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Tuesday, December 31, 2002
friendships, kabobs, and high school
i'm afraid of living sometimes. i'm afraid of people and afraid of initiating hope where there might not be any. i'm very hesitant these days to engage in meaningful friendships because i'm afraid failing once again. there's something about me that's easy to fall from. maybe it's my hatred, pessimism, or depressive nature. we're all dying, so what's the point of living. few people in this world, make my life worth the living. i wonder what happens when they all fade away....
the kabobs are looking good. they have marinated all night long. i've got the dining table ready and set out some more cookies. i'm going to pick up a cookie cake this afternoon. when jeremy gets here, we're going to pull out the barbecue grill and make the vegetable trays.
i had a weird dream about high school last night. i had that same feeling of not belonging that plagued me throughout my high school career...of longing to belong. why do we feel the need to be connected? is it genetic or social?
the kabobs are looking good. they have marinated all night long. i've got the dining table ready and set out some more cookies. i'm going to pick up a cookie cake this afternoon. when jeremy gets here, we're going to pull out the barbecue grill and make the vegetable trays.
i had a weird dream about high school last night. i had that same feeling of not belonging that plagued me throughout my high school career...of longing to belong. why do we feel the need to be connected? is it genetic or social?
three blind mice
jeremy's grandmother got admitted into the hospital last night after she started feeling dizzy. they think it might be a blood clot or a bad reaction to medication she is taking. the had to do all sorts of tests on her including a cat scan. jeremy and i visited her in the afternoon while she was still waiting to do more tests. i think she's going to be okay and hopefully she can leave the hospital by tomorrow.
we did a lot of errand running today. we're preparing for my birthday party tomorrow. i always celebrate my birthday on new year's eve so we can pop firecrackers. this year, we might not get to do fireworks because of the massive amount of rain we've been having tonight. my hope is that it dries out by tomorrow and the rain stops for good.
our menu for tomorrow night consists of kabobs made of onions, mushrooms, pineapple, bell peppers, and BEEF. we're having chips and salsa, dill pickles, vegetable tray, and lots of cake to go with it. i'm getting two types of cake. my friend hani, gave me an icecream cake this evening and i'm ordering a cookie cake tomorrow afternoon. i wanted to get both kinds for people who like them both. :D like me. i think they'll compliment each other. my mouth is already watering.
speaking of food, jeremy's sister made these chocolate mice out of hershey kisses and a chocolate covered cherry for christmas. i thought they were too cute to eat.
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we did a lot of errand running today. we're preparing for my birthday party tomorrow. i always celebrate my birthday on new year's eve so we can pop firecrackers. this year, we might not get to do fireworks because of the massive amount of rain we've been having tonight. my hope is that it dries out by tomorrow and the rain stops for good.
our menu for tomorrow night consists of kabobs made of onions, mushrooms, pineapple, bell peppers, and BEEF. we're having chips and salsa, dill pickles, vegetable tray, and lots of cake to go with it. i'm getting two types of cake. my friend hani, gave me an icecream cake this evening and i'm ordering a cookie cake tomorrow afternoon. i wanted to get both kinds for people who like them both. :D like me. i think they'll compliment each other. my mouth is already watering.
speaking of food, jeremy's sister made these chocolate mice out of hershey kisses and a chocolate covered cherry for christmas. i thought they were too cute to eat.
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Sunday, December 29, 2002
games, driving, photos, and a birthday
my father is working at my computer setup trying to get my mother's new computer ready for use. i haven't been able to use my computer for two days now.
thus, no site updates...
two nights ago, Eric, Hani, Jeremy, and I went to Walmart to find some games to play. we ended up buying Moods and Battle of the Sexes. Instead of plyaing the games that night though, we ended up driving around b-town. hani drove us to crocket street which about 1/10th of what 6th street is to Austin. we just walked around and looked at the clubs, bars, and people. it was short walk. :D
we then drove around the downtown area along the port of beaumont and looked at great big vessels and oil refinaries which beaumont is known for. we got lost somewhat in the bad neighborhoods...or at least that's what everyone calls them since a lot crime happens there. a lot of people in the car were making fun of the broken down houses and close location to the pollution of the refinaries. yet, as i looked at the houses, i noticed signs of humanity eveywhere. there were little flower pots and trees on the porch. on the front door, many people had beautiful welcome wreaths. and, so many people had christmas lights decorating their houses. i was thinking that maybe these people aren't so poor really, at least not at heart.
yesterday, jeremy and i took his mother out to eat at Johnny Corrinos which is another Italian chain resaurant. actually, she paid for it but we kept her company. :D after we ate, we went back to their house and she and I went through old pictures of the family so i could pick out which ones i wanted scanned. jeremy isn't one for nostalgia so he doesn't have any pictures of his family with him. we found this old picture of his mother taken for her first marriage and it was so beautiful. it looked like something out of a fairy tale...which goes to show how deceptive pictures are. they eneded up getting their marriage annulled not long after they were married. the photo was done in brown tone and it is stunning. she has beautiful eyes which jeremy has also.
later that night, while jeremy, john, my dad, and i were talking about the future of technology, i turned 25. it popped on my dad's calender software and he was like "op! happy birthday!" hehe. so yes. i'm now a quarter of a century old.
i'm planning on going shopping today. i need to return a hoodie i got and look for some shoes. i think i might stop by Maggie Moo's Ice cream today and treat myself to some ice cream.
thus, no site updates...
two nights ago, Eric, Hani, Jeremy, and I went to Walmart to find some games to play. we ended up buying Moods and Battle of the Sexes. Instead of plyaing the games that night though, we ended up driving around b-town. hani drove us to crocket street which about 1/10th of what 6th street is to Austin. we just walked around and looked at the clubs, bars, and people. it was short walk. :D
we then drove around the downtown area along the port of beaumont and looked at great big vessels and oil refinaries which beaumont is known for. we got lost somewhat in the bad neighborhoods...or at least that's what everyone calls them since a lot crime happens there. a lot of people in the car were making fun of the broken down houses and close location to the pollution of the refinaries. yet, as i looked at the houses, i noticed signs of humanity eveywhere. there were little flower pots and trees on the porch. on the front door, many people had beautiful welcome wreaths. and, so many people had christmas lights decorating their houses. i was thinking that maybe these people aren't so poor really, at least not at heart.
yesterday, jeremy and i took his mother out to eat at Johnny Corrinos which is another Italian chain resaurant. actually, she paid for it but we kept her company. :D after we ate, we went back to their house and she and I went through old pictures of the family so i could pick out which ones i wanted scanned. jeremy isn't one for nostalgia so he doesn't have any pictures of his family with him. we found this old picture of his mother taken for her first marriage and it was so beautiful. it looked like something out of a fairy tale...which goes to show how deceptive pictures are. they eneded up getting their marriage annulled not long after they were married. the photo was done in brown tone and it is stunning. she has beautiful eyes which jeremy has also.
later that night, while jeremy, john, my dad, and i were talking about the future of technology, i turned 25. it popped on my dad's calender software and he was like "op! happy birthday!" hehe. so yes. i'm now a quarter of a century old.
i'm planning on going shopping today. i need to return a hoodie i got and look for some shoes. i think i might stop by Maggie Moo's Ice cream today and treat myself to some ice cream.
Friday, December 27, 2002
gum disease, suits, and leftovers
the day after christmas was quite as eventful but far more painful than christmas. i had to get up at 8am for a dentist appointment.
i got this hygenist named sharon who practically cut my mouth to pieces. i was squirming in the chair trying not to cry because i had passed my
threshold of pain. the dentist ans hygenist were like "it's not good when your mouth bleeds like this. it means you have gum disease." and i'm like, "what do you expect to happen when you stab my mouth with razor 2000 times!" well, i kept that to myself but i was in so much pain. my gums still ache. the funny thing is that i floss more than anyone i know but i have the worst gum bleeding. even my brother's mouth wasn't that bad according to the dentist.
jerms and i went over to his parents house after that and had some homecooked breakfast. i had strawberry crepes and sausage. it was good. it was also the first time i had breakfast in months.
around 10am we set up to go shopping with my friend jennifer for clothes and shoes. i ended up getting 3 pairs of jeans so now i don't have to wear the same one over and over again. i wanted to get some brown boots but nothing i tried on was perfect. i've learned my lesson about shoes. if they don't feel comfortable on the first fit, don't buy them. you're not supposed to break in shoes with your feet. we dropped jennifer off at 1:30pm so she could go see the two towers with her family. we then headed back to my house to fix us some leftovers from christmas dinner.
we watched a dvd and kind of napped until it was time for jeremy to go. he had to have dinner with his folks since his parents were cooking his favorite dish..chicken fried deer. i wanted to eat with my parents, so i stayed behind and called up our friend Hani. He, his sister Ramona, and her friend Jon, and I went to Men's Wearhouse to find Hani a nice outfit to wear for his New Year's Eve party. Ramona was going to buy this suit for her brother as a Christmas present. Jon was there because he likes to shop, one of the few men that i know who does. I was there as a fashion consultant. hehe. Man oh man. that is some high class shopping. there's this person who follows you around with a measuring tape and makes sure everything fits you. they then try to find every parcel of the outfit they think you'll like and buy. We finally found him a nice black turtleneck with a leather jacket, grey dress pants, a fancy belt, monk strap shoes, and even socks. a tailor had to come out and mark the fitting so she can take parts in and cuff the pants. she had to grab the butt part of his pants at one point and he practically jumped. hehehe.
we dropped ramona and jon off at hani's store (maggie moo's ice cream) and then headed back to my place where we were supposed to be having dinner at 6:30. however, when we got there, only my brother was there. we ended up snacking on cookies and chex mix while i got dinner ready for when my parents and nat returned home from shopping. i had on my maggie moo cow spot apron and it made me feel like a real chef for some reason. i was only warming up food but i felt like a professional. just as hani and i were about to give up and just start eating, my parents showed up around 8pm. by then, jeremy returned and we all ate together.
that night, hani, jeremy, nat, and i played spoons and started working on my 1000 piece pooh bear puzzle i got for christmas. i gave up after the border was done. i was so tired i crashed out. the rest of them worked on until 2am or so. they decided to call it quits cuz they have to wake up before noon tomorrow. we're going to go eat lunch with an old friend...or I was going to..but i needed back up help cuz this friend is a dominant talker and i need ammunition to back me up.
so now its morning..or late morning. i'm a bit tired and my back hurts a little. i'm wearing this new scent jennifer got me for christmas and my new jeans. i'm kind of in the mood to go shopping again..but with what money?
i got this hygenist named sharon who practically cut my mouth to pieces. i was squirming in the chair trying not to cry because i had passed my
threshold of pain. the dentist ans hygenist were like "it's not good when your mouth bleeds like this. it means you have gum disease." and i'm like, "what do you expect to happen when you stab my mouth with razor 2000 times!" well, i kept that to myself but i was in so much pain. my gums still ache. the funny thing is that i floss more than anyone i know but i have the worst gum bleeding. even my brother's mouth wasn't that bad according to the dentist.
jerms and i went over to his parents house after that and had some homecooked breakfast. i had strawberry crepes and sausage. it was good. it was also the first time i had breakfast in months.
around 10am we set up to go shopping with my friend jennifer for clothes and shoes. i ended up getting 3 pairs of jeans so now i don't have to wear the same one over and over again. i wanted to get some brown boots but nothing i tried on was perfect. i've learned my lesson about shoes. if they don't feel comfortable on the first fit, don't buy them. you're not supposed to break in shoes with your feet. we dropped jennifer off at 1:30pm so she could go see the two towers with her family. we then headed back to my house to fix us some leftovers from christmas dinner.
we watched a dvd and kind of napped until it was time for jeremy to go. he had to have dinner with his folks since his parents were cooking his favorite dish..chicken fried deer. i wanted to eat with my parents, so i stayed behind and called up our friend Hani. He, his sister Ramona, and her friend Jon, and I went to Men's Wearhouse to find Hani a nice outfit to wear for his New Year's Eve party. Ramona was going to buy this suit for her brother as a Christmas present. Jon was there because he likes to shop, one of the few men that i know who does. I was there as a fashion consultant. hehe. Man oh man. that is some high class shopping. there's this person who follows you around with a measuring tape and makes sure everything fits you. they then try to find every parcel of the outfit they think you'll like and buy. We finally found him a nice black turtleneck with a leather jacket, grey dress pants, a fancy belt, monk strap shoes, and even socks. a tailor had to come out and mark the fitting so she can take parts in and cuff the pants. she had to grab the butt part of his pants at one point and he practically jumped. hehehe.
we dropped ramona and jon off at hani's store (maggie moo's ice cream) and then headed back to my place where we were supposed to be having dinner at 6:30. however, when we got there, only my brother was there. we ended up snacking on cookies and chex mix while i got dinner ready for when my parents and nat returned home from shopping. i had on my maggie moo cow spot apron and it made me feel like a real chef for some reason. i was only warming up food but i felt like a professional. just as hani and i were about to give up and just start eating, my parents showed up around 8pm. by then, jeremy returned and we all ate together.
that night, hani, jeremy, nat, and i played spoons and started working on my 1000 piece pooh bear puzzle i got for christmas. i gave up after the border was done. i was so tired i crashed out. the rest of them worked on until 2am or so. they decided to call it quits cuz they have to wake up before noon tomorrow. we're going to go eat lunch with an old friend...or I was going to..but i needed back up help cuz this friend is a dominant talker and i need ammunition to back me up.
so now its morning..or late morning. i'm a bit tired and my back hurts a little. i'm wearing this new scent jennifer got me for christmas and my new jeans. i'm kind of in the mood to go shopping again..but with what money?
Wednesday, December 25, 2002
wohoo. this was a very good christmas. i got a million great things and we had so much fun. as we speak, i'm wearing a swanky new watch i got made of bungi chord. we took over 300 pictures so it will probably be next year before i get them all up. heheh.
i'm going to post my loot up when i have more time. i have a dentist appointment tomorrow at 8am. not looking forward to it. not at all. THEN, we're going shopping for ater xmas specials. THAT should be real fun...and i'll have clean teeth while i shop.
hope everyone had a merry christmas..
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i'm going to post my loot up when i have more time. i have a dentist appointment tomorrow at 8am. not looking forward to it. not at all. THEN, we're going shopping for ater xmas specials. THAT should be real fun...and i'll have clean teeth while i shop.
hope everyone had a merry christmas..
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Tuesday, December 24, 2002
Merry Christmas and the Cam
Merry Christmas ya gimps. hehehe.
It's about 1am here. we just got done setting up the camera for live viewing of our xmas celebration tomorrow. it's so cool. i guess i'm just a video geek. i can't help it. i get excited about this sort of stuff.
if any of you get bored during christmas afternoon, toon in and watch us celebrate massive commercial gluttony. we should be starting around 1:30pm or so but i plan on leaving the cam live all christmas morning through night. our xmas fest is prolly going to last from 1:30pm-4pm..if we're lucky!
CLICK HERE to go to the Christmas Cam
It's about 1am here. we just got done setting up the camera for live viewing of our xmas celebration tomorrow. it's so cool. i guess i'm just a video geek. i can't help it. i get excited about this sort of stuff.
if any of you get bored during christmas afternoon, toon in and watch us celebrate massive commercial gluttony. we should be starting around 1:30pm or so but i plan on leaving the cam live all christmas morning through night. our xmas fest is prolly going to last from 1:30pm-4pm..if we're lucky!
CLICK HERE to go to the Christmas Cam
all i want for christmas is to win the powerball
christmas approaches. it is the eve of all mighty presents day. hehe.
i still have some errands to run, last minute shopping and whatnot. i had to get up early today to
drop off a gift at my friend eric's place. i then had to pick up some strawberrys, salad, and angel food cake at the grocery store.
then i had to swing by honey b ham to pick up some ham my dad had ordered. we're having fried turkey and honey b ham for
christmas. my mom showed me the christmas menu. i'll post it later. it's yum.
we went to see two towers yesterday. i actually didn't like it as much as the first one. i thought there was too much character introduction and
hollywood bs going on. anyhow, we hung out with Hani afterwards and he came over. That night, Hani, my dad, Jeremy, Nat, and I drove 25 minutes to Louisiana and bought Power Ball Lottery tickets. The jackpot is up to 300,000,000 dollars now. We were talking (more like fanstasizing) about what we'd do with that much money. We all agreed it'd be best to give most of it away. We also made a pact. if anyone in the car won, we'd give each other at least a million dollars..and more if we felt generous. hehe. i think with all the dreaming we did, we already got our lottery ticket's worth. :D
still have presents to go drop off. playing santa clause today. ho ho ho. jeremy and i have to go to his grandmother's place today for their traditional Christmas Eve thing. They do family pictures, go to the Children's Mass, and then have gumbo. I'm totally in it for the gumbo. hehe.
WELL, if i don't post again till tomorrow.
Have a Great Christmas Everyone! Eat lots! and also Eat lots again.
i still have some errands to run, last minute shopping and whatnot. i had to get up early today to
drop off a gift at my friend eric's place. i then had to pick up some strawberrys, salad, and angel food cake at the grocery store.
then i had to swing by honey b ham to pick up some ham my dad had ordered. we're having fried turkey and honey b ham for
christmas. my mom showed me the christmas menu. i'll post it later. it's yum.
we went to see two towers yesterday. i actually didn't like it as much as the first one. i thought there was too much character introduction and
hollywood bs going on. anyhow, we hung out with Hani afterwards and he came over. That night, Hani, my dad, Jeremy, Nat, and I drove 25 minutes to Louisiana and bought Power Ball Lottery tickets. The jackpot is up to 300,000,000 dollars now. We were talking (more like fanstasizing) about what we'd do with that much money. We all agreed it'd be best to give most of it away. We also made a pact. if anyone in the car won, we'd give each other at least a million dollars..and more if we felt generous. hehe. i think with all the dreaming we did, we already got our lottery ticket's worth. :D
still have presents to go drop off. playing santa clause today. ho ho ho. jeremy and i have to go to his grandmother's place today for their traditional Christmas Eve thing. They do family pictures, go to the Children's Mass, and then have gumbo. I'm totally in it for the gumbo. hehe.
WELL, if i don't post again till tomorrow.
Have a Great Christmas Everyone! Eat lots! and also Eat lots again.
Sunday, December 22, 2002
made it home
we got up around 10am today and got ready for our trip to b-town. we barely fit in the car and we still had Nat to go pick up. we have sooooo many presents! it's so crazy. the drive wasn't long at all. we flew home practically.
when we got home, i noticed there were a million more presents under the tree. there were so many that they had to start another huge pile in the dining room. this christmas will be so fun and exciting. i haven't a clue as to what people are getting each other. i think i'm going to broadcast the even live... a chum family exclusive. hehe.
when i got home, i had to run to the target with my dad and nat to go return a present. after buying it, i decided it was a boring and dumb gift. we then went to the mall to look around. i saw some boots i may want to go back for during the after xmas sales. :D
we then went to visit some family friends. their two daughters have kids and my gosh, they were rowdy. one kid is about 5 or 6 and he was like a super hyper active crazed maniac. it was nuts.
it reminded me of why i don't want one.. especially not now. i don't have that kind of patience.
we ate peking duck when we got home and had some icecream cheesecake.
Nat spent time watching Lord of the Rings, Fellowship of the Rings since she's never seen it and we're taking her to see Two Towers tomorrow. My MOM is even coming to see it! She said she liked the first one because the scenery was so nice. i told her there was going to be less pretty scenery in the next one. my dad can't come because he has work tomorrow. i told him to play hookie. haha. oh well. someone has to put the gold in the pot.
now i'm playing around with adjusting my cam software for home. i also hooked up my brother's Logitech speakers up to my computer. they're awesome. you can really tell a difference as far as quality compared to mine.
so.. Two Towers tomorrow. woohoo.. can hardly wait.
when we got home, i noticed there were a million more presents under the tree. there were so many that they had to start another huge pile in the dining room. this christmas will be so fun and exciting. i haven't a clue as to what people are getting each other. i think i'm going to broadcast the even live... a chum family exclusive. hehe.
when i got home, i had to run to the target with my dad and nat to go return a present. after buying it, i decided it was a boring and dumb gift. we then went to the mall to look around. i saw some boots i may want to go back for during the after xmas sales. :D
we then went to visit some family friends. their two daughters have kids and my gosh, they were rowdy. one kid is about 5 or 6 and he was like a super hyper active crazed maniac. it was nuts.
it reminded me of why i don't want one.. especially not now. i don't have that kind of patience.
we ate peking duck when we got home and had some icecream cheesecake.
Nat spent time watching Lord of the Rings, Fellowship of the Rings since she's never seen it and we're taking her to see Two Towers tomorrow. My MOM is even coming to see it! She said she liked the first one because the scenery was so nice. i told her there was going to be less pretty scenery in the next one. my dad can't come because he has work tomorrow. i told him to play hookie. haha. oh well. someone has to put the gold in the pot.
now i'm playing around with adjusting my cam software for home. i also hooked up my brother's Logitech speakers up to my computer. they're awesome. you can really tell a difference as far as quality compared to mine.
so.. Two Towers tomorrow. woohoo.. can hardly wait.
Saturday, December 21, 2002
alachia's portrait studio
i've been very exhausted all day long today. after tigger rudely woke me up from my peaceful sleep, i've been feeling it all day. i got up, fed the cats and made the bed. i then did some email and chatted with some cool people online. i then went to go watch the movie Gia that i rented. it wasn't what i expected at all. i hate watching movies where people destroy themselves with drugs ( i.e. leaving las vegas). i guess i can't relate.
my friend jennifer came over around 2pm and we took some photos of her. she wanted to get some photos of herself since that's what her mom wants for christmas. she went to sears to get it done but they were going to charge her 50 dollars for one set of prints and even more for any additional poses she wanted.
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we took about 40 pictures and then narrowed them down to four. i took one of the images and put in two different background sets like a real portrait studio. it was fun. i love being creative and i love taking pictures of people if they'll let me.
jeremy and i just did our packing. we're leaving tomorrow around noon, i think. i'm going to pick up my dad's bestfriend's daughter, nat. she's staying with us again this year for xmas break.
i'm about to finish wrapping the last of the presents. it's going to be a crowded car tomorrow.
by this time tomorrow i should be home with the folks in b-town.
my friend jennifer came over around 2pm and we took some photos of her. she wanted to get some photos of herself since that's what her mom wants for christmas. she went to sears to get it done but they were going to charge her 50 dollars for one set of prints and even more for any additional poses she wanted.
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we took about 40 pictures and then narrowed them down to four. i took one of the images and put in two different background sets like a real portrait studio. it was fun. i love being creative and i love taking pictures of people if they'll let me.
jeremy and i just did our packing. we're leaving tomorrow around noon, i think. i'm going to pick up my dad's bestfriend's daughter, nat. she's staying with us again this year for xmas break.
i'm about to finish wrapping the last of the presents. it's going to be a crowded car tomorrow.
by this time tomorrow i should be home with the folks in b-town.
the last full day in austin for december
tigger woke me up this morning trying to break the door down. he was whining like a baby too.
it drove me insane. i really needed to sleep too. oh well.
there's going to be a sex and the city marathon new year's eve for season four and five. i'm going to miss it! i don't have hbo at my house in b-town. that sucks.
i'm staring at the pile of gifts i still have to wrap. ugh. not looking forward to it. i'm about to go downstairs and watch Gia. Then, I'm going to take pictures of a friend so she can have pics to give her parents. I print out nice pictures now. It's fun.
I'm so tired now. I just want to crawl back into bed. jeremy is at work. he's bored out of his mind. he's at the office all by himself. i don't know how he does it.
ugh. still need to clean and pack before tomorrow.
it drove me insane. i really needed to sleep too. oh well.
there's going to be a sex and the city marathon new year's eve for season four and five. i'm going to miss it! i don't have hbo at my house in b-town. that sucks.
i'm staring at the pile of gifts i still have to wrap. ugh. not looking forward to it. i'm about to go downstairs and watch Gia. Then, I'm going to take pictures of a friend so she can have pics to give her parents. I print out nice pictures now. It's fun.
I'm so tired now. I just want to crawl back into bed. jeremy is at work. he's bored out of his mind. he's at the office all by himself. i don't know how he does it.
ugh. still need to clean and pack before tomorrow.
oh xmas tree oh xmas tree
so this is what i did today:
went to the municipal court and got one of my tickets removed
went shopping for final gifts with eric
ate at pluckers with eric and jerms
watched unfaithful (makes me look at hallways differently)
teased jeremy about his xmas presents
took a shower
did email
made a digital xmas tree
Friday, December 20, 2002
get your free tickets
i just woke up. i was about to meet my friend, Eric, to go shopping but then i remembered i had two parking tickets i needed to contest from my last day of school. apparently i parked in a no-parking zone but there was no sign on my curb and there was a huge construction truck earlier blocking a sign across the driveway.
since i was gone all day, they gave me two tickets. i feel as if i don't deserve the tickets since i wasn't intentionally braking the law. i don't understand unwarranted punishment. however, if ignorance is no excuse, i'm going to ask them to bring the charge down to one ticket.
man. i hate dealing with egos.
since i was gone all day, they gave me two tickets. i feel as if i don't deserve the tickets since i wasn't intentionally braking the law. i don't understand unwarranted punishment. however, if ignorance is no excuse, i'm going to ask them to bring the charge down to one ticket.
man. i hate dealing with egos.
forgetting you
where does all the pain go? it never exits, it has no escape. it just shifts from one emotional spectrum to the other.
sometimes i get angry and other times i'm simply void of emotion. melancholy was my best friend until i found misery.
sometimes i get angry and other times i'm simply void of emotion. melancholy was my best friend until i found misery.
Thursday, December 19, 2002
so much nothing to do
jeremy just went off to go play basketball.
i wish i were a guy sometimes. i wish my life had been about playing basketball with the "buds" and hanging out with no emotional ties to anyone. would have been great.
i'm just sitting at home now trying to figure out what i should do next. i just finished my paid work and thought about renting a movie. i've been meaning to see the movie "gia" but haven't been able to. it was playing at gurlz cellar the other night so it reminded me that i wanted to watch it.
i should probably do some emailing and catch up. i've been pretty bad this past month being busing with the end of school and stuff.
i wish i were a guy sometimes. i wish my life had been about playing basketball with the "buds" and hanging out with no emotional ties to anyone. would have been great.
i'm just sitting at home now trying to figure out what i should do next. i just finished my paid work and thought about renting a movie. i've been meaning to see the movie "gia" but haven't been able to. it was playing at gurlz cellar the other night so it reminded me that i wanted to watch it.
i should probably do some emailing and catch up. i've been pretty bad this past month being busing with the end of school and stuff.
those who haven't seen
jeremy and i watched blade 2 last night. it's been awhile since i've seen it but i still like the first one better. our friends ditched us and went to see the two towers without us. we're going to see it when we get to beaumont. i can't wait. i've heard nothing but great things about it. i knew it was going to be good anyhow.
here's what one friend wrote to me. it was exactly what i'd say if i had already seen the two towers:
"Some co-workers and I went to see Two Towers yesterday...man, even though I haven't seen many of my fav. movies when they came onto the big screen, I haven't been impressed with such a epic movie since we went to watch Braveheart(do you remember that? us and jeremy, hani, raymond...about the last day of school...before summer of '95..those were the days..). And this far surpasses that in every way...and easily surpasses the first one, FOTR, and the Star Wars dud (well sort of, especially after watching TTT) that came out earlier this year...The way the Helms Deep battle is done makes the coliseum fight in AOTC look as if George Lucas is still learning how to direct...he could learn a few tips, like hire a real digital effects crew next time.."
hahahaha. cracks me up. well, i'm doing some paid work right now. i got some last night and probably won't get to do my shopping today because of it. it's so monotonous. i'm basically just tracing a drawing. if they only knew the power of my mind, they'd harness it for better use.
okay, back to my CAD monkey duties.
here's what one friend wrote to me. it was exactly what i'd say if i had already seen the two towers:
"Some co-workers and I went to see Two Towers yesterday...man, even though I haven't seen many of my fav. movies when they came onto the big screen, I haven't been impressed with such a epic movie since we went to watch Braveheart(do you remember that? us and jeremy, hani, raymond...about the last day of school...before summer of '95..those were the days..). And this far surpasses that in every way...and easily surpasses the first one, FOTR, and the Star Wars dud (well sort of, especially after watching TTT) that came out earlier this year...The way the Helms Deep battle is done makes the coliseum fight in AOTC look as if George Lucas is still learning how to direct...he could learn a few tips, like hire a real digital effects crew next time.."
hahahaha. cracks me up. well, i'm doing some paid work right now. i got some last night and probably won't get to do my shopping today because of it. it's so monotonous. i'm basically just tracing a drawing. if they only knew the power of my mind, they'd harness it for better use.
okay, back to my CAD monkey duties.
quackers in the night
well, i was determined to go boogying last night and sure enough, i did. i called up karen () last night to see if she wanted to eat spaghetti with jerms and i but her phone was busy. she ended up calling later that night and was hungry. i offered to take her to Freebirds to get a burrito since she had never eaten there before. i also had ulterior motives. Marble's Slab is right next to Freebirds and i've been bugging for some ice cream.
Freebirds ended up being closed so we went to Jason's Deli since she had never eaten inside before. she got a turkey sandwich which she gobbled all down. we went to marble's slab afterwards and i got my usual. karen got some nestle's crunch mixins that she ended up not liking. it ruined her whole ice cream and she was only able to play with it rather than eat it. i had to take it away from her eventually and throw it away. i had to put the ice cream out of its misery.
i forgot to pick up all my studio equipment last weekend so i dragged karen along to help me haul all my stuff home. i forgot to give her the xmas present i bought earlier so the trip home was needed anyhow.
we didn't know where we were going to go dancing so we ended up walking around 6th street for awhile. finally, we decided to take a chance on boy cellar, a gay club on 4th street. on Tuesday nights, it turns into gurlz cellar and so that's where we headed. when we got there we noticed there was a line, so we knew the place was going to be happening. while we were waiting in line the Austin Duck Bus Tour drove by and a bunch of the people threw duck beak gazoos at us. heh. we scored some free stuff. it was cool.
inside, the place was packed. the music was great too. i even danced on the blocks for awhile. karen turned out to be a really good dancer. she had me fooled earlier, asking me all these questions about how to dance and being timid and what not. it was so fun. i'm so glad to have found a dancing buddy.
when we got out, we both quacked our way back to the car. i was so exhausted. i didn't wake up till 1pm the next day.
"karen, ducking around"
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"what a bunch of quackers"
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"silly beans"
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Freebirds ended up being closed so we went to Jason's Deli since she had never eaten inside before. she got a turkey sandwich which she gobbled all down. we went to marble's slab afterwards and i got my usual. karen got some nestle's crunch mixins that she ended up not liking. it ruined her whole ice cream and she was only able to play with it rather than eat it. i had to take it away from her eventually and throw it away. i had to put the ice cream out of its misery.
i forgot to pick up all my studio equipment last weekend so i dragged karen along to help me haul all my stuff home. i forgot to give her the xmas present i bought earlier so the trip home was needed anyhow.
we didn't know where we were going to go dancing so we ended up walking around 6th street for awhile. finally, we decided to take a chance on boy cellar, a gay club on 4th street. on Tuesday nights, it turns into gurlz cellar and so that's where we headed. when we got there we noticed there was a line, so we knew the place was going to be happening. while we were waiting in line the Austin Duck Bus Tour drove by and a bunch of the people threw duck beak gazoos at us. heh. we scored some free stuff. it was cool.
inside, the place was packed. the music was great too. i even danced on the blocks for awhile. karen turned out to be a really good dancer. she had me fooled earlier, asking me all these questions about how to dance and being timid and what not. it was so fun. i'm so glad to have found a dancing buddy.
when we got out, we both quacked our way back to the car. i was so exhausted. i didn't wake up till 1pm the next day.
"karen, ducking around"
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"what a bunch of quackers"
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"silly beans"
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Tuesday, December 17, 2002
waking worries
i woke up this morning thinking i was going to be all excited about going shopping. however, i woke up today feeling extremely lonely and depressed. i had a dream about an old friend. for some reason there are always explanations, skewed perceptions in my dreams. its as if i'm always looking for the answer to "why?" and my mind is trying to give me answers so it will be at rest finally.
anyhow, after jeremy left for work, i was totally alone with the kitties. john has already left to go home so the house is vacant to me. i don't know why, but i just felt totally alone. i wanted to scream out to the world that i was still alive.
i'm staring at a pile of gifts to wrap and a pile of clothes to wash and a bed that needs to be made. i still have a lot of shopping to do. i need a shopping partner..one that's willing to watch me get side tracked a lot. :)
sigh. i guess i better go start the day. prolly won't head out to go shopping till later.
anyhow, after jeremy left for work, i was totally alone with the kitties. john has already left to go home so the house is vacant to me. i don't know why, but i just felt totally alone. i wanted to scream out to the world that i was still alive.
i'm staring at a pile of gifts to wrap and a pile of clothes to wash and a bed that needs to be made. i still have a lot of shopping to do. i need a shopping partner..one that's willing to watch me get side tracked a lot. :)
sigh. i guess i better go start the day. prolly won't head out to go shopping till later.
Monday, December 16, 2002
the white christmas
and yet christmas makes me remember of things i don't have in life and/ or will never have again. i've been talking with an old friend recently and we've been discussing how strange it is to look around and see which of our friends are still with us. those who i would have thought would be there forever have all but disappeared from my life. those who were not so close to me are still around. i guess its easier to keep acquaintances than friends.
i guess this season also makes me melancholy. i dream of wishes that can't come true and snowflakes on all our texas noses......
i guess this season also makes me melancholy. i dream of wishes that can't come true and snowflakes on all our texas noses......
shop till you drop
i did some major shopping today. it's not over yet though. i still have to go cross city tomorrow to pick up more presents. i'm trying to buy relatively inexpensive fun gifts this year. i don't want to overdo it like i did last year. i think i made people feel uncomfortable. i like to give but i guess you have to be reasonable sometimes.
one of the gifts i went out and bought was for adrian's girlfriend, mikey. during the white elephant gift exchange, i took her disney mug of eeyore. at first she thought it was a tigger mug and was very excited about it...so i got her a tigger mug today. i think she'll like it alot.
i love christmas time. i love being with my family, eating good food, visiting old friends, and doing holiday shopping. i plan on hitting the stores for the after christmas specials.
i went to get jeremy's oil changed today at the dealership in Austin. since he uses synthetic oil, the price was unbelievable. 56 dollars! his preferred customer discount from the other dealership in ft. worth didn't transfer. what a jip.
jerms and i are going to crash downstairs on the futon tonight to sleep with the kitties. i'm going to pop in a movie and watch it till i get droopy eyed. last night, i went to sleep really really late and couldn't get to sleep. i was lying there under the covers with my eyes closed and realized after an hour that i was still awake. it was awful. it felt as if i were a trapped consciousness in a dead body.
i'm gonna see if karen wants to go dancing with me tomorrow. i want to boogy.
one of the gifts i went out and bought was for adrian's girlfriend, mikey. during the white elephant gift exchange, i took her disney mug of eeyore. at first she thought it was a tigger mug and was very excited about it...so i got her a tigger mug today. i think she'll like it alot.
i love christmas time. i love being with my family, eating good food, visiting old friends, and doing holiday shopping. i plan on hitting the stores for the after christmas specials.
i went to get jeremy's oil changed today at the dealership in Austin. since he uses synthetic oil, the price was unbelievable. 56 dollars! his preferred customer discount from the other dealership in ft. worth didn't transfer. what a jip.
jerms and i are going to crash downstairs on the futon tonight to sleep with the kitties. i'm going to pop in a movie and watch it till i get droopy eyed. last night, i went to sleep really really late and couldn't get to sleep. i was lying there under the covers with my eyes closed and realized after an hour that i was still awake. it was awful. it felt as if i were a trapped consciousness in a dead body.
i'm gonna see if karen wants to go dancing with me tomorrow. i want to boogy.
Sunday, December 15, 2002
the christmas party (2002)
we had our chirstmas party last night and it went very well.
our menu included:
an award winning chilli recipe,
rice
beans
jeremy's mom's salad recipe
chocolate chip cookies
cupcakes
chips and salsa and queso (from serranos)
vegetable plate with lite sourcream dip
we played Mafia most of the night since we had a fairly large group of people. it's this game where you draw cards and if you have the ace, you're the mafia and if you draw a jack, you're the cop. the rest of the cards are townspeople. there are two mafia and one cop.
when the game begins, the host tells everyone to lower their heads and close their eyes. then the host says, "mafia, raise your heads." so the two mafia people raise their heads and the host knows who they are. then the host says "mafia, choose your victim." then, the two mafia people have to agree on who they want to kill and point to them without making any noise. then the host says "mafia, lower your heads."
then the cop is asked to raise their head. once he does, he has one guess at who he thinks the mafia is. the host will either nod yes or no. then the cop places his or her head down and the everyone is asked to raise their heads. the host says who died and then the accusations begin flying. if the cop guessed correct, he or she must convince everyone else that a certain person is the mafia or if they know who isn't mafia, they have to convince everyone not to accuse that person. once the a townsperson makes an accusation, someone has to second it. then the accused has to defend themselves. afterwards, a vote is taken. if the townspeople vote that they think they've got the mafia, that person is dead.
the point of the game is either for the mafia to be the last standing or the townspeople to vote the mafia off.
there was a lot of diplomacy, logic, and direct lying involved. i didn't like being the mafia but i loved people a townsperson trying to figure it out.
at around midnight, we played our white elephant gift exchange game. we all drew numbers. the first person gets to open the wrapped gift of their choice. then they get to unwrap it. the second person can either take the first person's opened gift or open a present of their own. if the someone takes the another person's gift, that person gets to either take another opened present they like or open another present.
i ended up taking a person's present. it was an eeyore coffee mug from the disney store. i felt really really guilty that night for taking it because the girl i took it from really liked it. i know the whole point of the game is that everything is less than 5-7 dollars so we can all go out and buy the gifts for ourselves..but still. she's our friend's girlfriend. i think i'm going to buy her the same mug only a different character that she likes...tigger.
we played taboo and trivial pursuit as well. those weren't as fun as mafia though.
i'll post the two or three pictures i took from last night later.
now i have a history final to take. fun fun.
p.s. karen () came to my party and i think she had a relatively good time. i made her stay longer than she wanted to so i'm sure she's crashed out right now. she was so tired by the time we ended the party, i probably should have offered to take her home. she ended up being the mafia like 75% of the time we played the game. it was insane.
our menu included:
an award winning chilli recipe,
rice
beans
jeremy's mom's salad recipe
chocolate chip cookies
cupcakes
chips and salsa and queso (from serranos)
vegetable plate with lite sourcream dip
we played Mafia most of the night since we had a fairly large group of people. it's this game where you draw cards and if you have the ace, you're the mafia and if you draw a jack, you're the cop. the rest of the cards are townspeople. there are two mafia and one cop.
when the game begins, the host tells everyone to lower their heads and close their eyes. then the host says, "mafia, raise your heads." so the two mafia people raise their heads and the host knows who they are. then the host says "mafia, choose your victim." then, the two mafia people have to agree on who they want to kill and point to them without making any noise. then the host says "mafia, lower your heads."
then the cop is asked to raise their head. once he does, he has one guess at who he thinks the mafia is. the host will either nod yes or no. then the cop places his or her head down and the everyone is asked to raise their heads. the host says who died and then the accusations begin flying. if the cop guessed correct, he or she must convince everyone else that a certain person is the mafia or if they know who isn't mafia, they have to convince everyone not to accuse that person. once the a townsperson makes an accusation, someone has to second it. then the accused has to defend themselves. afterwards, a vote is taken. if the townspeople vote that they think they've got the mafia, that person is dead.
the point of the game is either for the mafia to be the last standing or the townspeople to vote the mafia off.
there was a lot of diplomacy, logic, and direct lying involved. i didn't like being the mafia but i loved people a townsperson trying to figure it out.
at around midnight, we played our white elephant gift exchange game. we all drew numbers. the first person gets to open the wrapped gift of their choice. then they get to unwrap it. the second person can either take the first person's opened gift or open a present of their own. if the someone takes the another person's gift, that person gets to either take another opened present they like or open another present.
i ended up taking a person's present. it was an eeyore coffee mug from the disney store. i felt really really guilty that night for taking it because the girl i took it from really liked it. i know the whole point of the game is that everything is less than 5-7 dollars so we can all go out and buy the gifts for ourselves..but still. she's our friend's girlfriend. i think i'm going to buy her the same mug only a different character that she likes...tigger.
we played taboo and trivial pursuit as well. those weren't as fun as mafia though.
i'll post the two or three pictures i took from last night later.
now i have a history final to take. fun fun.
p.s. karen (
Thursday, December 12, 2002
december wallpaper
I stayed up till 5 something last night and woke up around 9am to finish my project for my presentation today. I was so unmotivated that I spent most of the night creating a new wallpaper for my desktop. Here's how productive I was:
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i'm about to head out school to go print out my presentation boards. I'm gonna grab a smoothie from the chippery while I'm at it. :) yummy.
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i'm about to head out school to go print out my presentation boards. I'm gonna grab a smoothie from the chippery while I'm at it. :) yummy.
christmas cards away
i think i've finally gotten all my xmas cards out of the way.
i love excuses to send snail mail.
i love excuses to send snail mail.
Wednesday, December 11, 2002
a new collaborative creative writing project
as if there aren't enough stories about misery.
i started to do some creative writing today. a friend and i are thinking about putting together a collection of short stories or some kind of creative project. i'm excited about it. i hope it doesn't fall through like all my other creative projects.
it's supposed to be about a person much like myself. it's a young man who is living a completely ordinary life but sees the world through the eyes of a completely introverted, skeptical, miserable person. sounds awful i know but its awesome for me. hehehe.
so here's a start:
Sometimes my mind dances with my eyes. I catch glimpses of demons. No, they're not real demons nor do I believe in demons. However, these images are real for the tiny moments in which they appear out of the corner of my eye. What is reality anyhow? The only reality that we can ever know is the one we experience. Of course, there have to be other realities out there, ones that exist outside of our scope of comprehension. Sometimes I wish my skepticism would be run through by an act of God. I think it would be easier to believe in a higher power, a moment and existence greater than my own. Life otherwise, is quite arbitrary. And yet, at the same time, it is completely priceless and compelling. We are the maker of our own wills. We feed our own life with the lies of subjective truths in order to find the will to breathe each day. Meaning is child's play. Living is hell
i started to do some creative writing today. a friend and i are thinking about putting together a collection of short stories or some kind of creative project. i'm excited about it. i hope it doesn't fall through like all my other creative projects.
it's supposed to be about a person much like myself. it's a young man who is living a completely ordinary life but sees the world through the eyes of a completely introverted, skeptical, miserable person. sounds awful i know but its awesome for me. hehehe.
so here's a start:
Sometimes my mind dances with my eyes. I catch glimpses of demons. No, they're not real demons nor do I believe in demons. However, these images are real for the tiny moments in which they appear out of the corner of my eye. What is reality anyhow? The only reality that we can ever know is the one we experience. Of course, there have to be other realities out there, ones that exist outside of our scope of comprehension. Sometimes I wish my skepticism would be run through by an act of God. I think it would be easier to believe in a higher power, a moment and existence greater than my own. Life otherwise, is quite arbitrary. And yet, at the same time, it is completely priceless and compelling. We are the maker of our own wills. We feed our own life with the lies of subjective truths in order to find the will to breathe each day. Meaning is child's play. Living is hell
What I did.
Okay that was my plan but this is what I did.
I started to watch the Many Adventures of Winnie the pooh,
then stopped to get a midnigth snack
then went to bed.
slacker.
I started to watch the Many Adventures of Winnie the pooh,
then stopped to get a midnigth snack
then went to bed.
slacker.
Tuesday, December 10, 2002
what's the plan?
okay, this is my plan.
i'm going to finish watching the Many Adventures of Winnie the Pooh,
then i'm going to think of a topic for my presentation on Thursday,
then i'm going to update my site,
then i'm going to get a midnight snack,
and then i'm going to play on my computer,
and then i'm going to sleep.
i'm going to finish watching the Many Adventures of Winnie the Pooh,
then i'm going to think of a topic for my presentation on Thursday,
then i'm going to update my site,
then i'm going to get a midnight snack,
and then i'm going to play on my computer,
and then i'm going to sleep.
gumbo time
what time is it?
i think it's gumbo time.
i'm hungry.
again.
jeremy is napping.
i am going to wake him up.
why?
because it's gumbo time.
i think it's gumbo time.
i'm hungry.
again.
jeremy is napping.
i am going to wake him up.
why?
because it's gumbo time.
like a washing machine
had a pb&j for lunch.
woke up at a decent hour so things are going fairly well considering this is my life we're talking about. i think i almost broke the washing machine. i overloaded it with too many jeans and towels. jerms always tells me to separate towels from clothes but i refuse to be that anal. heh. he'll prolly say "i told you so" now.
my friend eric forgot about the christmas party i'm having this weekend. so much for friends that remember me. i was pretty upset this morning when i found out he scheduled work for this saturday. he's going to be fresh out of bartending school..and doing some gig.
my friend hani, from beaumont is coming up though. i'm happy about that. i think we're going to cook chili, rice, and cookies.
i'm half way done with my paper. i took break from it for two hours. i better get back and finish.
woke up at a decent hour so things are going fairly well considering this is my life we're talking about. i think i almost broke the washing machine. i overloaded it with too many jeans and towels. jerms always tells me to separate towels from clothes but i refuse to be that anal. heh. he'll prolly say "i told you so" now.
my friend eric forgot about the christmas party i'm having this weekend. so much for friends that remember me. i was pretty upset this morning when i found out he scheduled work for this saturday. he's going to be fresh out of bartending school..and doing some gig.
my friend hani, from beaumont is coming up though. i'm happy about that. i think we're going to cook chili, rice, and cookies.
i'm half way done with my paper. i took break from it for two hours. i better get back and finish.
Monday, December 9, 2002
hungry and not studying
it's a very cold and wet day today, definitely a gloomy winters day. i woke up pretty late today but not as late as my brother. we both don't have school anymore. he has to study for finals and i have to finish papers and projects.
we went to see harry potter, chamber of secrets yesterday afternoon. it was a complete waste of time in my opinion. i was pretty disappointed because i liked the first one quite a bit. i think the kids have lost their "cute edge" and since this is the second book, i expected a lot more plot development and perhaps some actually magic.
i think the next few days are going to be pretty stressful considering how little i've gotten done this weekend. i'm about to try to finish up my history paper. i'd like to get that out of the way. no more playing.
right.
i'm starving right now. there's nothing to eat in the house. we need to go grocery shopping. i need food! i keep sticking gum in my mouth but it's not helping much. give me food.
we went to see harry potter, chamber of secrets yesterday afternoon. it was a complete waste of time in my opinion. i was pretty disappointed because i liked the first one quite a bit. i think the kids have lost their "cute edge" and since this is the second book, i expected a lot more plot development and perhaps some actually magic.
i think the next few days are going to be pretty stressful considering how little i've gotten done this weekend. i'm about to try to finish up my history paper. i'd like to get that out of the way. no more playing.
right.
i'm starving right now. there's nothing to eat in the house. we need to go grocery shopping. i need food! i keep sticking gum in my mouth but it's not helping much. give me food.
Saturday, December 7, 2002
cheesecake factory
We got a pretty late start this afternoon but the day turned out to be pretty eventful. John finally got ready and we headed out the door. We had to pick up his friend Chris first and then we were off to the Cheesecake Factory. John and I ordered the Ceasar Salad and Louisiana Chicken Pasta. Their ceasar salad is HUGE-mungous! Gigantic. It's enough to feed my entire family. The entire meal, we talked about all of our friends and pondered the ideals of ambitions.
After we were done eating, we dropped Chris and John off. We then headed to Famous Footwear to return the boots I bought earlier this week. When we got there, I discovered that the shoes I had bought were now twenty dollars cheaper. I then decided to ask them for a price difference instead of returning them. I felt great being able to keep my boots. I've always wanted tall boots. Now I have to buy things to go with them. :D
We then went on a shopping spree. We got lots of presents out of the way. We also bought our presents for the xmas party this weekend. We're doing a white elephant gift exchange. Basically, everyone draws numbers and then the first person unwraps any gift they want. The second person then gets the choice of taking the first persons gift or opening another gift and so on.
After we got home, I spent a good hour wrapping presents and then another two hours writing christmas cards and then another printing out pictures for empty picture frames.
now it's almost 2am. john and jerms are playing warcraft III...they're in a 3v3 game.
i'm hungry. i wonder what's in the fridge?
After we were done eating, we dropped Chris and John off. We then headed to Famous Footwear to return the boots I bought earlier this week. When we got there, I discovered that the shoes I had bought were now twenty dollars cheaper. I then decided to ask them for a price difference instead of returning them. I felt great being able to keep my boots. I've always wanted tall boots. Now I have to buy things to go with them. :D
We then went on a shopping spree. We got lots of presents out of the way. We also bought our presents for the xmas party this weekend. We're doing a white elephant gift exchange. Basically, everyone draws numbers and then the first person unwraps any gift they want. The second person then gets the choice of taking the first persons gift or opening another gift and so on.
After we got home, I spent a good hour wrapping presents and then another two hours writing christmas cards and then another printing out pictures for empty picture frames.
now it's almost 2am. john and jerms are playing warcraft III...they're in a 3v3 game.
i'm hungry. i wonder what's in the fridge?
the christmas party
Yesterday was my last day of classes. My teacher sat us down for instructions about our final review next Friday. The only requirements he gave us was to be there from 9am-3pm and put the pictures on powerpoint. Hah. I thought that was awesome. I actually get free reign over how I present my project. This is an unprecedented event. Amazing really. I've also never been more impressed with the work my studio has produced before. I wish I could swipe some of the pictures of their stuff to post. Maybe I can dig through the network files and and find some. hehe.
Last night, Jerms and I went to his company's Christmas party. I was freezing the entire time because there was a draft flowing throughout the place. The party was at the Red Oak Ballroom. They had an open bar and appetizers which we helped ourselves too while we were waiting for his friends to arrive. I got sprite and some crackers.
When Jeremy's friend Todd finally showed up, we nabbed ourselves a table near the jazz band. That was a funny little mistake. The saxaphone player was totally tipsy and kept coming to our table to jam out in someone's ear.
Later, when the band was taking a break, he came over and sat with us and began discussing his trip to Paris, France on Monday. I learned more about him than I did any of Jeremy's co-workers. He was a 47 year old jazz musician who only recently started learning how to read music after 30 years of playing. He's never been married and he comes from family of 7 generations of Texans. He's recorded a few albums and has played for Jeremy's company xmas party 3 years in a row.
At the end of the night, the president gave a speech and awarded 3 employees with innovation awards which included a plaque and 3,500 dollars towards a vacation. They also announced that whoever had the orange dot underneath their glass wins the centerpiece at that table. Guess who won?! ME! hehe.. yeah! Something cool came out of the event after all.
Today, we have to do some Christmas shopping...if we ever leave the house.. it's already 2pm. we still haven't eaten. I'm waiting for John to take a shower and get dressed.
Last night, Jerms and I went to his company's Christmas party. I was freezing the entire time because there was a draft flowing throughout the place. The party was at the Red Oak Ballroom. They had an open bar and appetizers which we helped ourselves too while we were waiting for his friends to arrive. I got sprite and some crackers.
When Jeremy's friend Todd finally showed up, we nabbed ourselves a table near the jazz band. That was a funny little mistake. The saxaphone player was totally tipsy and kept coming to our table to jam out in someone's ear.
Later, when the band was taking a break, he came over and sat with us and began discussing his trip to Paris, France on Monday. I learned more about him than I did any of Jeremy's co-workers. He was a 47 year old jazz musician who only recently started learning how to read music after 30 years of playing. He's never been married and he comes from family of 7 generations of Texans. He's recorded a few albums and has played for Jeremy's company xmas party 3 years in a row.
At the end of the night, the president gave a speech and awarded 3 employees with innovation awards which included a plaque and 3,500 dollars towards a vacation. They also announced that whoever had the orange dot underneath their glass wins the centerpiece at that table. Guess who won?! ME! hehe.. yeah! Something cool came out of the event after all.Today, we have to do some Christmas shopping...if we ever leave the house.. it's already 2pm. we still haven't eaten. I'm waiting for John to take a shower and get dressed.
Thursday, December 5, 2002
about how she wants him to go down on her
ruple: back
*** Auto-response sent to ruple: i'm online, just set to"away" for various reasons.
if i don't reply to your message then you're prolly one of those various reasons. heh.
alachia: like my message?
ruple: you were wrong about that avril lavigne song
ruple: your favorite one
alachia: what does she say?
ruple: about how she wants him to go down on her
ruple: she is actually saying she wants to see him go down on one knee
alachia: ah man. that sucks.
ruple: hehehe
alachia: that song sucks
ruple: i knew you would say that
Wednesday, December 4, 2002
shoes
yesterday i went shoe shopping. i need to find shoes to go with the dress i bought. i'm running out of time. i think it's pretty pathetic that i don't own decent clothing for special occasions. i ended up getting a pair of tall boots from famous footwear but after trying them on again at home, i've decided to return them. they just didn't go with the outfit. i'm trying to get my brother to go with me tomorrow to help me pick something that will match.
tigger and dessy are upstairs with me. they are both lounging on the bed keeping me company while i do school work. tigger seems really cold now. he got curled up into a ball after i took the picture so i put a blanket over him. my little roly poly.
u can see our optical tree on the nightstand. oh xmas tree. oh xmas tree.
hmmm..funny that i mention my shoe dilemma. i'm creating shoes in my 3d model right now for the display cases. heh.
Tuesday, December 3, 2002
i think marriage as lost its necessity and value
"Wolfgang Puck in divorce
LOS ANGELES, California (AP) -- Restaurateur and designer Barbara Lazaroff has filed for divorce from Wolfgang Puck after 19 years of marriage to the celebrity chef.
Lazaroff filed a petition for dissolution of marriage based on "irreconcilable differences," said her lawyer, Harold Stanton. The divorce was filed in Superior Court on November 27. "
i read stuff like this every day. in fact, i just heard of a break up of a seven year relationship earlier this week. i'm so distraught by this phenomenon of "irreconcilable differences." what is this? what's the point of getting married? was the 7, 10, 19, or even 25 years good enough. is it okay that marriages are just a temporary partnership? that's how it is appearing to me.
how about instead of getting married, people just sign 5-15 year contracts with each other that is up for negotiations 6 months prior to the end of the contract. i guess i just don't get the big deal about marriage anymore when divorce is just as common and multiple marriages are the norm. in leu of these sorts of facts, why the hell am i being pressured to get married?
LOS ANGELES, California (AP) -- Restaurateur and designer Barbara Lazaroff has filed for divorce from Wolfgang Puck after 19 years of marriage to the celebrity chef.
Lazaroff filed a petition for dissolution of marriage based on "irreconcilable differences," said her lawyer, Harold Stanton. The divorce was filed in Superior Court on November 27. "
i read stuff like this every day. in fact, i just heard of a break up of a seven year relationship earlier this week. i'm so distraught by this phenomenon of "irreconcilable differences." what is this? what's the point of getting married? was the 7, 10, 19, or even 25 years good enough. is it okay that marriages are just a temporary partnership? that's how it is appearing to me.
how about instead of getting married, people just sign 5-15 year contracts with each other that is up for negotiations 6 months prior to the end of the contract. i guess i just don't get the big deal about marriage anymore when divorce is just as common and multiple marriages are the norm. in leu of these sorts of facts, why the hell am i being pressured to get married?
the simple things in life are overrated
it must be nice being complacent with simple living. no drama. no worries. no unobtainable aspirations. sometimes i scoff at people who are emotionally shallow but really, i wonder who should be scoffed at. i shall never truly be at a point in my life where i can just be content or happy. moments of happiness are always brief and short lived. to me, there's no real point to anything except sustaining some sort of existence. hell, even if i believed in an ever after i'd prolly be dissapointed in that too. nothing is ever going to be good enough. nothing is ever going to be worth this living.
Monday, December 2, 2002
the cocktail dress
i just got back from shopping. let me say that shopping in austin is so much more draining than shopping in b-town. i guess that's like the difference between 900,000 people though.
i had to go buy a dress for jeremy's company's christmas party. the attire is for women to wear a nice elegant cocktail dress. at first, i got jeremy to let me wear a pant suit instead but then i thought i didn't want us to be too alienated. i don't have any real dresses so i had to go buy one. i tried to find shoes but i'm not used to buying expensive footwear so i was too uncomfortable having someone help me put shoes on my feet. i just gave up on the shoe thing. i'll go get something from payless or something. it's only for one night anyhow. i thought about keeping the tag on the dress so i could return it.
on the way home, i stopped by walgreens and bought some christmas things. i got some candy canes for the light tree and some red and green m&ms for the candy jar. i also got some wrapping ribbons. i contemplated on getting some cheap xmas cards but i think i might print my own out this year. we'll see.
jeremy called while i was on my way back and told me he was going to be really late coming home.. like 9-10pm. i want to wait for him to eat dinner so i'm snacking on chips and salsa right now. i'm starving.
i had to go buy a dress for jeremy's company's christmas party. the attire is for women to wear a nice elegant cocktail dress. at first, i got jeremy to let me wear a pant suit instead but then i thought i didn't want us to be too alienated. i don't have any real dresses so i had to go buy one. i tried to find shoes but i'm not used to buying expensive footwear so i was too uncomfortable having someone help me put shoes on my feet. i just gave up on the shoe thing. i'll go get something from payless or something. it's only for one night anyhow. i thought about keeping the tag on the dress so i could return it.
on the way home, i stopped by walgreens and bought some christmas things. i got some candy canes for the light tree and some red and green m&ms for the candy jar. i also got some wrapping ribbons. i contemplated on getting some cheap xmas cards but i think i might print my own out this year. we'll see.
jeremy called while i was on my way back and told me he was going to be really late coming home.. like 9-10pm. i want to wait for him to eat dinner so i'm snacking on chips and salsa right now. i'm starving.
deck the halls
i'm washing all of our new sheets right now. the bed set needs to be washed twice because it's still pretty stiff. i prolly should have spent the extra money and bought the extra thread count. ah well. i know now. we put up christmas deocrations in the condo last night. jeremy bought christmas decorations before we left b-town yesterday. we got a light tree, star lights, and 200 white string lights. sometimes, it's totally fun knowing people can still suprise you. we put them up in the living room last night while listening to the few xmas cds i swiped from home. hehe. we also put up our optical christmas tree in the bedroom. i'd say we're ready for a christmas party.
oh yeah, jerms also got me reigndeer horns and those kissing bear things. i'd say we're pretty much in the season now. i'm trying to think of stuff i can make that's xmas-like. what kind of food says christmas? cakes? cookies?
