a friend of mine from dallas came into town this week for the sxsw festival. i think he got in around thursday night but i didn't see him till like saturday afternoon. my work schedule is getting crazier as deadline approaches.
we went out to magnolia cafe and had lunch. i got two breakfast tacos and a shortstck of whole wheat pancakes. yes, they tasted like cardboard. sometimes the wheat thing is actually good but not in this case. kevin got an omlet and a shortstack of gingerbread pancakes. everytime he blows into town, he says he HAS to get those gingerbread pancakes.
after lunch, we stopped over at his friend's store, a local sex novelty shop on first street. while he chatted with his friend, i perused the goods. there was this entire wall full of dildos. standard stuff. but then i started looking at the butt plugs. it then occured to me that i didn't know what the hell those things were for. it wasn't until later when i asked kevin that i learned what their purpose was. i mean, i've heard of them before but until i saw one, i didn't realize their exact use. there was a sex swing which looked pretty intimidating, a bunch of whips, and a few corny things like candy shaped like boobs and sperm. morgan, who owns the store (sin sations) invited me to their one year anniversary party. she said their would be lots of good beer and jello wresting. hahaha. don't know if i'll be attending that shindig.
i watched a bunch of NCAA games that afternoon and evening when we got back. my bracket went to shit! wake forest went to double over time only to lose out to west virginia in a succession of terrible mistakes.
after that horrible game, kevin and i went downtown to go dancing. we stopped at sky lounge first but it was entirely dead. then we went to the light bar. that place was very cool for a bar but again, there was no dancing. we were on our way to check out boy cellar and saw a bunch a people waiting in line to get into this new club called VICCI. it was packed! i give it two months though. austin's dance scene is terrible. but last night, the place was wild. there were go-go dancers in suspended cages totally shakin' it. the dj was crazy. it was the worst mix of songs ever. he even played def leopard. i thought i was gonna puke. but most of it was dance worthy and so i shook it till around 3 in the morning.
kevin left this afternoon. i'm doing laundry and thinking about making a run to the grocery store. i need to vacuum the house. we got the new filterless dyson vacuum. our other one broke. the dyson is SO expensive. i couldn't believe it. we got the new dyson for pet owners. cost like 540 dollars. luckily, jeremy has cashback bonus awards from discovercard. we doubled his cashback awards by getting certificates to sharper image. so we paid half off for the vacuum. quite a good deal. anyhow, that thing is awesome!! makes vacuuming totally fun.
in other news.
i really want to redesign my website. convert it all to css. play WoW or recreate my website? hmmm..
off to the grocery store..
Sunday, March 20, 2005
Tuesday, March 8, 2005
you can call me cannibal
yesterday was amazingly fucked up.
all started when i got in the car and noticed the red sweater i wore last Friday shed all over my seat belt. i was covered in red fuzz.
got to work and had a really long and boring meeting with the bosses about some design changes in the project i'm working on.
they left to get ready for their flight out to kansas (no bosses for a day a half. yeah).
i went to go pick up a smoothie for myself and trish at the office. got the smoothies, one large strawberry banana for me and one large blueberry banana for her. was on the way back to the office when some guy cut in front of a another car and we all had to break really hard. my strawberry banana smoothie goes flying to the floor and the entire contents empties out.
i get back to the office, cussing the whole way of course, and run to the bathroom to grab some towels. i start cleaning up the mess but all i can see is like a lake of pepto bismol shit everywhere. i pick up the cup and put it in the cup holder, pink ooze still dripping everywhere. i lean down to pick up more paper towels full of smoothie and my hair dunks straight into the cup i just picked up. so now i have smoothie all in my hair. i cuss some more.
after i get as much as i can out, i realize that the situation is pretty bad and that something has to be done or else my car will start to really stink.
i give trish her smoothie and tell her i'm heading out to genie car wash to get this stuff shampooed out. she reminds me to get my gums checked out today because of what i told her earlier.
what i told her earlier: (don't read if you get grossed out easily) sometime last Friday, i noticed that not all of the tissue graph was sticking and that a lot of the sutures were coming loose. fastforward to Saturday evening. i'm eating some healthy choice canned gumbo stuff and notice my surgery area feels weird. i get up and go to the mirror to check it out. i ate myself. i ate the remaining tissue graph somehow. yummy.
so i was concerned that my graph wasn't successful so i called and made an appointment with the periodontist Monday after trish insisted i have it checked out right away.
i got the front of my car shampooed and all cleaned up. and sometime during the whole clean up mess, one of the decorative flaps on my pants broke. the button fell off. i went home and changed into jeans and logged into WoW for 30 minutes. long enough to turn in a quest.
i then went to best buy and bought myself the new tori amos to make myself feel better.
when i got to the periodontist, he told me that it's natural for a part of the graph to sludge off because the blood can't reach the tops of it. (things that would have been good to know prior). he said i have a new healthy layer of gum tissue and that i should start molding it over my teeth with my fingers. gross. i'll use my tongue.
got back to the office and half the office left. a few of the girls and i decided to call it an early day and went to z-tejas for drinks (i drank a diet soda. it was a good as alcohol to me).
got home. played wow. went to bed.
all started when i got in the car and noticed the red sweater i wore last Friday shed all over my seat belt. i was covered in red fuzz.
got to work and had a really long and boring meeting with the bosses about some design changes in the project i'm working on.
they left to get ready for their flight out to kansas (no bosses for a day a half. yeah).
i went to go pick up a smoothie for myself and trish at the office. got the smoothies, one large strawberry banana for me and one large blueberry banana for her. was on the way back to the office when some guy cut in front of a another car and we all had to break really hard. my strawberry banana smoothie goes flying to the floor and the entire contents empties out.
i get back to the office, cussing the whole way of course, and run to the bathroom to grab some towels. i start cleaning up the mess but all i can see is like a lake of pepto bismol shit everywhere. i pick up the cup and put it in the cup holder, pink ooze still dripping everywhere. i lean down to pick up more paper towels full of smoothie and my hair dunks straight into the cup i just picked up. so now i have smoothie all in my hair. i cuss some more.
after i get as much as i can out, i realize that the situation is pretty bad and that something has to be done or else my car will start to really stink.
i give trish her smoothie and tell her i'm heading out to genie car wash to get this stuff shampooed out. she reminds me to get my gums checked out today because of what i told her earlier.
what i told her earlier: (don't read if you get grossed out easily) sometime last Friday, i noticed that not all of the tissue graph was sticking and that a lot of the sutures were coming loose. fastforward to Saturday evening. i'm eating some healthy choice canned gumbo stuff and notice my surgery area feels weird. i get up and go to the mirror to check it out. i ate myself. i ate the remaining tissue graph somehow. yummy.
so i was concerned that my graph wasn't successful so i called and made an appointment with the periodontist Monday after trish insisted i have it checked out right away.
i got the front of my car shampooed and all cleaned up. and sometime during the whole clean up mess, one of the decorative flaps on my pants broke. the button fell off. i went home and changed into jeans and logged into WoW for 30 minutes. long enough to turn in a quest.
i then went to best buy and bought myself the new tori amos to make myself feel better.
when i got to the periodontist, he told me that it's natural for a part of the graph to sludge off because the blood can't reach the tops of it. (things that would have been good to know prior). he said i have a new healthy layer of gum tissue and that i should start molding it over my teeth with my fingers. gross. i'll use my tongue.
got back to the office and half the office left. a few of the girls and i decided to call it an early day and went to z-tejas for drinks (i drank a diet soda. it was a good as alcohol to me).
got home. played wow. went to bed.
Sunday, March 6, 2005
this is my mouth
i had oral surgery last week. gum graph.
apparently your gums are more important than your teeth.
they had to take part of my gum tissue from the top of my mouth
and graph it onto the inner bottom part of my teeth. i'm going for a checkup
next week to see if the graph was successful.
i have been drinking lots of smoothies. can't eat food i have to bite into.
sucks. i've never been so hungry.
dentists and periodontists freak me out. i hate sharp objects in my mouth.
it's a phobia for me.
didn't do too much today. j and i went grocery shopping. now we're playing WoW.
up to level 55 now. 5 more till max level. i'm a crack addict.
i want to go out and buy the new tori amos. i heard reviews about it. they weren't very positive but then i heard sleeps with butterflies. even though it's a far more pacid sound than her earlier works. it's very lounge/elevator music-like. and i love elevator music so i'm gonna check it out.
apparently your gums are more important than your teeth.
they had to take part of my gum tissue from the top of my mouth
and graph it onto the inner bottom part of my teeth. i'm going for a checkup
next week to see if the graph was successful.
i have been drinking lots of smoothies. can't eat food i have to bite into.
sucks. i've never been so hungry.
dentists and periodontists freak me out. i hate sharp objects in my mouth.
it's a phobia for me.
didn't do too much today. j and i went grocery shopping. now we're playing WoW.
up to level 55 now. 5 more till max level. i'm a crack addict.
i want to go out and buy the new tori amos. i heard reviews about it. they weren't very positive but then i heard sleeps with butterflies. even though it's a far more pacid sound than her earlier works. it's very lounge/elevator music-like. and i love elevator music so i'm gonna check it out.
i feel that you are out there but you're in a dimension i just can't reach you. you're gone. and it's hard now because i don't like living in a world that you're not in. i always knew you would never be my partner. that fit just wasn't right. but i have always known that you were my soul mate. i will always be alone because you are gone. reality is such a hard pill to swallow. i want to cry but i won't. i want to die but i don't. i want to wake up and not hate the person that i am, but i am simply me every morning.
i am so undone.
we do these things and we act the way we do when we are young because we think there are going to be so many other people in our lives who affect us in the same way. but it's not like that at all. in fact, the older you get, the less people seem real. the less you can relate to them. they come to you tainted and self-focused. it's almost impossible to connect because we grow so disconnected. we lose trust and hope.
and that's why it's possible to destroy your only true confidant when you're young. you just don't know better.
life is bitter as time passes. this, of course, is coming from a born pessimist. i can't help myself. there are very few things anymore that make living worth the while. i am just buying time...etc.
but this will pass i'm sure. tomorrow is always a new distraction...
i am so undone.
we do these things and we act the way we do when we are young because we think there are going to be so many other people in our lives who affect us in the same way. but it's not like that at all. in fact, the older you get, the less people seem real. the less you can relate to them. they come to you tainted and self-focused. it's almost impossible to connect because we grow so disconnected. we lose trust and hope.
and that's why it's possible to destroy your only true confidant when you're young. you just don't know better.
life is bitter as time passes. this, of course, is coming from a born pessimist. i can't help myself. there are very few things anymore that make living worth the while. i am just buying time...etc.
but this will pass i'm sure. tomorrow is always a new distraction...
Thursday, February 10, 2005
life tends to be so bizzaro sometimes. i guess that's just how it is when you have principles but you don't stand up to them. i know many people aren't familiar with the development world. you can compare developers to walmart. the theory is nice but the result is massive cultural annihilation. money above all. anyhow. my tiny firm is on the fringe of mutating into something hideously corporate. and i'm the co-pilot. it's my job. it's one of those things that you just go through the motions of but your mind is screaming the entire way. oh well. not like i had any solid moral or principles anyhow. in my mind, the world is such a horrible fucked up place that we can't possibly be heading in the forward and up direction anytime soon.
our city council presentation of our proposal was today. it was exciting because my drawings were being broadcasted locally through the internet and tv. my inner-15 minutes of fame. hehe. but at the same time, we may have actually gotten the job. let me restate. we may have helped our developer client land the city lot to build a massive 15.1 million dollar mixed use building. yes, it sounds nice. but that's in theory. the deal with developers is that it's all about the money. ALL about the money. and when people are all about the money, it's like going into a meeting and sitting next to nothing but rats and snakes. it makes my skin crawl.
our next meeting with the city council is next week. and although half of me wishes we don't get picked to develop the lots in question, a part of me hopes to crush the rest of the competition. damn. maybe i'm a snake too.
like i said. nothing in this world is concrete. my principles are useless. as proven by my actions.
in other news. i might be homicidal.
....
our city council presentation of our proposal was today. it was exciting because my drawings were being broadcasted locally through the internet and tv. my inner-15 minutes of fame. hehe. but at the same time, we may have actually gotten the job. let me restate. we may have helped our developer client land the city lot to build a massive 15.1 million dollar mixed use building. yes, it sounds nice. but that's in theory. the deal with developers is that it's all about the money. ALL about the money. and when people are all about the money, it's like going into a meeting and sitting next to nothing but rats and snakes. it makes my skin crawl.
our next meeting with the city council is next week. and although half of me wishes we don't get picked to develop the lots in question, a part of me hopes to crush the rest of the competition. damn. maybe i'm a snake too.
like i said. nothing in this world is concrete. my principles are useless. as proven by my actions.
in other news. i might be homicidal.
....
Sunday, January 30, 2005
wow - world of warcraft
yup. if you thought diablo two was addictive.. add the MMORPG aspect to it and what you got is gaming crack cocaine. hehe.
been leveling my night elf druid. ganking some major horde.
doing mmorpgs (massive multi-player online role playing games) is an entire lifestyle change. you seriously forgo everything in "reality" and submerse yourself into the gaming world. i can spend all freaking day long playing online. blizzard did a really good job too with creating an intriguing world to hook you into. FFXI (final fantasy XI) was good but it was way too tedious. world of warcraft takes all the tediousness out.
finally got my eyes checked today. haven't been to the optometrist in like years. my prescription is the same so that's good. i'm getting cool new glasses too. i got hazel colored contacts and clear ones. i love insurance. :)
tomorrow i'm going to the dentist. its been two years. i have a serious phobia of dentist appointments. the hygienist always rips my mouth apart. i'm praying for no cavities. i guess we'll see. i guess the bright side of the dentist appointment is that i get to take off of work for a morning.
work is really kicking my ass. i need to retire as soon as possible.
oh well. time to go design an amphitheater. yeah. :P
been leveling my night elf druid. ganking some major horde.
doing mmorpgs (massive multi-player online role playing games) is an entire lifestyle change. you seriously forgo everything in "reality" and submerse yourself into the gaming world. i can spend all freaking day long playing online. blizzard did a really good job too with creating an intriguing world to hook you into. FFXI (final fantasy XI) was good but it was way too tedious. world of warcraft takes all the tediousness out.
finally got my eyes checked today. haven't been to the optometrist in like years. my prescription is the same so that's good. i'm getting cool new glasses too. i got hazel colored contacts and clear ones. i love insurance. :)
tomorrow i'm going to the dentist. its been two years. i have a serious phobia of dentist appointments. the hygienist always rips my mouth apart. i'm praying for no cavities. i guess we'll see. i guess the bright side of the dentist appointment is that i get to take off of work for a morning.
work is really kicking my ass. i need to retire as soon as possible.
oh well. time to go design an amphitheater. yeah. :P
Saturday, January 22, 2005
it's always weird to start these back up when you've been gone for so long. i hate playing catch up, so i won't. i dont' really owe anyone any explanations for my absence except for myself. i let myself get caught up in stupid notions of productivity. eh.. whatever.
yesterday i went out with two of my friends. i had an entire mexican martini shaker by myself. oy. i won't be doing that again for a long time. i was just so completely frustrated from work. i was so angry. i knew i needed some kind of antidote to make all my hatred go away. it worked. my frustration was replaced by a massive headache! i spent most of today staring into space trying to figure out what i want to do with the rest of my life. actually, i spent most of the day trying to figure out if it is even necessary to figure out some sort of life-plan. can't we just simply act and do? if we simply just let life happen, will we end up regretting that we didn't spend more time contemplating our actions and their reactions?
when you grow up the way i did, you have this notion that things have to turn out a certain way. i'm not talking about marriage or kids or any of that superficial bullshit. i'm talking about how you feel about your life and where it's going. i always thought i'd be emotionally stable when i grew up. that the more time passed..the more i'd be in control of my state of mind. how wrong i was. i've never been more lost.
you are only young once. only 250 million people out of 6+ billion get to be born an american. shouldn't i be taking advantage of my youth and position in this world? why am i moving through life like there's something better waiting for me tomorrow? Is it true that you have to be miserable today in order to be happy tomorrow?
i've been sick lately. i haven't been able to breathe completely. it's like i'm slowly suffocating. it seems appropriate for my state of mind. drowning....
yesterday i went out with two of my friends. i had an entire mexican martini shaker by myself. oy. i won't be doing that again for a long time. i was just so completely frustrated from work. i was so angry. i knew i needed some kind of antidote to make all my hatred go away. it worked. my frustration was replaced by a massive headache! i spent most of today staring into space trying to figure out what i want to do with the rest of my life. actually, i spent most of the day trying to figure out if it is even necessary to figure out some sort of life-plan. can't we just simply act and do? if we simply just let life happen, will we end up regretting that we didn't spend more time contemplating our actions and their reactions?
when you grow up the way i did, you have this notion that things have to turn out a certain way. i'm not talking about marriage or kids or any of that superficial bullshit. i'm talking about how you feel about your life and where it's going. i always thought i'd be emotionally stable when i grew up. that the more time passed..the more i'd be in control of my state of mind. how wrong i was. i've never been more lost.
you are only young once. only 250 million people out of 6+ billion get to be born an american. shouldn't i be taking advantage of my youth and position in this world? why am i moving through life like there's something better waiting for me tomorrow? Is it true that you have to be miserable today in order to be happy tomorrow?
i've been sick lately. i haven't been able to breathe completely. it's like i'm slowly suffocating. it seems appropriate for my state of mind. drowning....
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