i had to wake up at 5:50am yesterday morning in order to catch my flight to ft. worth. my modern japanese architecture teacher decided to take us on a field trip to ft. worth to see the new contemporary art museum in ft. worth. she paid for our plane tickets out of her own pocket.
when i got to the airport, i saw some of my classmates and teacher waiting by the ticket line. while we were waiting for the last of our classmates to arrive, an airport security guy came by to inspect a bag that was left on a trashcan. he was shouting out to the crowd if anyone had left their bag. he ended up having to get a police guy to come out and inspect it. i lost track of what happened to it but when i turned around, it was gone.
we were running a bit late at first thinking we'd have to wait in line to get our tickets. luckily, a lady at the counter was able to check 7 of us at once. when we went through the security check, i was deemed as a chosen one and they gave me a yellow tag to carry. that sucked. why me? anyhow, it wasn't that bad. they just dig through all your shit and then do a full body scan with their wand. then they run your shoes through the xray machine. it's what happens to you if you set the alarm off now anyhow. they just do random checks on top of that.
there was a slight delay when we were on the plane. apparently the cargo door handle broke and they couldn't seal the cargo area. they said they'd find a way to fix it. hehehe..duct tape! that was my suggestion anyhow.
the museum did not exceed my expectations at all. i was far more interested in the art. i thought the concrete was beautiful and so was the bathroom entries. the water courtyard was wonderful as well. i don't know what ando was taking cues from. i think it had a lot to do with orientation and sightlines. the galleries opened up into these really great views of the downtown area...not that the downtown area is all that great to look at. over all, i was kind of dissapointed with the building. i thought the scale was a little akward but was glad to see a bit of mystery in the interior. it was easy to get lost. i love that about museums. i'm sure curators hate that though. i know i missed several exhibits.
we went across to the kimbell art museum aftewards. overall, it was a much better building and space. the lighting, scale, approach, and experience was much better. the art sucked. the building is a series of these quasi vault like roof structures that slice through the center to expose natural lighting. along that slice is a clever little shading device that diffuses the light. it's just a clever design. however, the building was so predictable in my opinion. my teacher had to disagree with me. i just think the circulation of the building was sort of over simplified. it may even have to do with the scale of each of the "vault like" segments. oh well.
i was never much a museum goer anyhow. i'm much more into civic types of structures. i'd love to see museums turn more into events than places.
we got back to austina round 6pm. jeremy picked me up from the airport but had to go back to work right away. he and his project group have something due tomorrow...or today actually. john had his friend chris over and he cooked fried fish, eggs, and stir fried vegetables. i remember eating, watching some of prelude to a kiss, and then hitting the sack around 10:30pm. i was so tired.
i have a meeting with my boss today around 11:15am. i need to get ready now.
Friday, February 28, 2003
Tuesday, February 25, 2003
you get your snow day, we get our ice day
the alarm clock went off at 6:50am today. i think i had the philosopher kings in the alarm clock. it doesn't matter really because i always hit snooze as soon as it comes on. i just can't stand the drone of the waking. often, because my dreams are always intense, i have to coax my mind into the conscious state.
anyhow, i get up and get dressed for my 8am history of modern japanese architecture class. i get downstairs and wait for my brother to be ready to leave. i pack a semi-breakfast composed of a cereal bar, an apple, and some cheeze-its. i've already convinced myself that i'm going back to bed after i'm done with my morning class. i decide to check outside the window to see if my car is frozen over like it was the night before. there were ice cycles coming off the hood and my windshield wipers were iced over.
i automatically went into "dad" mode. i call it dad mode because so many mornings back home in the winter, we used to have to take the hot water kettle and defrost the windshield. i took a huge pot of water and made several trips out to the car until i could start to see actual glass. :) when my brother was ready, he got a pot and pitched in. about 15 minutes off schedule, we headed off to school.
i immediately noticed that there were hardly any cars on the road. i had never seen riverside, the main road to the highway, so empty before. i also noticed that no school buses were around. however, your mind doesn't think as fast as your gut so i kept driving ahead. john had a quiz at 8am sharp. we decided to flip on the radio and see what was up. maybe class would be delayed. we were hopeful.
after about 6 minutes of bullshit that the radio people feel they need to babble through, they announced school delays and closures. the university of texas was one of the last ones listed but they said class would be delayed until 11am. wohooo. unfortunately, we were already at the school. doh. so we turned around.
we called ahead and told jeremy not to head to work yet, that the roads were pretty bad. when we got back, john and i decided to fix ourselves some breakfast. we had eggs, toast, and bacon. after we were done, john headed to his room to watch some movies and i sat on the couch with jeremy and watched the news. about 45 minutes later they announced that all UT classes today would be canceled. wohoo. i did not want to head back out into that nastyness...and today my classes would have ended at 10pm!
i ran upstairs and told my brother and he let out a yahoo too. jeremy was unsure of wether or not to go to work. he has a major project due tomorrow but part of his group already said they weren't going to work today because of the ice. around noon, he headed off to work anyhow... he's kind of work anal like that. :)
anyhow, he just called and said he's coming back home because all the entrances to the building were cut off and that cars were having trouble getting out of the driveway.
yeah. today's an ice day. i'm going to do some studio work now. :0
anyhow, i get up and get dressed for my 8am history of modern japanese architecture class. i get downstairs and wait for my brother to be ready to leave. i pack a semi-breakfast composed of a cereal bar, an apple, and some cheeze-its. i've already convinced myself that i'm going back to bed after i'm done with my morning class. i decide to check outside the window to see if my car is frozen over like it was the night before. there were ice cycles coming off the hood and my windshield wipers were iced over.
i automatically went into "dad" mode. i call it dad mode because so many mornings back home in the winter, we used to have to take the hot water kettle and defrost the windshield. i took a huge pot of water and made several trips out to the car until i could start to see actual glass. :) when my brother was ready, he got a pot and pitched in. about 15 minutes off schedule, we headed off to school.
i immediately noticed that there were hardly any cars on the road. i had never seen riverside, the main road to the highway, so empty before. i also noticed that no school buses were around. however, your mind doesn't think as fast as your gut so i kept driving ahead. john had a quiz at 8am sharp. we decided to flip on the radio and see what was up. maybe class would be delayed. we were hopeful.
after about 6 minutes of bullshit that the radio people feel they need to babble through, they announced school delays and closures. the university of texas was one of the last ones listed but they said class would be delayed until 11am. wohooo. unfortunately, we were already at the school. doh. so we turned around.
we called ahead and told jeremy not to head to work yet, that the roads were pretty bad. when we got back, john and i decided to fix ourselves some breakfast. we had eggs, toast, and bacon. after we were done, john headed to his room to watch some movies and i sat on the couch with jeremy and watched the news. about 45 minutes later they announced that all UT classes today would be canceled. wohoo. i did not want to head back out into that nastyness...and today my classes would have ended at 10pm!
i ran upstairs and told my brother and he let out a yahoo too. jeremy was unsure of wether or not to go to work. he has a major project due tomorrow but part of his group already said they weren't going to work today because of the ice. around noon, he headed off to work anyhow... he's kind of work anal like that. :)
anyhow, he just called and said he's coming back home because all the entrances to the building were cut off and that cars were having trouble getting out of the driveway.
yeah. today's an ice day. i'm going to do some studio work now. :0
Monday, February 24, 2003
would you like to be briefed?
today has been semi normal for me if you discount the ice and sleet. i made chocolate oreo/marshmallow cupcakes this past weekend and brought a batch to school since no one at home was eating them. they got good reviews. :) i love to bake for some reason. i hate to cook but love to bake. i guess it has to do with my huge sweet tooth. i think i'm gaining weight again. i can't tell. i'm not going to get into it right now. anyhow, i've been thinking about my next baking project. i'm going to try and make a cookie on a stick bouquet. i can't decide if i should make it out of sugar cookies or chocolate chip. i've been looking at recipes on the internet but they aren't so great. i emailed my mother to see if she could hook me up with some good recipes so i'll wait to hear back from her.
jeremy and i have been playing those orisinal games that posted awhile back.http://www.ferryhalim.com/orisinal/
my favorite right now is the bear and the bunnies. jeremy has a theory that people have been cheating since some score on the timed games exceed possible points.
i watched my big fat greek wedding this weekend and thought it was very good. they weren't kidding when they said this movie was this year's sleeper. i guess that's what happens when you don't have a good title. well, who knows. you know that new jet li, dmx movie? they flash the title of that movie so fast, that you can't catch it the first couple of times you see the trailer. it's cradle to the grave by the way. anyhow, it doesn't matter cuz you're going to say "let's go see that jet li, dmx movie." :)
okay. i guess now that i've done some home page/ net stuff, i'll get back to some studio work.
jeremy and i have been playing those orisinal games that
my favorite right now is the bear and the bunnies. jeremy has a theory that people have been cheating since some score on the timed games exceed possible points.
i watched my big fat greek wedding this weekend and thought it was very good. they weren't kidding when they said this movie was this year's sleeper. i guess that's what happens when you don't have a good title. well, who knows. you know that new jet li, dmx movie? they flash the title of that movie so fast, that you can't catch it the first couple of times you see the trailer. it's cradle to the grave by the way. anyhow, it doesn't matter cuz you're going to say "let's go see that jet li, dmx movie." :)
okay. i guess now that i've done some home page/ net stuff, i'll get back to some studio work.
long time inbetween, long time till
my life has been consumed by school. i'm at the studio almost all times of the day. i've become driven and motivated and obsessed. i want to try and stop myself but i know it's all futile. my mind is in control. i have not time. i come home and stare aimlessly at the tv until i can't think anymore, go to bed, and then wake up and go to school. everything else seems to have been pushed to the side. will this stop? have i entered a new phase? is this temporary? ever since i have retured from christmas break, i have broken away from my previous lifestyles. i yearn much more for the extraordinary. i am not complacent.
Tuesday, February 18, 2003
give me time
i don't have time for myself anymore.
i don't know what i'd choose. lonliness or losing myself.
i guess that's why i'm still up at 3am right now even though i have an 8am class tomorrow. i'm trying to have my cake and eat it too.
everything in my life right now is on super long play.
i don't know what i'd choose. lonliness or losing myself.
i guess that's why i'm still up at 3am right now even though i have an 8am class tomorrow. i'm trying to have my cake and eat it too.
everything in my life right now is on super long play.
Saturday, February 15, 2003
Friday, February 14, 2003
another friday
another Friday. i still have nothing to report about my life. it's just simply going. i'd like to explain my new project and how i'm approaching it but i'm sure to be disheartened by it all soon so i shall wait on that. i'm washing my brother's sheets right now. his girlfriend is coming up to visit and he's never washed them before. it's my valentine's gift to her. :)
jeremy and i plan on eating in tonight and watching movies. we don't necessarily celebrate today as any day special. it's just another day we're still together. gawd, relationships are such hard work. it's a wonder why this nation even bothers with monogamy.
jeremy and i plan on eating in tonight and watching movies. we don't necessarily celebrate today as any day special. it's just another day we're still together. gawd, relationships are such hard work. it's a wonder why this nation even bothers with monogamy.
Thursday, February 6, 2003
February desktop
here's my February desktop. i think i've fulfilled my pink quota for the year. :D
click on image to view larger
click on image to view larger
going nowhere because i can't speak
one of the worst things about going back to school is that you have to encounter your worse fears. you get to meet people that are important, brilliant, and plain geniuses.
i feel so inadequate most of the time. i keep wondering what i'm doing. i'm not going to make it big anywhere.
one of the things about being successful in the US is that you have to know how to talk. if you don't know how to talk, if you can't get the words out and express what you mean and communicate, no one is going to listen..no one is going to ask. no one is going to care. i just don't know how to talk. i don't like to talk. i'm hopeless.
during class, when we're supposed to be talking to our teacher about what we've been doing, my partner can ramble on forever about this and that. i have absolutely nothing to say. not only that, i'm too nervous to speak. explaining myself is so awkward. i do things so intuitively, it's so hard to articulate what i'm thinking in words.
who was it? some de constructivist said that everything is a misinterpretation...that thought expressed in words or writing have built in errors..there is already a mistake built into that process..therefore all misinterpretations are valid....
i thought that was pretty interesting. i'm a walking misinterpretation. i guess i should be happy that i'm valid.
i feel so inadequate most of the time. i keep wondering what i'm doing. i'm not going to make it big anywhere.
one of the things about being successful in the US is that you have to know how to talk. if you don't know how to talk, if you can't get the words out and express what you mean and communicate, no one is going to listen..no one is going to ask. no one is going to care. i just don't know how to talk. i don't like to talk. i'm hopeless.
during class, when we're supposed to be talking to our teacher about what we've been doing, my partner can ramble on forever about this and that. i have absolutely nothing to say. not only that, i'm too nervous to speak. explaining myself is so awkward. i do things so intuitively, it's so hard to articulate what i'm thinking in words.
who was it? some de constructivist said that everything is a misinterpretation...that thought expressed in words or writing have built in errors..there is already a mistake built into that process..therefore all misinterpretations are valid....
i thought that was pretty interesting. i'm a walking misinterpretation. i guess i should be happy that i'm valid.
Tuesday, February 4, 2003
fortress
a week or so ago, jeremy and i were surfing around in blockbuster looking for movies to rent. for some reason, this old sci-fi movie came into my head. it was something i had watched many ages ago and i couldn't remember what it was called. i thought it was a van damme movie but i wasn't sure. later that weekend, i looked up van damme's filmography and nothing like the plot line i was thinking about came up. out of desperation, i went into google and typed this in:
future woman baby pregnant arrest prison fight movie plot
to my suprise, the move showed up! it was called Fortress and it starred Christopher Lambert, no van damme.
anyhow, i have a new found respect for google now.
heh. unfortunately, if you type in the actual text FORTRESS in google, the movie doesn't pop up right away.
future woman baby pregnant arrest prison fight movie plot
to my suprise, the move showed up! it was called Fortress and it starred Christopher Lambert, no van damme.
anyhow, i have a new found respect for google now.
heh. unfortunately, if you type in the actual text FORTRESS in google, the movie doesn't pop up right away.
the state of things
ever since i got back from spring break, i've felt diconnected from my life and myself. i feel like i'm just going through the motions but there is little to no meaning behind it all. i think this is one of the most dangerous places to be. sadness and suffering are perfectly normal emotional states of a functional human being, but apathy leads to nothing and nothing leads to nowhere...which of couse seems futile ..kind of like this post.... which i hate (futility not my post).
Saturday, February 1, 2003
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