the state of things

ever since i got back from spring break, i've felt diconnected from my life and myself. i feel like i'm just going through the motions but there is little to no meaning behind it all. i think this is one of the most dangerous places to be. sadness and suffering are perfectly normal emotional states of a functional human being, but apathy leads to nothing and nothing leads to nowhere...which of couse seems futile ..kind of like this post.... which i hate (futility not my post).