hypocracy of my profession

as you can tell, i've been very busy living outside of my pc world which is both
depressing and engaging for me. i've become engrossed in the realm of education and experience but there has been some serious side effects. i feel as though the more educated i become, the more i learn, the more i become disillusioned with the world. i'm also very paranoid now of the lies behind our governing body, our political system, and the people we trust to protect us. as a professional, there seems to be some obligation to turn our attention to the problems of the world, or at least in our present environment. however, i am seeing that the more professional or educated someone is, the less they are aware of the public sector.

architects, especially in the academic realm, are taught how to see, interpret, and design. we are taught to perceive on a marco and micro level and apply our knowledge to process. nowhere, in my education in the architecture field have i ever been taught about a responsibility to society. our responsibility lies in the pockets of our clients. we seem to only hail architects of monumental and residential delights.. you know, the big budget projects.

have we been immersed into a profession of lies? in which we tell people that we are doing something, contributing to society, when we're really only contributing to the top tier of society? so much of what goes on with people in the professional world, the people who have power, has little to do with creating a better world, working toward national interests. that's just what they want you to think.

and it's so frustrating because i see so many of these young, enthusiastic colleagues of mine buying into the idea that, to put it bluntly, designing building for the rich, elite makes your profession valid. it's irresponsible in my opinion but i guess greed and ideals are too competing references in the US anyhow.

i have much disdain for my professors, my fellow students, and my profession all together. i have taken a lot of urban planning classes this past year (by mistake) and have found that there are people who aren't afraid to deal with reality. who aren't too busy writing novels about the theory of urban problems, but creating solutions and ideas that address these issues that plague the modern city.

i'm not sure where i will go with my field of study. if i will simply ignore my conscious and this entire spew of disgust or if i will pursue some course of action. isn't that the problem of our society, that it is acceptable to live a hypocritical lifestyle.

god, i hope some of that made sense.