i had a day all planned out. it was going to be so productive.
i ran out of gas around 5pm... i was reading some theory stuff..and man.
my mind was going nuts. some of that stuff is so wack.. the vocabulary is intense.. i was so tired ... the words..no matter in which order i put them..they were just slurs of lines.. i was planning on staying at school till late reading..but i just couldn't. i've been home now since around 6.. and i'm so tired..so drained. i just got through paying bills. not fun. i don't know if i'm going to have enough to cover it all. i'm contemplating going to sleep right now and waking up early early in the morning. i'll think about living tomorrow.. when i'm awake. ;)

studio was long today...but i loved the discussion.
i'm not sure what to make of my professor yet. he's definitely on the level.
i haven't had a teacher more on the level than my last prof at A&M.. who ended up leaving to pursue better things in germany.. mainly a cute german girl. hehe.
it's weird how teacher/student relationships work out. there's always this guarded mystery between the two. my last prof was very open about himself and yet there
was still that sense of ambiguity.. what is it about teachers and their unknowable presence. it's madening sometimes... they are the minds you want to pick..and yet they are the most guarded. i couldn't interface on my last profs level. he and i were polar opposites.. he kind pulled me away from who i am.. this whole experience at UT has pulled me away from who i am. look. do you see this typing? do you see my words.
how are you viewing these things? through the internet right? through this faceless world?.. yes. that's me. this is where my soul is... this oblong void of space where nothing matters more than simply existing.
i know..people around me think it's a sad sort of thing. computers are bad. they are the instigaters of the dissassociation of man from his body..
hehehe.. but damn.. this is where the minds of women and men flourish..
where we are explorers in unspeakable, indescribeable worlds. it's incredible.
too many facades separate us from ourselves in the physical world. thoughts are not physical.. emotions are not physical.. and neither is this world of the internet.
am i geek? fine.
let me return for just a little while and admire and explore...

for example, i was browsing through 's homepage and thinking how different it was to be confronted with his physical imagery.. when for most of the time he's a body of thought to me...with a very concrete icon. the power of imagery is amazing..
i've seen his picture before.. just like and .. but it's their iconic imagery that is lasting in my memory. i don't prefer one or the other but it's that translucent sort of nature that makes them even more interesting.

"that's the funny thing about a memory, isn't it. We are not what we remember of ourselves. We are what people say we are. They project upon us their convictions. We are nothing but blank screens." - trevor goodchild, aeon flux episode Reraizure

well good morning.
if it is one.
i woke up around 8:30 today and got ready to go to the apartment.
i tried taking out the stains my end table left on the carpet. no luck getting it out..
so i just went up to the office and told them i was ready to hand in my keys.
i went with the lady for the walk through check. she didn't see the stains..so i should be getting my full deposit back minus my last water bill.

it was weird seeing that place all empty...
it's weird leaving a place behind.. even if you hated it.. it's still a part of your living
memory.. a place where events and emotions happened.. for at least a little while.
and then it's blank.. a brief walk through this sense of time... you shut the door..and gone.. you can no longer return to its senses. all you have left is the memory..

it's late. i'm still not done working on studio stuff..and to think this is only 1/4 of what i had planned to do tonight.. i got the topo model done.. working on the compositions right now.. my massing model is blah. i tried to do it on the computer..but nil.
john got LOTRs on his puter... he tried to play it on the dvd downstairs.. no luck.. not fast enough. cool though. the picture quality is excellent on the pc.
i had to make a compilation of songs for class tomorrow.. he wants us to bring music we think encompass what this music venue is about..

while searching for trace paper, i found my old totoro scroll that jeremy got me.
i hung it up next to my totoro doll.




no time.. no time.

i'm still reading 's novel during my bus rides. i'm at the point in the story where i'm wondering.. is dot dead?... and gosh i'm hungry for thai food.
;)

i prolly won't get to bed till 3am tonight.
i have to go turn in the keys to the apartment tomorrow.. and then I'll be rid of that hell hole..

oh yes.. i forgot to mention something that disturbed me today. i'm not sure if i should have been phased..but i was.
john came downstairs and asked me "are you going up to ft. worth for valentines or is jeremy coming down here?"
i was like "why?"
he was like "just wondering"
i was like "he'll probably come down here. WHY?"
he then said "well i'm going home to beaumont to visit charmaine and if you weren't going to be here, allen wants to stay here with his girlfriend for the weekend. his roomate is having his girlfriend down here too so their dorm room is going to be crowded..."

i was just shaking my head no no no no no.
i couldn't even believe that john would be okay with something like that.
allen even offered to put down a deposit.. (npi).
my best answer to him was "no, jeremy's coming down"..
but really that's not even the point! i mean.. come on! john barely knows this guy...
and the last comment i heard my brother say about him was "he can't talk to us right now, he's making a deposit in cindy's river"..

my parents have just about sacrificed their last hope for retirement by giving us this place... they've sweat, toiled, and poured their heart into this place. i just couldn't conceive of disrespecting this place by allowing a stranger to use it as a nookie coach.
no no no.
am i being anal?
for god sakes, this is my home!
there are limits..
aren't there?

okay. just as i was posting that last post, some girl came knocking on our
door telling us to get out because there was a fire in the adjacent condo.
i shut my computer off and ran downstairs telling john to grab the cats.
he grabbed dessy but we couldn't find tigger. i ran up and down the stairs calling his name... the girl knocked on the door again telling us we needed to get out...
so we ran out without tigger. the condo next to us had yellow flames gleaming from their kitchen window. i spotted tigger in the bushes. he must have ran out when john answered the door the first time. john chased him down..getting mauled in the process..but we finally got both of them contained. the firefighters showed up quickly..they're just down the street. they managed to put out the fire...which turned out to be some sort of grease fire from cooking. no damages sustained to our place..thank goodness.

geez.. so this is what it's like to have 100 grand flash before your eyes. :P
it's amazing what goes through your head when you've got 1 minute to vacate your abode.

sigh.. fweeeew.

jeremy came down this weekend.
we didn't do anything too exciting.
friday night we went to go eat at apple bees. when
we got back home, jeremy and justin, john's friend, helped me put
my coffee table and dining set together.
saturday we headed out early to go to a home owner's association board meeting.
john and i had to request money for the repairs done on the exterior wall of
our condo. i did some clean up to the downstairs.. i'm still trying
to get everything unpacked. i give it another three weeks before i'm completely settled in.. no joke. Jeremy and I went to go take pictures of my site for architecture class. we're doing some live music venue on this plot of land next to the river..or lake.

that night we went to go eat with some friends at a mexican resteraunt called Guerro. it really sucked. i give it a 2 out of 10. the salsa was barf and the food
was mediocre for the price range. later that night we went to go see The Count of Monte Cristo. I thought it was a pretty good movie...hard to mess up a classic..
The plot line was consistent and I was impressed with flow..
Oh yeah.. we also figured out that we get HBO and Cinemax.. John was wondering why we were getting free soft core porn. hahaha. I'm excited cuz now I get to watch Sex and the City.

I've been doing chores, stressing over work I can't do and papers I need to start writing. :(

pics from the site.













security guy getting a little nosey.. or paranoid...

my spliced picture...heheh.

these past two days have been very exhausting for me. I think I just have a lot going through my mind. I'm feeling very lethargic and somewhat depressed. I don't have the will to keep truckin' on in school..and be studious.. not right now anyhow. I'm being worn down I think by my own aspirations and fears. there's nothing worse than losing your self confidence... i stare around.. i look into the faces of everyone around me.. my peers.. my coligues.. they all seem so sure. I wonder what my own reflection looks like.

sigh. i'm off to do some paid work.. which i don't really have the will to do..

here are some pics of my kitties when i let them in my room under strict surveillance.

okay. i've reworked my compositions.. i think the second set turned out the best.
the third and fourth are okay.. third is more of my style.. the fourth set is contrained by the teacher.. so i don't like it as much.




The second sent of compositions had to be 3 done with paper
and 3 done with autocad


can you tell which is computer and which is paper?


this was to be the third with incorporation of both paper and computer on
all compositions. i found out i wasn't supposed to use solids
on the computer part.. so i had to start over.. ugh.


this is the final.. it's supposed to an investigation into space.. and
composing true compositions... but the medium was restrictive..
so i don't feel that successful.

my life in five days.

friday, got home.. packed (by myself while john watched tv)
parents came in around 11 something.
i went to sleep shortly after.

saturday, woke up at 7am and got tv and computer ready to transport
to condo. had to wait from 8am to 12pm for cable guy to hook up cable.
he didn't show till 12:30. stepped out at 8:30 to get breakfast at mcdonald's. carpet layers came in around 9am. i sat and watched one guy seal two pieces of carpet together. we went back to the apartment at 1 something and ate lunch. john and mom started cleaning and packing the place. dad and i went back to the apartment to
take care of the carpet people. they finished around 4 something. we then proceeded to vaccuum all the scrap fibers up.. we killed the vacuum cleaner around 5 and drove around till 6:30 trying to find a new one. around 7pm we went to go pick up the uhaul. it was a clunker and i'm so glad my dad was there to drive it. from 7pm to 8:45 pm we packed up the uhual. it was grueling. very close to 9pm we arrived at macfrugals to pick up a dining set and coffee table and threw them in the back of the uhaul.
around 9:20pm it was getting cold and we set about unloading the damn uhaul. at this point everybody's strength started flailing. we trucked on and by 11:18 dad and i were taking the uhaul back and mom and john went to Wanfu to start order food. We got to Wanfu around 11:30 and ate the grub that had already been served. yeah.
around 12:30 something we got back and shuffled a few things upstairs and got things in just enough order for us to sleep.

sunday, i get up around 8am and start hauling shit up the stairs. it's like moving twice..once into the house and again up the stairs. around 8:45am dad and i drive down to the uhaul place to turn in the keys. we stop by the apartment, feed the kitties, and pack more of the apartment stuff into the car. (two more trips of car loads before we finish with that place) we get the kitchen unpacked, the heavy furniture upstairs, and then we eat lunch. munch munch.. more unpacking, more hauling, and more cleaning. mom and dad leave around 7pm or so.. and john and i eat soup fo dinner. i unpack stuff for the rest of the night... i can't remember anything else i did.

monday, thank god for martin luther king holiday. i wake up around 8am and do readings for school. i then hook up the rest of my computer equipment and start scanning in pictures. i do more readings and then start cooking lunch. john and i eat.
i work on some projects for school. at night i go to walmart to pick up a phone, a toaster, and some water... i can't remember what i did after that. my mind is slipping.

tuesday, today! woke up at 7am and starting working on those compositions for studio.
i got to school around 10:17 but didn't find parking till 10:56. I got to class around 11:11am.. (11 minutes late for a class where the prof is anal about tartiness). the next class was cancled but i had to meet my reading group to do our discussions. we went to chipotle and i got a steak burrito. i don't like that place. their meat is way too spicy.
after my last class, i headed over to the library to do some reading.. around 4:40 i passed out. i woke up around 15 minutes later and did more readings. around 6pm i headed out to the bus stop and road the bus home. i thought about reading more of my academic readings..but decided i was burned out.. so i pulled out my pda and starting reading 's novel. i was so involved in the reading that i almost missed my bus stop. (first time riding this bus)... when i got home i said hello to the kitties and went up to my room.. cable guy came buy saying i had illegal cable. crazy. he said the cable was supposed to be off. i told him we just moved in this weekend...and i had already paid in advance for this service. tigger ran out of the house during all of this and i caught him just in time. silly little bugger.
oh yes, i'm about to go eat. ...hmmm..anything else..ahhh. futility... today i learned that the compositions i woke up at 7am to do were done wrong. i have to redo them.
urgh. i'm a dumbass. oh well. off i go. and that's my life in five days.

...that we can be eclectic beings without so much as a single identity. i like
the though of being non-defined. i have no language. i have no sense of self.
i want to be that crisp black board that the eraser has just touched...over and over again.. drawing out as many possiblities of thought...of sight. why should there be a confinement to the mind..why should there be a confinement to who i am. i need no identity.

who am i... who am i..

sometimes i feel completely alone. I'm not even talking about friendships. I just feel like i've always been standing outside of the world around me.. like i never belonged to this life. it's an odd thing to not feel you belong to some part of the human race...
I feel human in every sense of the word, but i don't feel like this world is mine. Everything that I am is barren compared to everything else. The world is so fascinating, so busy, so everywhere.. and i'm just a little tick on its side. When time has passed, we're all just flicker of a memory that eventually will be forgotten. Everything I am is here and in this short spance of time that humans have to exist. What difference does a smile mean yesterday when you're frowning today? How relevant is memory or progress? I've always doted on evolution like it was this fundamental key to humanity. The aim is nil though isn't it? Evolution is just this earth's grandfather clock... it's marking the time away. Progression is a dream. We're simply living. That's it. You can call toilets, electricity, or going to the moon grand achievments..but birds have touched the sky long before we ever existed... and humans will never know the simplicity of living.. just living.

aaah.. nothing like waking up to stale cereal and last minute touch up sketching.



my life is hectic and not. How is that possible? It's like I'm battling out these two paths of life. There's this one in which I'm trying to reconnect with the world around me and the other will lead me to the recluse haven of acadamia. Hmm. So far the outside is just keeping my head clear. I could easily become a recluse and just get saturated in all this stuff I have to learn. It's a whole different world. It's a world of the mind...which doesn't quite need the body. I learned a new word yesterday. I have to keep www.dictionary.com open when I read this stuff. :) Okay. here's the word:
sol�ip�sism (slp-szm, slp-)
n. Philosophy
1.The theory that the self is the only thing that can be known and verified.
2. The theory or view that the self is the only reality.

I don't necessarily agree with that definition. I still believe we can only think we know what our own reality is... but it's all perception. We may not be what we perceive we are... if that makes sense.

wohoo. i stole this quiz from .

-->>the how well do you know me quiz <<--

I just got through doing my compositions. It took a lot longer than I thought it would. I did 9 of them. I have to choose six to present. I'm not sure which ones I like the best.
He says this is supposed to be some kind of "get to know you" exercise. I'm not sure if any of these compositions represent any part of who I am.. but what I like.
I think there's a difference...or is there? Are you what you like? No..that can't be..otherwise men would be big boobs and asses. hehehe. I guess it is true then! (snicker)...

Okie doke..onto do more work.. Hopefully I can get the self portrait in tonight.
I need to pack my studio stuff up first. I need to transfer my stuff there tonight when I go to pick up my brother.




hmmmm....

well i'm back home. it took me a lot longer than I had planned. I think there was some accident somewhere and traffic was blaaah!
I just fed the cats and checked the mail. I think my mail is already being forwarded because I haven't gotten any lately. I'm expecting a package from my work. I have to run by the condo tonight to pick up my mail and some detergent.
I'm about to get started on my black and white compositions. I have to do a self portrait for my drawing class..and then if I have time, I have a lot of reading to do.

I want to take a nap first..but I must keep trekin' on..

Morning. I woke up way too early. I'm already sleepy again. I have to go to school in about an hour. I'm seriously thinking about dropping my first class. We'll see how it goes. I've been doing paid work and fixing up my site a little.
I've added my xmas pics. I still have to do my cats xmas pics..they were so cute.

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I still have lots to do. I need to find a way to come home early today and get a lot done. I really need to find a way to either stop sleeping all together or force the day to 48 hours. :) I wish.

I had strawberries and cream oatmeal today for breakfast. I want some water now.
I'm wondering if I should pack a lunch for today or just skip it again and have big dinner. I know it's not good to skip a meal but oh well.

I found out last week from Jeremy that my car won't be ready for four weeks.
Ugh. We're stuck with the old green honda for now. It still runs nicely but I want my CRV back...keyless lock...cd player..hehe.

jeremy's going to call me in the morning to wake me up. I believe the wake up time is 7am. ouch. He's got to go meet his new landlord or whatever. He's also moving into a new place. He won't be here this weekend to help John and I move. I guess I'll have to be strong. :) John's friend Justin also fell through. I'm trying to round up another friend to come and help.

Anyhoo.. need to go to sleep now. I have a lot of stuff to do in the morning before school.

night.

wohoo. i got into the studio i want. The guy is really eccentric..and he's like all over the place. He runs this business up in New York called something Digital Foundry. It sounds cool. He sounds tough on grades though. I think I'm beyond worrying about grades though. We already have an assignment. We basically have to do a black and white composition on six 8 x 4.5 sheets of museum board. I'm not sure what I'm going to do.

John went home today after school...I think his friend Justin went with him. I just called him and told him to head back up to school because I'm done. I skipped lunch so I'm really hungry. I need a big dinner or something. People in this studio were eating popcorn and that made me even more hungry.

I was one of the first to arrive in the studio so I got a good spot. I have claimed my desk! Hehehe. And they awesome studio chairs too! AND the desks have parallel bars attached to them so I don't need to buy one..they cost a fortune. I just need to bring all my stuff to school tomorrow...which means I have to get all my stuff together tonight.

John and I are going to go bowling at the Student Union tonight.
My plans are to eat, bowl, go back home and finish paid work, pack up studio stuff, pack up stuff for the move, play with the kitties, and then go to bed.

I'm gonna go wash my hands before supper.

P.S. This computer has two monitors hooked up to it.. it's so cool. I can use 30 inches of space.. This is a programmers dream come true!..too bad I'm not a programmer.
I need to tell my brother that this is the sort of setup he needs.

lottery

I just went to the lottery for my class. There were only two profs to choose from.
I chose the visiting critic from New York. A lot of girls said they picked him because he was "cute"... hahahaha.. I really want to get this professor. He's totally on the A-list of intellectual thought. He's out there and he's not from UT which puts him on the number 1 list in my book. I'm not sure if I'll get my first pick though. A lot of people chose him.
They're going to post the classes at 3:30. I'm really nervous because I don't want to take the other choice. He sounds interesting and he's also intellectually stimulating..but he's old, racist, and isn't to keen on high tech visualizations.

I picked up a book for informal classes. I thought about taking something.
I don't know what. They've got aikdo, pillates work out, aerobics, hip-hop dance, paper making, novel writing, poetry, belly dancing, yoga, and a bunch of other classes.

I don't know if I can afford the classes and I don't know if I'll have time to take them.

I have to do something to kill time. I have another hour and a half. I'm going to start freaking out soon. I hate this kind of wait. Things could go either way..and it could mean the difference between loving my life or hating it.

I def. need to invest some money into a "chill the freak down" class. :) hehehe.

Okay, i'm off to make some trouble.

I woke up around 8:18am today. I brushed my teeth, washed my face, got dressed, took the close out of the dryer, and then woke up my brother. He was a little slow getting ready. By the time we got to the condo, the dude was already there. I asked him if he had been waiting long, he said no. We just gave him the key to our place so we wouldn't have to keeep meeting him int he morning. I dropped John at school after that and then came back home to the apartment. I've been working on paid work. I just updated my site a little and now it's back to more paid work.
Yup..boring stuff. I have to go to school around noon.

hmmm.. I can't do that one eyebrow lift very well.
Some of my friends are really good at it and they can do both eyebrows back and forth.

i'm in the process of formatting my computer. I'm in the phase where you save everything..but there's going to be that one important file you forgot to save. The last time I did this I forgot to back up my emails.
Tomorrow is the first day back at school. :P

The condo is pretty much ready to go except for the carpet and a huge gaping hole in the wall where water leaked. We have a guy coming in tomorrow morning to fix up the hole. I have to be up there at 9 to let him in...
It's going to be a long day tomorrow.

jeremy gave me his handspring visor. I'm going to start downloading books onto it once I have the correct software. I already got my brother to convert 's novel into the correct format so i can read it on my pda. yeah. now if i can just get my computer formatted and ready to roll...

bad mouth olser again...i bit my lip last weekend and now i'm paying for it.
it hurts to talk. these are the moments i wished for telepathic powers.
hell.. i wish i could wish this pain away.
ugh.

back. whew. it was another day of painting hell. I hate painting. I don't think I'd do this if someone offered me a thousand dollars. I just ate again too. What's my problem!? Why can't I stop eating? We have to be at the condo by 10am tomorrow to meet the repair guy. He's gotta try and fix our range, showers, and sinks. John and I will still be painting. Hopefully this will be the last day. Cleaning is more my specialty.
I was supposed to get some paid work in today. I can't seem to get mail from my company. I wonder if I've been fired and this is there way of telling me. :(

Here are some snaps I took today.

That's my dad waving.





This is my backyard. I don't know what I'm going to put in it...prolly nothing.
The balcony in the back is mine. I'm going to get plants and put tube lighting up there.


That's my mom adding texture to a flat part of the ceiling.


That's my brother. He and I slaved all day painting our rooms.
He wanted his room all white. I chose a really pale green with a light blue trim.
We'll see how it turns out.

hi-ho, hi-ho, it's off to work i go...
hmm..hmm..hmm..hmm.
hi-ho, hi-ho..

more painting...

I just got back from the condo. We've been there since 10am. We had to make two trips to Lowe's. It looks like we're going to order carpet on Monday after the guy takes measurements. My mom and I selected the paint. We're going with some whitish creme color with a green trim. Today we had to scrub the walls with some cleaning solution. That took forever. My mom also took most of the day trying to de-caulk the tub in my room. We've also tried to replace the shower handle in my brother's bathroom. Ugh. Tomorrow we start painting. If it were up to me, we would have just did some touch up work..but my mom wants to go all out and repaint the entire place!!! AAAGH.
NOT fun.

Speaking of not fun. We blew fuse on the range (oven)... there was this bug inside the clock panel. They only way to get the bug out was to dismantle the enitre oven interface. Everytime we try to screw all the dials back in, we get a big popping noise and then the whole joint goes black. We're either going to have to buy a new oven or hire an electrician to come out and put it together.

OH. this morning, jeremy and john went out and got us some krispy kreme donuts for breakfast...two dozen. Guess what we'll be having for breakfast tomorrow. mmm..

night.

okay. i'm back in austin.
joy.

jeremy and i just got through cleaning up the place a little. My parents and John should be arriving in an hour or so. My room is a junker! I haven't slept in here since it flooded the last time. I have so much packing to do. My parents will be staying for the week. We have to get the condo ready for John and I to move in to.. I'm not sure if we'll get to move in before school starts. I think the carpet replacement will take at least two weeks. I just can't wait to be out of this dump.

Jeremy and I ate at Macaroni Grill tonight. I normally like that place but I hate the one in Austin. I just think there's way too much busy-ness going on. It kinda makes me too nervous to eat. The lay out of the eating area causes waiters and hostesses to be constantly brushing by your table. I had spaghetti bolognese. It was good. I particularly like their free bread. :)

Guess I'm gonna go watch some tv with Jerms while we wait for my parents.
I just got through paying bills. ick!



I got this Xmas card from my former co-worker in Ft. Worth. He and his girlfriend printed out their xmas cards because they were lacking mulla. I thought it was a lot cooler than getting a store bought card.. groovy.

http://www.americanhumanist.org/press/SatanFL.html

(Washington, DC - December 3, 2001) Carolyn Risher, the mayor of Inglis,
Florida, signed and sealed an official government proclamation banishing
Satan from the town of Inglis and placed copies in hollowed out posts at
entrances to the town. This method of banishing "evil" harkens back to the
days of burning effigies of enemies, placing fetishes in homes, building
bonfires to ward off demons, and other practices popular in the Dark Ages.

In addition to noting her elective right to take the "town back for the
Kingdom of God," mayor Risher mentions that she was "appointed by God to
this position of leadership." Risher was very thorough in her banishment of
evil from the town, commanding "all satanic and demonic forces to cease
their activities and depart the town of Inglis."

This proclamation raises many questions. When Risher declared that Satan was
"powerless, no longer ruling over, nor influencing, our citizens" did she
believe that excluded Inglis from animosity, hate , crime, and confusion?
Will she next announce the dismantling of local police and emergency
services? Humanists in Inglis will await their tax refunds.

Executive Director of the American Humanist Association, Tony Hileman, feels
slighted by Risher's recent comment defending her proclamation "You're
either with God or against Him." "Such a statement," Hileman says, "does not
respect the rights of the 30 million Americans, some of whom reside in
Inglis, who do not identify with a particular religion. After all, Humanists
and others who do not believe in a higher power are neither with God nor
against Him or Her."

Pastor Richard Moore tried to defend Risher with his comment in the St.
Petersburg Times: "As an elected leader of this community, she was stepping
out as a Christian." Moore's words highlight the seriousness of this bizarre
proclamation, showing clearly that Risher was inappropriately using her
public office to further her private belief. This is precisely the kind of
governmental entanglement in religion forbidden by the first amendment to
the U.S. Constitution.

http://www.americanhumanist.org/press/inglisproclamation.html

The following is a proclamation issued by the town of Inglis and carrying
the town seal and logo.
See our press response to this proclamation.

Be it known from this day forward that Satan, ruler of darkness, giver of
evil, destroyer of what is good and just, is not now, nor ever again will
be, a part of this town of Inglis. Satan is hereby declared powerless, no
longer ruling over, nor influencing, our citizens.

In the past, Satan has caused division, animosity, hate, confusion, ungodly
acts on our youth, and discord among our friends and loved ones. NO LONGER!

The body of Jesus Christ, those citizens cleansed by the Blood of the Lamb,
hereby join together to bind the forces of evil in the Holy Name of Jesus.
We have taken our town back for the Kingdom of God. We are taking everything
back that the devil ever stole from us. We will never again be deceived by
satanic and demonic forces.

As blood-bought children of God, we exercise our authority over the devil in
Jesus' name. By that authority, and through His Blessed Name, we command all
satanic and demonic forces to cease their activities and depart the town of
Inglis.

As the Mayor of Inglis, duly elected by the citizens of this town, and
appointed by God to this position of leadership, I proclaim victory over
Satan, freedom for our citizens, and liberty to worship our Creator and
Heavenly Father, the God of Israel. I take this action in accordance with
the words of our Lord and Savior, Jesus Christ, as recorded in Matthew
28:18-20 and Mark 16:15-18.

Signed and sealed this 5th Day of November, 2001

Carolyn Risher, Mayor
Sally McCranie, Town Clerk

Jeremy and I rented Reseviour Dogs today. We had one of those free rentals for a non-new release movie. I had never seen it before but heard that it was good. I like the movie a lot. Tarrintino knows how to play a movie. My favorite gun down movie though is still Boondock Saints. I recommend it to anyone who doesn't mind a little meltiing pot of guns, fast talk, smarts, wits, and bloodshed.

I'm already dreading school again. I don't want to go back. I fear it. What the word for school phobia? I have that. I was doing fine until portfolio review last month..where my self esteem got pounded on.

Gonna either play some games or hit the hay now.
night.

last night Jeremy and I watched the rest of the Godfather videos.
I had seen the first one a long time ago. I didn't like it back then because I didn't understand what was going on. I understood it this time. I liked the first one a lot. The second and third videos were kind long drawn out intepretations of the godfathers fall.
It kinda cries out "what was this all for"? I cried out "why did i waste my time watching these?" hehe.

last night while we were lying in bed, Jeremy squeezed me very tightly. I was like "what's that for?". He said, I just feel so lucky and happy. I asked him why and he said that the accident could have gone in so many different ways. He was just so glad that I was okay and alive. It's a very nice thing to have someone care whether or not you're alive. :) It means I'm not alone...and that's a good thing.

Okay. I know a lot of you hate surveys and weirdo stuff like that..but I found this one actually interesting. I'm sure it'll make it's way across the system eventually.

from http://selectsmart.com/RELIGION/
1. Secular Humanism (100%)
2. Unitarian Universalism (88%)
3. Theravada Buddhism (83%)
4. Atheists and Agnostics (82%)

well my car has been towed away to some body shop. Its fate is still in the hands of my insurance company. They haven't given us a claim number yet.

Jeremy and I went to the mall yesterday to exchange the two story tool box his parents had given me for christmas. It got damaged in the wreck. They let us replace it so I was very happy. We had some giftcards for the Gap and Bath and Body Works that we decided to use. I got myself another hoody sweater from the Gap. I don't usually like Bath and Body works, so I let Jeremy pick something out and then I grabbed a few nicknacks from the 5 for 10 dollars rack. It wasn't too bad. I got some of that glittery lotion stuff. I think by the later part of the evening, all the glitter was on my clothes and not on my hands. :)

We went to the grocery store afterwards and bought some stuff to make this salad that Jeremy' mother had made. It's delicious.
You go buy a pack of that already diced Italian Salad (with some of those red leafs in it too). You also need Poppy Seed dressing. The brand she recomends is Brianna's. You also need 1 cup of diced almonds. Two slices of diced apples. (you can substitute it for oranges or strawberries too). Hmm....what else? Oh yes. You need about half to one cup of diced parmesean cheese like the kind you put in your ceasar salads. You put it all together and you get a very delicous salad. Try it.
:) mmmlicious.

well.
on my way back to ft. worth yesterday, I got into a pretty bad car wreck.
I exited off the highway into Centerville to get gas.
I stopped at the stop sign. I looked left and then right.
I then proceeded to take a left turn. After I had crossed the first lane I saw a car come over the hill. I tried to increase my speed in order to miss the car. The car swerved to the left and clipped the inside of my car on the left side back wheel.
I have some bruises on my shoulder from the seatbelt and the back of my neck is really sore. The girl in the other car was histerical. She was totally shocked and crying the whole time. Her airbags had come out and it really scared her. I felt so bad. I even appologized to her which you're not supposed to do in these types of accidents.
I just feel so stupid. It's not like I didn't look either! There was a hill to my left that I wasn't able to see over. The tow guy said there was an accident the night before at the same place. However, the people in that wreck were still in the hospital. Some guy got thrown from his car. He said I was lucky. Somehow I still don't feel so lucky.
We had to get the tow truck to tow us all the way to ft. worth. Luckily Jeremy had a triple A card. It cut the bill in half. It cost us 300 dollars to get towed all the way back to his apartment. I'm guessing that means the total would have been somewhere around 500 to 600 dollars. Those tow people were the first ones at the scene of the crime too.
It happened so fast that just about as soon as I got out of the car, a million people were around us. Then it started snowing. :P Life is so wacked up sometimes.
I just hope the girl doesn't sue me. She was pretty mad at me. I don't blame her though.
I'm sure in her mind, I somehow saw her and gunned it. I hate people being pissed at me. Her parents had to drive in from two hours away to pick her up. I'm sure they were cussing me out all the way back home. UGH.
Anyhow, Jeremy took the day off today to help me fix my problems up. We have to call the body shop and get them to come tow it away. A few of my belonging including my computer case were damaged. I have to go see about repairing and replacing a few things.
My cats were okay too. Dessy was scared to death though. Tigger's cage got knocked on its side. I think they're doing fine now. The tow guy was really nice. He stopped on the side of the road to turn our car's heater on. He thought the cats might get cold since everything was icing over. He said he had a cat just like tigger.
I'm going to go call the body shop now.
I think I'll also take some tylenol as well.