tv vs flying and theories of absence

well. spring break has come and is almost gone. i went home to b-town to spend some time with the folks. we drove back up to austin Wednesday. we were going to go sky diving this weekend but decided to get a tv instead. jeremy bargained with me. so as soon as we arrived in austin, we went to fry's electronics and bought ourselves a 27" tv and dvd player for the bedroom. i don't know what it is but i'm quite a sucker for cheap electronics. the next day, my friend eric and i built a shelving unit for the tv from supplies i bought at home depot. during the process, eric managed to cut his finger and saw through his hand. heh. i hate carpentry, it's just such a deadly sport.
so here's the results of his blood and my sweat.


i don't know why i'm so disconnected from my pc. it's weird. it's bizzaaaaaaar. it's quite an anomaly. i'm trying to think of theories as to why i've felt so disconnected from the life i used to live. i keep thinking it might have to do with the fact that i'm getting paranoid that i'm addicted to this lifestyle so i'm trying to pull away...just to see if i can. another part of me is saying that i'm just so damn tired of complaining.. i'm so damn tired of yelling and screaming...because in the end, no one is fucking hearing me. another part of me is saying that i shouldn't be doing anymore webpage developing until i learn better software and programming. it could be a factor of a million things. who knows. i can't quite figure it out yet. all i know is that i still have this longing to escape and somehow neting isn't helping much anymore.

here's some last minute effort....