well, i figured out why i couldn't see my posts. when my brother was
toodling with my pc the other night he reset the time..and the year.
i tried to update the lj and edit it but it couldn't find it.
urgh. whatever. it's not worth the time.

i'm in studio right now. i've been working on the museum project.
i'm about to switch gears though and start my theory paper on SPACE.
i tested my prof. i was right. he's a conservative.
oh well.

i just got through eating dinner. i got a ceaser salad and a drink.
i was having a discussion with my classmates earlier about diets.
one of my friends tried to do the slim fast thing just like .
the thing about those is that they're temporary solutions. in my opinion
it's more like a torture shake. i need sustenance. i couldn't imagine not consuming
food and just having a shake instead. i'd go hungry mentally.
it's so hard to be on a diet in America. just look at our grocery stores. it's filled
with nothing but aisles and aisles of junk. if you want to eat a healthy meal you almost have to make it from scratch. i hate cooking. even cereal isn't all that good for you.
calorie counting has been the best method for me so far...quite simply because i do relatively no exercise... Activity is what i prefer. the whole idea of going to a gym and squirming around on some mechanical devices just seems tortorous. i prefer strolling, site seeing, biking, or taking the stairs instead of the elevator...blah blah blah. i was able to lose 20lbs since december from calorie counting. i know, it's annoying and if you tell your friends, they'll roll their eyes. i used to do that too. there's nothing worse than being at a dinner table trying to enjoy your food and people are talking about how you shouldn't be eating this or that... or i can only eat blah blah blah. so i think diets have to be a personal endeavor...for them to really work. they have to be come a daily routine..a habit, and instinct...something that is natural..not something you have to suffer through.

i really wish being fat wasn't a big deal here. it pisses me off. okay, it's gross to be obese simply because you can start to see the physical health problems start to appear. when people have a problem getting up and down or even walking across a room, there's a problem. the american lifestyle is rather privledged; physical labor isn't in our daily vocabulary. so why the hell do we need to look like we are starving and overworked? that is the lie of beauty.

oh well. let us be the slaves of our own vanity.
hehehe. i don't own a scale because i'm so terrified of becoming obsessed with losing another pound. i already have a mental problem when it comes to my own body.
i lose weight but i can't see it. i gain weight and i can't see it. thin is never thin enough.
but i know i'm not a unique in this world. this is the sick sick secret opression of millions of americans.

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