we're having a network party tonight. normally, i'd be all up for it but i just haven't been up for anything this week. i don't know what's wrong with me. last night, as i was trying to go to sleep, i kept thinking to myself how easy it would be for me to fall right now. i've gotten to this point where i've become less and less afraid of dying and more afraid of wasting my time living. but there is no point anyhow, is there? so i've been riding the tides of my mental status trying to find balance somewhere so that i can function like a normal human being.

i've just grown so tired...of everything. nothing really surprises me anymore and nothing seems worth getting up for. is this why people have children? i don't know.

i have class from 1 to 6pm today. i'm actually looking forward to it. my partner and i are making headway with our work. we're knocking the socks off our fellow classmates through software skills alone. i love it when i can bring pc into the eager minds of young architects to be... hehehe.. i believe in tabula rasa..
clean slate. no history. if that makes me a horrible person, i'm willing to live with that.