about how she wants him to go down on her

ruple: back
*** Auto-response sent to ruple: i'm online, just set to"away" for various reasons.
if i don't reply to your message then you're prolly one of those various reasons. heh.
alachia: like my message?
ruple: you were wrong about that avril lavigne song
ruple: your favorite one
alachia: what does she say?
ruple: about how she wants him to go down on her
ruple: she is actually saying she wants to see him go down on one knee
alachia: ah man. that sucks.
ruple: hehehe
alachia: that song sucks
ruple: i knew you would say that

shoes

yesterday i went shoe shopping. i need to find shoes to go with the dress i bought. i'm running out of time. i think it's pretty pathetic that i don't own decent clothing for special occasions. i ended up getting a pair of tall boots from famous footwear but after trying them on again at home, i've decided to return them. they just didn't go with the outfit. i'm trying to get my brother to go with me tomorrow to help me pick something that will match.

tigger and dessy are upstairs with me. they are both lounging on the bed keeping me company while i do school work. tigger seems really cold now. he got curled up into a ball after i took the picture so i put a blanket over him. my little roly poly.

u can see our optical tree on the nightstand. oh xmas tree. oh xmas tree.

hmmm..funny that i mention my shoe dilemma. i'm creating shoes in my 3d model right now for the display cases. heh.

i think marriage as lost its necessity and value

"Wolfgang Puck in divorce
LOS ANGELES, California (AP) -- Restaurateur and designer Barbara Lazaroff has filed for divorce from Wolfgang Puck after 19 years of marriage to the celebrity chef.

Lazaroff filed a petition for dissolution of marriage based on "irreconcilable differences," said her lawyer, Harold Stanton. The divorce was filed in Superior Court on November 27. "

i read stuff like this every day. in fact, i just heard of a break up of a seven year relationship earlier this week. i'm so distraught by this phenomenon of "irreconcilable differences." what is this? what's the point of getting married? was the 7, 10, 19, or even 25 years good enough. is it okay that marriages are just a temporary partnership? that's how it is appearing to me.

how about instead of getting married, people just sign 5-15 year contracts with each other that is up for negotiations 6 months prior to the end of the contract. i guess i just don't get the big deal about marriage anymore when divorce is just as common and multiple marriages are the norm. in leu of these sorts of facts, why the hell am i being pressured to get married?

the simple things in life are overrated

it must be nice being complacent with simple living. no drama. no worries. no unobtainable aspirations. sometimes i scoff at people who are emotionally shallow but really, i wonder who should be scoffed at. i shall never truly be at a point in my life where i can just be content or happy. moments of happiness are always brief and short lived. to me, there's no real point to anything except sustaining some sort of existence. hell, even if i believed in an ever after i'd prolly be dissapointed in that too. nothing is ever going to be good enough. nothing is ever going to be worth this living.

the cocktail dress

i just got back from shopping. let me say that shopping in austin is so much more draining than shopping in b-town. i guess that's like the difference between 900,000 people though.

i had to go buy a dress for jeremy's company's christmas party. the attire is for women to wear a nice elegant cocktail dress. at first, i got jeremy to let me wear a pant suit instead but then i thought i didn't want us to be too alienated. i don't have any real dresses so i had to go buy one. i tried to find shoes but i'm not used to buying expensive footwear so i was too uncomfortable having someone help me put shoes on my feet. i just gave up on the shoe thing. i'll go get something from payless or something. it's only for one night anyhow. i thought about keeping the tag on the dress so i could return it.

on the way home, i stopped by walgreens and bought some christmas things. i got some candy canes for the light tree and some red and green m&ms for the candy jar. i also got some wrapping ribbons. i contemplated on getting some cheap xmas cards but i think i might print my own out this year. we'll see.

jeremy called while i was on my way back and told me he was going to be really late coming home.. like 9-10pm. i want to wait for him to eat dinner so i'm snacking on chips and salsa right now. i'm starving.

deck the halls

i'm washing all of our new sheets right now. the bed set needs to be washed twice because it's still pretty stiff. i prolly should have spent the extra money and bought the extra thread count. ah well. i know now.

we put up christmas deocrations in the condo last night. jeremy bought christmas decorations before we left b-town yesterday. we got a light tree, star lights, and 200 white string lights. sometimes, it's totally fun knowing people can still suprise you. we put them up in the living room last night while listening to the few xmas cds i swiped from home. hehe. we also put up our optical christmas tree in the bedroom. i'd say we're ready for a christmas party.

oh yeah, jerms also got me reigndeer horns and those kissing bear things. i'd say we're pretty much in the season now. i'm trying to think of stuff i can make that's xmas-like. what kind of food says christmas? cakes? cookies?

turkey dinner

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you better believe it was some freaking good food!