sleeping are beginning to outweigh the benefits of being concious. if this is true, wouldn't i be better off dead? dead means going to sleep and never having to deal with the snooze button, right? it would be a valid option, i think, if it weren't for other people who still like to live.

i got bugs

i caught a bug and i'm going to eat it. :) just kidding. my monitor is littered with plastic bugs. i've got a grasshopper, a fly, a scorpion, beetle, and lady bug.

i've been so out of it lately. tired like nothing else. i just can't seem to get my life in order...or at least seemingly in order. last night i crashed out as soon as i got home until almost 10pm or so.

i'm waiting for jeremy to get back home from work right now. i'm going to try and convince him to eat out at Vinny's tonight. we haven't eaten there in a while. tomorrow is icecream day with my icecream partner, jennifer. food is my life...and sleeping.

i have to go do some research now. avoiding "real" reading and starting up on my paper due next week. :(

Life Right Now(1-10): 6

I want to be a candy pimp

I love Halloween. I love to spread the joy of candy to all the young ones!
Start um' out young to appreciate quality chocolates and candies. :)
I don't think my condo is an area where kids go door to door so I don't think I can pass out candy here. I thought about going home to do it but it's on a weekday. I don't know anyone who has a house or lives in a neighborhood where kids go trick or treating..so I'm pretty much SOL on the passing out of candy. I had some glimmer of home when I got an email asking for volunteers for the Halloween city event. I went to their website to sign up as a volunteer but all they wanted were people to put together tables and take them apart. The closest chance I'll get to passing out candy is in two year when Halloween is on a weekend and I can go home to do it. hehehe. until then, the candy is all mine.

yes, your highness

"....to be questioning the veracity of our own American president, is the height of irresponsible," said Lott, R-Mississippi. "He needs to come home and keep his mouth shut."

http://www.cnn.com/2002/ALLPOLITICS/09/29/iraq.debate/index.html

wow. we've gone from a democracy to a dictatorship pretty fast. that's a pretty quick turnover rate aye? i guess why stop there huh. why don't we just rename ourselves SLAVES of the United States instead of "citizens"???

it's a valid quesiton though... how much of our status as Americans is undermined if we don't allow authority to work free from the standards of normal citizens? is it the power given to those in charge that has pushed for our American luxuries and state of power....something we, as peons, can't understand or appreciate??

i don't know sometimes. it's almost like we're saying "if you like the way things are here, shut up and look away"

proof of disbelief

i just had this argument with one of john's friends who was trying to prove to all of us that god exists by reasoning of deduction. he was basically trying to take everyone's beliefs and prove that their beliefs are flawed and therefore are invalid..thus concluding that his belief in god is the only clear truth in this world. he was using a logic to try and prove that god exists. he's also a philosophy major so he was really big into really complicated logic/reasoning stuff. every time he made a statement trying to prove that by deduction god exists, he would digress into something completely arbitrary to the point...which did not prove that god exists.

i came in from the stand point that his logic can be correct and that it is possible for him to convince us through logic that god exists but that does not conclude that in REALITY god exists. there is a possibility that although he believes that god exists and he can convince us that go exists, that there is a possibility that god does not exist.

i actually got him to say that that was possibility. score 1 for me. score 0 for him.

i never understand why people try to prove to other people that god exists. why can't they just stick to faith based reasoning. "i believe in god because i believe in god." i buy that. i accept that. i will never try to disprove to anyone their belief in god. but when they go about saying things like "i can prove to you that god exists," they actually harm their own credibility...and they end up looking like asses.

ah well. i was supposed to head to bed early but now its 4am. i guess i just can't walk away from a philosophical debate... its just so rare these days. people at UT are so indifferent to their own religion that its never been an issue. and i normally don't bother unless someone challenges me.

thursday lunch

This past Thursday I hooked up with . I wasn't actually sure if I'd have enough nerve to meet her. I'm always very afraid that people will think of me one way from what I write and then be totally turned off when they meet me in person. I think it's the same way with the phone too. I used to have a friend who I mostly communicated with through email and phone. Whenever we hooked in real life, things were always awkward.

Anyhow, things went really well I think. I was actually pretty calm and relaxed. Some people are just easy to be with..its like you have an instant connection and you can just be yourself. We went to Thai Noodle near campus because she said she has never eaten Thai food before. I know! I couldn't believe it either! hehehe. Luckily, she liked it... SCORE: 1 for Thai food! After we were done eating, we walked over to Dobie Mall and got strawberry bananna smoothies. mmmm.. they were good. I really like the old guy that works there because he's really nice to me and treats me like a regular. The woman doesn't like me much I think..or is just indifferent... I don't normally click with older women for some reason...or most women for that matter. Anyhow, I'm digressing.

and I talked about a lot of things... things I normally wouldn't tell strangers. I think it was because of the pre-friendship that happened during live journal convos. She's got me involved with Pride Week coming up too. I think I'm going to actually have enough nerve to participate since I've got a friend in the organizaiton. It's always good to be growing...

I'm prolly going to eat out tonight with some friends and get ice cream! I'm so looking forward to the ice cream. mmmmm....

show me the money

i need money!!!
i need money!!!

i'm so pissed off at our bedsheets. they just don't fit the bed right and always end up popping off. i know why too. we put the egg crate foam on top of the mattress and the sheets aren't oversized. it's annoying. tug on one side and the other one comes off..and now the egg crate is doing this horrible wavy thing.

my brother bought 300 count egyptian cotton for his bed this summer and it is NICE. i wish we could buy that for our bed...but we just don't have any money right now to waste on beding.