i spent all day at work trying to get lost in my mind so i wouldn't have to focus on the things i need to be doing. every day, i write a list of things i need to do. every morning, i look at the list and wonder why i can't check anything off. i keep wondering what the definition of life is. are things supposed to be balanced? is it necessary to have to work in order to enjoy the fruits of your labor?
i want to believe in karma. i'd like to think that things are in direct relationships with each other. that in order to get something, you must earn it. in order to take, you must give. it's easier to justify things that way.
however, i'm not blind. i can see clearly that things are not balanced as such. not everyone has to work for their livelihood and not everyone that does work has enough for a good lively hood.
at the end of the day, i have chores to do. at the beginning of the day, i have work to go to. somewhere in between, i get to rest and do things that are "fun." am i really earning that "fun"?
can that "fun" exist without me working for it? do you have to put in time, to enjoy time?
damn it. what i really want to know is, am i a bad person if i play games on the computer instead of doing the laundry. >:P
hehehe. i love to throw out the mundane every now and then....
*sigh*....
jerms had rediscovered gambling in diablo II. he keeps bugging me for money. we should be playing Wolf ET but we're not. i should be playing diablo II but i'm surfing the net looking for that elusive "something"...
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