I should say it but I don’t because I know how much it would be a painful reminder of the things you suffer the most. But I fear it all the time. I worry for you all the time. I’m always afraid today might be the last time we get to speak or that I get to share your presence in this world.
I want to tell you that you mean the world to me and that even though our friendship has been brief in such an expansive scope of time we call life, it is now one of the most valuable moments I look forward to every day.
Ever since the day you told me about the limitation of time you have…I’ve tried so hard to be objective. I’ve tried to be realistic and just concentrate on appreciating every moment and not worry. And to be honest, I thought I was going to be okay with putting it in the back of my mind. But that’s not reality. Time is finite through the perception of humans.
And you should know that I appreciate every day, every minute that you share a part of yourself and your life with me. The only one blessing of knowing about your condition is that I get to have my eyes wide open all the time. I don’t get to think I have all the time in the world to appreciate a person. I know my time is limited and so I get to be stunningly conscious and aware of everything. And I like being awake because of you.
I try to hide my pain in the knowing and just concentrate on enjoying everything, all of it! However, I want you to know how wonderful you are and how I hope we exchange “Good Evening Gov'na and Hiiiiiyaaaaas!” for years and year and years to come.
I will constantly be thinking of you and hope you return in good health.
“If you live to be 100, I hope I live to be 100 minus 1 day, so I never have to live without you.”- Winnie the Pooh
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