all this, posting journals, is really about is me subjecting small inputs of my life to be subjectively reviewed.
it's odd when i post knowing a few people will probably read my journal. i used to post my thoughts on my website "thoughts" page... i was reading back on those and noticing how starkly different they are from my posts here. i had a lot more anger, cynicism, rants, emotion, and introspect... i talked about my hatred...i talked about
current events....i talked about changing my world or tearing it apart. now, all i talk about is my short dilly dallies in my life. am i doing this to validate my life.. i don't' know.
i'm kinda of a shy exhibitionist (oxymoron alert) and a voyeur at the same time. i love reading other people's going ons.... i like that window into a world of blank faces. i see people on a daily basis and interact with them..but what are they thinking.. i have no idea. Here, it is the opposite. The truth is we walk in a world of strangers whose identities we have based on assumptions. What little information we get, we take in order to relate on a human level. LJ is a paradox because it's an open type forum for personal postings. We read posts that piss us off or entertain us. We comment on these posts and know other people will probably comment on ours. By it being public it effects how we post..thus becoming less of a private journal but rather webs of subjected thoughts..
but isn't that the beauty of being social beings?...we're all really one massive web of cultures. you are the person you hate.
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