I focus a lot of my thoughts lately on the idea of happiness. I realize now that I’m facing one of the worst dilemmas of modern man. How do you find happiness in yourself?
It’s just not okay to rest your happiness on someone else. Can you really expect to live your whole life expecting others around you to bring you contentment? Can a human exist by itself and efficiently motivate itself to be happy?
I think it’s so unfair if we can’t. I think it’s unfair for ourselves to constantly have to seek happiness through others. And if happiness is to be found within the self… omg… I’m fucked. I can’t find it. I search and search and search.
Why can’t I find it for myself? Is it something I should even be searching for? Is it obtainable or will I forever find myself chasing happiness and running from darkness? It’s too exhausting emotionally. I want to break free from the cycle.
People who are ….well lost.. falling.. hoping to escape life…they aren’t just depressed. They’re tired and want to stop running.
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