i'm becoming a masochist

lets talk about pain.
yes, shall we?

woke up at 6am and took an oral sedation pill. i got up and was completely nauseous. i waited for my brother to pick me up at 6:30am and then we headed to the periodontist's office.
when i got there, i was only a little groggy. it was pretty apparent to me that the oral sedation wasn't going to do me much good for the surgery.

around 7am. they started the surgery. i was to get a gum lift. i only had some idea of what it meant but i'm pretty glad i didn't know. otherwise, would have been petrified all week. the doctor started out by giving me a serious of 8 or so shots throughout the front of my mouth and in my lip. i could feel the first few of them but the rest were pretty painless since my mouth was becoming numb. next came the "claw"...

after he thought my gum was numb enough he started to use this claw looking tool to pry my gums away from my teeth. you can think of it like pulling carpet up to stretch it out again. once he got enough of the gum away from the tooth, he used tweezers to pull and stretch the gum up. after being properly stretched and pulled, he began to sew the gum in place. this is where the real pain started, if you can imagine.

i could feel the needle going through, at first only a very slight pain. then i began to have a feeling of soreness. he stitched it in place and then wired the stitches around my teeth for security. i was completely awake and aware of all of this. i could see the metal tools and blood and needles. the last part was the final blow. he pushed some gauze up against the area he had just worked on and then pressed very hard to apply pressure.
i thought my eyes were going to pop out of my head from the pain. then they gave me an ice pack and i was on my way home.

when i go home, i climbed straight into bed. i spent a good hour closing my eyes and trying to mediate the pain away. luckily, my sleepiness overrode the pain and when i woke up several hours later, the pain was extremely duller.

after i got up, i felt good enough to do my next self portrait shoot for Sunday. after jeremy got home, we watched bridget jones, the edge of reason and the incredibles. i def. liked the incredibles more than bridget jones. i just didn't really buy the chemistry between collin firth and renee zellwegger.

we ordered some chinese take-out and i'm now contemplating on heading straight to bed or working on my website.

trish and her husband alain are coming over tomorrow for dinner. toilets need to get cleaned, floors need to be vacuumed, kitty litter needs to get emptied, laundry needs to be done, dishes need washing..on and on on and on.. but i'm sleepy. maybe i'll have more energy tomorrow afternoon.