yup. if you thought diablo two was addictive.. add the MMORPG aspect to it and what you got is gaming crack cocaine. hehe.
been leveling my night elf druid. ganking some major horde.
doing mmorpgs (massive multi-player online role playing games) is an entire lifestyle change. you seriously forgo everything in "reality" and submerse yourself into the gaming world. i can spend all freaking day long playing online. blizzard did a really good job too with creating an intriguing world to hook you into. FFXI (final fantasy XI) was good but it was way too tedious. world of warcraft takes all the tediousness out.
finally got my eyes checked today. haven't been to the optometrist in like years. my prescription is the same so that's good. i'm getting cool new glasses too. i got hazel colored contacts and clear ones. i love insurance. :)
tomorrow i'm going to the dentist. its been two years. i have a serious phobia of dentist appointments. the hygienist always rips my mouth apart. i'm praying for no cavities. i guess we'll see. i guess the bright side of the dentist appointment is that i get to take off of work for a morning.
work is really kicking my ass. i need to retire as soon as possible.
oh well. time to go design an amphitheater. yeah. :P
Sunday, January 30, 2005
Saturday, January 22, 2005
it's always weird to start these back up when you've been gone for so long. i hate playing catch up, so i won't. i dont' really owe anyone any explanations for my absence except for myself. i let myself get caught up in stupid notions of productivity. eh.. whatever.
yesterday i went out with two of my friends. i had an entire mexican martini shaker by myself. oy. i won't be doing that again for a long time. i was just so completely frustrated from work. i was so angry. i knew i needed some kind of antidote to make all my hatred go away. it worked. my frustration was replaced by a massive headache! i spent most of today staring into space trying to figure out what i want to do with the rest of my life. actually, i spent most of the day trying to figure out if it is even necessary to figure out some sort of life-plan. can't we just simply act and do? if we simply just let life happen, will we end up regretting that we didn't spend more time contemplating our actions and their reactions?
when you grow up the way i did, you have this notion that things have to turn out a certain way. i'm not talking about marriage or kids or any of that superficial bullshit. i'm talking about how you feel about your life and where it's going. i always thought i'd be emotionally stable when i grew up. that the more time passed..the more i'd be in control of my state of mind. how wrong i was. i've never been more lost.
you are only young once. only 250 million people out of 6+ billion get to be born an american. shouldn't i be taking advantage of my youth and position in this world? why am i moving through life like there's something better waiting for me tomorrow? Is it true that you have to be miserable today in order to be happy tomorrow?
i've been sick lately. i haven't been able to breathe completely. it's like i'm slowly suffocating. it seems appropriate for my state of mind. drowning....
yesterday i went out with two of my friends. i had an entire mexican martini shaker by myself. oy. i won't be doing that again for a long time. i was just so completely frustrated from work. i was so angry. i knew i needed some kind of antidote to make all my hatred go away. it worked. my frustration was replaced by a massive headache! i spent most of today staring into space trying to figure out what i want to do with the rest of my life. actually, i spent most of the day trying to figure out if it is even necessary to figure out some sort of life-plan. can't we just simply act and do? if we simply just let life happen, will we end up regretting that we didn't spend more time contemplating our actions and their reactions?
when you grow up the way i did, you have this notion that things have to turn out a certain way. i'm not talking about marriage or kids or any of that superficial bullshit. i'm talking about how you feel about your life and where it's going. i always thought i'd be emotionally stable when i grew up. that the more time passed..the more i'd be in control of my state of mind. how wrong i was. i've never been more lost.
you are only young once. only 250 million people out of 6+ billion get to be born an american. shouldn't i be taking advantage of my youth and position in this world? why am i moving through life like there's something better waiting for me tomorrow? Is it true that you have to be miserable today in order to be happy tomorrow?
i've been sick lately. i haven't been able to breathe completely. it's like i'm slowly suffocating. it seems appropriate for my state of mind. drowning....
Friday, November 12, 2004
nothing sweet
nothing sweet is the last we spoke
the last time i heard your voice
and no one knows how close we were
to making mistakes and living for a change
but now it's gone and time has changed
nothing sweet will ever come of us again...
the last time i heard your voice
and no one knows how close we were
to making mistakes and living for a change
but now it's gone and time has changed
nothing sweet will ever come of us again...
Sunday, August 22, 2004
Saturday, August 21, 2004
cat killer
i had some pretty messed up dreams last night. i actually slept twice. Thursday night, i got to sleep around 3am. and woke up around 6:30am. so needless to say, i was busted from work when i got home yesterday evening and tried to take a nap for thirty minutes. i was supposed to wake up around 7:30pm to go eat with a friend but ended up crashing until 1:30am.
oops. i stood up my friend and missed a ton of calls. i didn't want to mess up my schedule so i decided to go light on energy food. i ate some light popcorn and a banana. i watched 50 first dates again. i don't know why i like that movie so much. i guess it's the ultimate typical girl movie because it's about a boy who pines for a girl every day of his life. girl wanting to be wanted and sought after daily = every little girl's dream. i don't know why they let us watch disney when we're young.
anyhow, i just thought it was really cute the first time i saw it and wasn't expecting much from an adam sandler movie..so it was a nice surprise.
i started watching romeo and juliet to try and fall asleep and ended up shutting the movie off and going to sleep when mercusio and tibbult were about to have a throw down. i love the visual artistry of that movie but still complain about their persistence with the original shakesperean language. shakespeare was a writer and an entertainer... of his time. i still stand my ground when i say that the language should be of the time... it's controversial i know..but i get lost sometimes in the translation even though i studied the play up and down my freshmen year of high school. if his tongue hadn't been so poetic and witty, i think we'd understand it easier.
well, about one of my dreams..because it's the one i just had and remember it most vivid.
there's this one scene where i'm driving to and 's apartment and i'm in this huge van. just a note, this scene was following a fucked up one where i was kicking ass playing baseball..and something about a lost woman.. so there is no logic to any of it. i was going to deliver something to them but i don't know what. jeremy and qtpi were with me. as i was pulling into the parking lot i could see the silhouette of in the window.. maybe she was expecting me. i'm not sure. but as i started to look back down, i ran over a small kitty. i freaked out and jumped out of the car with it still running. i scooped up the kitty and it seemed okay but it's legs were really tiny. it meowed and shook it's butt. the interesting thing i remember was what the kitten looked like. it was really chunky but super small, the size of my hand. it had curly blue hair like a clown's head. it had orange and white colored hair. i went up to their apartment to knock on their door. answered it and i could see scowling in the background. she took the kitty away from me and slammed the door. my thoughts were, "i guess it was their cat".. i walked back to the van and looked back up to the window. i saw a pair of eyes peer out from the blinds. then i drove off.
messed up. in one night, i was a baseball player, a girl living in a closet, a runaway, and a cat runner-over.
oops. i stood up my friend and missed a ton of calls. i didn't want to mess up my schedule so i decided to go light on energy food. i ate some light popcorn and a banana. i watched 50 first dates again. i don't know why i like that movie so much. i guess it's the ultimate typical girl movie because it's about a boy who pines for a girl every day of his life. girl wanting to be wanted and sought after daily = every little girl's dream. i don't know why they let us watch disney when we're young.
anyhow, i just thought it was really cute the first time i saw it and wasn't expecting much from an adam sandler movie..so it was a nice surprise.
i started watching romeo and juliet to try and fall asleep and ended up shutting the movie off and going to sleep when mercusio and tibbult were about to have a throw down. i love the visual artistry of that movie but still complain about their persistence with the original shakesperean language. shakespeare was a writer and an entertainer... of his time. i still stand my ground when i say that the language should be of the time... it's controversial i know..but i get lost sometimes in the translation even though i studied the play up and down my freshmen year of high school. if his tongue hadn't been so poetic and witty, i think we'd understand it easier.
well, about one of my dreams..because it's the one i just had and remember it most vivid.
there's this one scene where i'm driving to
messed up. in one night, i was a baseball player, a girl living in a closet, a runaway, and a cat runner-over.
Thursday, August 19, 2004
Monday, August 16, 2004
the bee gees
i'm sitting here listening to the bee gee's greatest hits. how deep is your love is on.
i am a sucker for 70's love songs. it's just so Sunday morning.
i think i had a lot of good memories when i was young with my dad's music playing in the background. maybe that's why i'm attached to these songs so much. one of my favorite memories is of me and my dad watching the dallas cowboys on tv while eating a whole bag of jalapeno chips. we'd sit in the same recliner chair or on the floor. we'd drink pepsi as i recall. at one point, the carpet bordered on shag..but then the house flooded and we got nicer carpet.
it's weird. i don't have many memories of spending a lot of time with my mom when i was young but she was definitely always there. she did the grunt work i think. taking me to ballet practice, picking me up from day care, cooking dinner, dragging me to and out of bed....
i think i bonded more with my mom after i passed my teenage years. i mostly remember her doing things for me. making me crafts like bows and baskets. she once made all my friends decorated hollow chocolate eggs for easter. she always went out of her way to do things for me.
it's interesting now thinking about my parents and their two different approaches to bonding.
i don't prefer one to the other really. i guess i'm just thankful that i go them both.
i am a sucker for 70's love songs. it's just so Sunday morning.
i think i had a lot of good memories when i was young with my dad's music playing in the background. maybe that's why i'm attached to these songs so much. one of my favorite memories is of me and my dad watching the dallas cowboys on tv while eating a whole bag of jalapeno chips. we'd sit in the same recliner chair or on the floor. we'd drink pepsi as i recall. at one point, the carpet bordered on shag..but then the house flooded and we got nicer carpet.
it's weird. i don't have many memories of spending a lot of time with my mom when i was young but she was definitely always there. she did the grunt work i think. taking me to ballet practice, picking me up from day care, cooking dinner, dragging me to and out of bed....
i think i bonded more with my mom after i passed my teenage years. i mostly remember her doing things for me. making me crafts like bows and baskets. she once made all my friends decorated hollow chocolate eggs for easter. she always went out of her way to do things for me.
it's interesting now thinking about my parents and their two different approaches to bonding.
i don't prefer one to the other really. i guess i'm just thankful that i go them both.
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