Wednesday, July 3, 2002

Home for the Holidays

i just got home from. whew. that was a very long drive.
luckily the road was pretty pact and we were all going above speed limit. it made
the trip easier "pack wolves" speeding. heh. i know. it's bad.

anyhow, when i got home, i discovered no one was home! i wonder where my parents and brother
went? i unloaded the car and fed my cats. i'm waiting for someone to arrive.
i guess i'll go play around with my dad's speakers and try to blow the house down.
heh. i love single family houses. you can play your music as loud as you want.

There goes another 27 million

i woke up this morning and started packing for my trip home to beaumont.
i think jeremy and i are pretty lucky that we both grew up in the same town and that "visiting home" means going to the same place. we're going to be attending a huge fish fry for his family reunion on the 4th. i doubt anyone will pop fireworks. maybe we'll go downtown and watch the city set off some good ones.

i hate packing. i'm sure to forget something. i know.

this makes me mad...what a waste of money by our government:

The thin line of separation...

WASHINGTON, July 2 (AFP) - The US government Tuesday awarded grants totaling 27.7 million dollars to promote sexual abstinence prior to marriage, health and Human Services Secretary Tommy Thompson announced.
"Abstinence education programs create an environment within communities that supports teens in their decision to remain abstinent until marriage," Thompson said.
The 95 grants awarded to churches, schools and health centers are for community-based programs aimed at convincing adolescents between 12 and 18 to abstain from sexual activity as a way to avoid pregnancy and sexually transmitted disease, including HIV/AIDS.
Thompson said the money will be followed by a second bloc of grants in the fall.
President George W. Bush promised during his presidential campaign to promote abstinence and earlier this year said he would spend 138 million dollars on the campaign in 2003.
Members of the Democratic opposition in Congress said these programs should include information on contraceptives and prevention of sexually transmitted diseases.
In April, a committee of the Republican-dominated House of Representatives voted on a five-year renewal of a federal program promoting sexual abstinence, rejecting a Democrat-backed amendment that would have allowed each of the 50 US states to include information on contraception.
According to federal laws now on the books, the grants may not be used to teach contraceptive methods but only to convince adolescents that sexual teach contraceptive methods but only to convince adolescents that sexual relations outside of marriage may have dangerous consequences. Individual states are free to finance other programs that include contraception and disease prevention.
The Centers of Disease Control and Prevention (CDC), a government-funded research organization in Atlanta, Georgia, spends 50 million dollars annually to prevent AIDS in the United States.

Tuesday, July 2, 2002

And it Keeps on Pouring

i got rained on all the way to school and most of the way back. i stopped off at target to do some shopping and then i filled up my gas tank. 1.19/gal.
class was extremely uninteresting today. i don't remember how many times i started day dreaming. i kept thinking about my cats and how i wanted to be with them instead of in that cold classroom.

i just poured myself a tall glass of oj and started doing some email. i fed the cats and binged a little on some popcorn i made last night.

i should probably take a nap. my eyes are so droopy. i wish there were something interesting for me to do.

ah yes, i forgot to share my kitty pics. i got to take a few cute pics of my cats while they were out cold the other night.

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dessy out
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sleeping devil
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comfy poo!
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she wakes!

Raining Reindeer

wow it's raining so hard here. i don't want to go to school. is one class really worth getting that wet? heh. seriously, it's pouring buckets!

these are perfect days where the sun is muted by grey and the rain pitter patters on your window. pit pat pit pat. today would be a great day for lounging with my kitties on the bed..reading a book..maybe anne rice...with the lamp turned on and the window blinds pulled up.

this is not the perfect day to have to trek a mile and a half to school or drive on the highway. if i had my goulashes (however you spell it) i could go splashing through puddles on the way home. i lost them during my many moves. i think maybe they're at my parent's house...too bad.. would have been fun to go splooshing around.

This is the End

i just had this horrible thought that my crowning achievements took place pre-college!
what if i never do anything worthwhile again? what if i simply ship on over to the corporate world, do my money thing, do my family thing, and that's it!? what if i never do anything artistic or creative again? what happened during that black hole i call college education? did it sup something out of me? perhaps my hopes and dreams that there is a future beyond what i can see?

eegats. this can't be it.

Cat talk

the sheets are clean and smell like moutain freshness. i can hear the rain outside. it's pouring down washing over the house like a blanket of rest. i roll over onto my side and reach out to pet tigger who is lying next to me. dessy is at her usual resting spot on my outstretched legs. ahhh.. this is the life.

Monday, July 1, 2002

Weekend vs Futility

we got a group together and started on some characer creations for the Shadowrun RPG we want to play. i spent forever going through everything i needed, carefully sorting through the pages of skills, gear, and attributes.

of course, after a few mock battles between varying members of our group, we discovered that shadowrun has a very uneven combat play. i feel that the combat play is actually very realistic however, it makes our characters highly prone to death...and no one wants to have to start a new character every other week.

i don't know. i still feel like its worth trying. i'm actually not into the "rolling" aspect of the game as i am the "role playing"... i think shadowrun offers a very complex setting for role playing.

anyhoo...we decided that we might give it a shot otherwise we'll move to D&D Edition 3. The best laid plans are damned.

and i hate futility. i've spent so much time on my character that it seems such a shame that i have to drop it. i even created an elaborate history which i'll post later. ah well.

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i've been working on my paper all day long with varying success. i took a nap and dreamt of all the things i have to do before the next two weeks are up. of course, as i dreamt, my goals were exagerated and stretched to impossiblities. when i woke up, it made everything i worry about seem trivial.
....life is subjective like that.

i'm going to try and finish up my paper now before my confidence drops back down.