flush me down

do they make toilets that don't overflow?
no, mine didn't but it was something i was thining about while i was in the shower this morning. i was getting annoyed that the shower curtain wouldn't seal off and that we always get water on the bathroom floor. this led me to think of what nice things i'd like to one day have in my home. one, a sliding bathtub door. two, carpet on the bathroom floor. number two led me to think about problems with overflows which led me to think of how to solve the overflow problem. i'm sure they have to make toilets that somehow can contain overflows...or maybe they have to secure an additional plumbing pipe for excess or something. anyhow. my week has been droning on. i have a review today with my studio teachers. i'm trying to put together a 3D section of our building right now.
with luck, i'll be done before pin-up time.

well, our network party was pretty fun. the games played were Unreal Tournament and Castle Wolfenstien 3D.

i only played Wolfenstien since i got back home from school pretty late. we all went to eat at Vinny's for dinner. actually, only 3 of us ate food since everyone else had pizza earlier. we played about 4 different maps on the wolfenstien assault missions. my team mostly played on the allies side. we kicked axies ass.

today we're going to the hong kong food market to stock up on food to cook for the week. i've been trying to catch catch me if you can in theaters before it goes out. if we get done early enough today, maybe we can see it.

other than that, it has been a pretty cold, misty, and wet weekend.

we're having a network party tonight. normally, i'd be all up for it but i just haven't been up for anything this week. i don't know what's wrong with me. last night, as i was trying to go to sleep, i kept thinking to myself how easy it would be for me to fall right now. i've gotten to this point where i've become less and less afraid of dying and more afraid of wasting my time living. but there is no point anyhow, is there? so i've been riding the tides of my mental status trying to find balance somewhere so that i can function like a normal human being.

i've just grown so tired...of everything. nothing really surprises me anymore and nothing seems worth getting up for. is this why people have children? i don't know.

i have class from 1 to 6pm today. i'm actually looking forward to it. my partner and i are making headway with our work. we're knocking the socks off our fellow classmates through software skills alone. i love it when i can bring pc into the eager minds of young architects to be... hehehe.. i believe in tabula rasa..
clean slate. no history. if that makes me a horrible person, i'm willing to live with that.

the new computer, an outdoor activity, and singing lessons

got a new computer...actually got an upgrade on my old computer and built myself a new computer out of spare parts and one bought part, the motherboard. i decided that i wanted a computer for school and that we had enough spare pc components to build a spare one for me to use. gotta love pcs. anyhow, the video card we found for it is old as me so i'm going to see about ordering another one for cheap.

i've been installing software and managing files all weekend. i've also been trying to get my desk organized and the room clean. i think i've been pretty successful.

since i passed my history test, i will no longer be needing all the books and notes people have given me for past history classes and tests. i had to get everyone's stuff in order so i can give them back this week. i want to give them something to show how grateful i am that they let me borrow their things. i don't think a thankyou note is enough so i'm trying to come up with something not too over the top and not too lame. the best thing i've gotten so far is maybe a candy package or something.

i did a couple of fun things today besides computer stuff. my friend, eric, called today asking if we wanted to do anything outside since it was such a nice day. jeremy was tired of going out since we had just gotten back from running errands outside....so he just wanted to stay indoors and chilll. i didn't want to do anything that would require too much endurance since i was pretty tired so i suggested that we could do photos. i've been wanting to take more photos of people but have been lacking in the model department. so that's what i did. we went outside and i took about 32 poses of him around various natural and man-made scenes.

around 9pm, our friend hani came through town on his way back from a wedding in Dallas....so we went out to eat with him. we went to eat at Wanfu and i got my usual beef and broccoli combination. i don't know why i don't ever stray from the regular menu. i guess i'm a conservative eater.

after he left and we went back to the condo, i gave my brother's friend some singing lessons. hehehe.. that was very fun and entertaining. i kept asking him to breath in certain ways and he kept saying he couldn't do it without shitting in his pants. heheh. and also at one point, i was showing him how to enunciate words while singing My Country Tis of Thee...and i sang "Myyyyyyy Cuuuuuunt ry tis of theeeee" hehehe.
yeah, singing is a really dooozy.

now i'm going to go crash out in my newly washed 400 count prima satin cotton sheets and 350 count goose down comforter...aaaawwww yeeeeaaah.

infidelity

there's something about infidelity that intrigues me as well as disturbs me. somehow, i like the notion that people can live entirely separate lives than the ones you perceive. i like the idea of secrets and having moment for yourself alone. i think it's amazing how people are able to live within themselves with lies and betrayal. i find it fascinating and impressive.

at the same time, if you're caught, it's the most undeniably gruesome feeling of defeat....eh.. i don't really want to talk about this now. i've changed my mind. i'll think about it somemore later.

it's just that being trapped in your own prison is horrific....but is it more terrible than ripping someone's heart out?

i passed the placement exam! a very glad moment in my very sad life.

well, i can resume my life once again. i took the placement exam yesterday and got an email today.

>Anita,
>
>You passed the Survey III test. Congratulations! I'll forward the
>information to Rosemin.
>
>Richard Cleary


wohoo. i'm so thrilled. a huge huge huge burden has been lifted off my shoulders. now i can concentrate on ending my graduate career with pizzazz..hehehe. i'm actually off to st. edwards university to survey a site for our class project. we're doing some university classroom, computer lab as our first project. i'm not too thrilled about it yet...especially with the absence of a computer proficient and savy studio teacher. oh well, you can't have it all.

going out there won't be too fun today since it's wet and cold but i plan on doing a lot of picture taking and perhaps site layout sketching. my nose is already cold and i'm still indoors. thankgoodness for the flu shot i took back in november.

anger management

i'm bitter.
i'm studying.


united lost my luggage yesterday. they forgot to board it on my flight when i connected from denver to austin. luckily, they found it and it was returned this afternoon with everything intact.


back to studying.
and being bitter about studying.

contemplating heaven as hell

i got an email today that made me start to think about relationships again. i'm not talking about romance relationships but the ones we form daily that constantly grow, shift, desolve, and morph. i was talking to a friend last night and we've been trying to formulate a plan to do a creative writing project together. we were talking about this subject as the basis for a book. it's interesting to analyze the different natures and catagories of my past, present, and future relations... friends, aquaintances, co-workers, fellow students, professors, the guy who sold me my apples and water.

....another thought.

have you ever really thought about the concept of heaven and hell? granted, i'm not religous and don't believe in either...

what is eternity? what is an existence which has no end? these are things mankind can't possibly comprehend. so when you say heaven is some state of eternal peace and happiness...that can be construed as a type of hell for some people..for me certainly...

i guess i better go check out of the hotel now. we're leaving to go eat lunch around 11am and have to be at the airport by 12:30....then 3pm i take off for denver..and at 6:20 i head off to austin...and at 9:30...i'll be home.

snow update

it's snowing! enough to cover the ground and cars now. the flakes
are so huge and the snow is so soft. it felt like cotton when i picked
it up. i went out and took some pictures tonight incase it doesn't last
until tomorrow morning...but my co-workers (whom i coincidentally ran into as
i was taking pictures outside) said it would last until tomorrow if not more.

so that's my snow update

let it snow let it snow let it snow

woohoo! it snowed today...i think they call it flurries here but it's hard core snow
for me. i'm hoping there will be snow everywhere by tomorrow. it's supposed to be 1 to 18 degrees tomorrow. very cold day.

we finished up all of our work today so i have all of tomorrow morning to either sleep in or take pictures of snow. i'm pretty glad it's over with. we went to eat at the rock bottom brewery today. two of my co-workers love beer...so everywhere we've gone they've gotten two or three glasses of beer. tonight, they had like 3 to 4. they can hold their liquor very well. the food was all right. i had a brewer sandwhich which was just like a club sandwhich. our waitresses name was bat girl. hehe. it was snowing when we left the place and the car was turning white. i have high hopes for a white winter tomorrow.

i'm about to call it a night. shower, read, and sleep. we never made it to sex world. three stories of sex stuff. how can we have missed that!? haha.

my plane leaves at 3pm tomorrow and i'll get into austin around 9:30pm. i have a two hour delay in denver. how fun...... lets hope for snow.

not so mexican

just got back from our outing tonight. we went to eat at this mexican restaurant called Chevy's. it was a disgrace of a mexican restaurant. they're not joking when they say that the north doesn't know mexican. after we finsihed eating we walked around the downtown area awhile and went into Borders books where i got some postcards. we then saw that there was a cold stone creamery which is the equiv. to marble's slab and maggie moo's in the north. the guy scooped huge portions into the regular cup. it was unreal. i got a french vanilla with strawberry mixins. it sucked. the ice cream tasted very sticky and creamy. it made me feel like i was eating pure lard. i saved the cup as a souvineir.

i didn't intend to stay out so long but the people i was with wanted to explore so i had to tag along. i need to do some studying now. i have a lot of reading to do. i'm planning on getting two chapters done by tonight before i crash out.

tired though and stuffed. i've eaten entirely too much this week since everything is put on the travel expense. its nuts.

guess i'm going back to my room now. time to get crackin'.. have another day of work tomorrow....then friday we're pretty much free until we have to go to the airport. i have to be there at 1 since the other people's flights are at 2pm...mine's at 3, i beleive.

i don't get in until 9pm friday night. then more studying awaits. life won't be so good these next few days. :P

p.s. i've discovered that these people are not really northerners. they're way too friendly. someone said they're more like mid westerners or something. so far, almost every place we've gone, the people are super supre nice. plus, they all have that cool midwestern accent. it's so interesting. if you've ever seen the movie drop dead gorgeous, it's kind of like that. i don't do much talking around here but if i did...i bet they'd know i was from the south right away.... like the first time i say "ya'll".... and today this lady behind me ordered "two pops" ...which is there speak for coke or soda. hehehe.

north vs south

well, i made it to minnesota all right. the flights weren't too bad and i took some dramamine so no doggy bag for me. i got in around 2pm yesterday and started work right away. we were done by 6pm and went out to eat at this bar/restaurant called Runyons near our accomodations. we're staying at the mariot towne place suites...a bed and breakfast type place. i have my own kitchen with a stove, toaster, microwave, pots..pans..etc. it was like ten time better than what i expected which was like motel 6 or something.

today we started work around 8:30am and finsihed around 5pm. we're about to go out and eat.
i had noodle and company for lunch today and got phad thai...it was very nice restaurant chain idea. i wish there was one in austin. i hear they're going to put one up in Dallas soon.

no snow. and it's not even that cold....for minnesota anyhow. it's around 40 to 50 degrees during the day. at night it gets very chilly but nothing i can't handle. i'm at the complimentary office space in the hotel. they also have a billards room, work out facility, snack shop, and some other things i won't have time to visit. we're in the middle of downtown minneapolis and it's quite a nice city..except for the fact that i don't see much of a city life beyond corporate around here....lots of nuddie bars and sex shops though. these northerners are kinky. they also talk funny...saying things like ya and yeh a lot.

soa hoaws everything goain.
that's northern for
so how's everythin' goin'
which is southern.

safe journey

got all my packing done. i even have my back-up pbj sammich for lunch incase
the airlines don't serve anything. i have to get up at 5am this morning. hopefully
everything goes smoothly. unfortunately, people aren't allowed to come into the airports anymore so jerms can't wait with me till my flight arrives. the good thing is that he can go to work early and get out by 2pm today.

i plan on doing some writing and making thank you cards. we'll see.. i have a feeling i might just space out listening to my mp3s and watching people.

off i go..

lackluster

that's the kind of day it is.
i have a lot of packing to do for my trip. i haven't even started. i made a list of thigns i need to bring though. i guess that's a start. i just want to crawl back into bed though.
i'm scared of the weather up there. it's supposed to get into the single digits. that's like incomprehensible to me. i start to shrivel when it gets below 60 here. what are they thinking?
i hope they have heaters on up there..and that they're set up to above 70 degrees. i'm afraid that they're so used to the cold up there, they'll think that 50 degrees is hot.

i'm thinking about crawling back into bed right now. i just don't want to think. i don't want to begin anything because no matter what, it all ends up with me waking up at 5am tomorrow morning to catch an early ass flight. not looking forward to it.

i wonder if i'll go into shock because of the cold. from 70 to 4 degrees in one day. should be interesting.

my packing list
Shampoo
Soap
Toothbrush
Toothpaste
Facial soap
Clothes
Socks
Underwear
Coat
Scarfs
Gloves
Books
Notebook
Cash
Checks
Credit cards
Mp3 player
Digital camera
Snack food
PBJ sandwich for lunch incase airplane sucks
Cell phone

hope i'm not forgetting anything.

the swollen eye, scream little girl

my eye is swollen..the right one.
i feel like someone punched me cuz my vision is slightly impaired.
i figure the swelling will go down by the end of the day. i hope. i'm going to get some ice on it soon. it started irritating me last night while i was watching a movie downstairs with jeremy. just another casualty in my downward allergy spiral. it's amazing how your own body can feel so out of place. at some points, i felt like i could just die..or that i was dying. agh! i need drugs!!!

i need to start packing for my trip to minnesota. i have a three hour delay in denver during my flight transfer. i'm supposed to be studying but since i'll be up by 5am that morning, no way i'll have the motivation to read. i wish i had a portable dvd player. maybe i could use the time to take pictures and write things down that i've been meaning to do.

we're headed out to best buy and office depot today. i guess the shopping never ends. i've been exchanging and returning gifts all week long. i want to scream. not for any particular reason. i just do. AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHh.

football - intermission- football

we've been watching the big game tonight...off and on. i haven't been too excited about it. i'm not that much into football anymore since i graduated from college. it's been a pretty bleak day. nothing exciting has happened nor will it. i'm having troubles with my health and allergies. i ran out of my allergy medicine and now my brain and nose have taken over my body. i'm stressed out beyond repair right now. i have so much on my mind.

i'm being sent out to minneapolis next week for some site surveys with my work. i'm actually excited about traveling and seeing snow for the first time in like 15 years or so. i'm afraid of traveling alone though. i'm also worried about this test i have to study for between now and when i get back. i'm trying to place out of another history class. i'm so disgusted with my school and my profession. i sit back and think, what the hell was i thinking? my whole life has been such a waste of time.....

second overtime now... guess i better get back and see who wins.