intelligent cats

it's pretty much been one of those days... sigh. i had trouble sleeping last night. my insomnia might be back. it went away for a few months. i remember, it's the worst feeling in the world. lying there, thinking, unable to stop thinking, always thinking simultaneous thoughts. this is how the world works when you're lying on your back at 2am knowing that after your brief unconscious break, you're going to be feeling like your head weighs two tons in the morning. i feel like the sleeplessness is like a trap, a huge whole where my mind is constantly being restarted. nights like that, i don't know when or what eventually lets my self collapse.

dessy is laying on the bed underneath an overturned laundry basket. she doesn't try to get out or even let out a sound. i think she knows that this is the only way she can hang with us upstairs. i like to convince myself that my cats are intelligent. i just couldn't have it any other way.

i was waiting in line today at the bank to make a deposit. the tellers were very slow and it pissed me off. i need to work on self control.