doop doop doop.
i'm doing paid work right now. i'm basically drafting out some elevations. it's such a boring job...but at least i'm getting paid to sit at home and listen to my music. that's always nice. jerms and i plan to go eat at fazolli's tonight. it's this fast food italian place down the street. i love it. i don't know why there isn't one in every city.

i find it interesting that half of my lj friends are online moms. it puts a very interesting twist on parenthood...especially since i'm dreading my own fate as one.. (parental pressure).
anyhow, it's really great hearing the ups and downs. the reality of parenthood is that its an investment. sometimes you gain and sometimes you lose. Most of the parents on my friends list are single moms too so its a tougher reality to dish out...but somehow they get through it..and they don't lie about their realities either. it's a hard hard life. pushes and pulls ...with very few rewards. the entity is the only reward..the son or daughter..healthy and happy..that's the basics. it's not the glamorous hub-bub movies make out..or even the naive dreams of most anti-abortion groups. it's the real deal..
i still don't think i'm fit to be a mother..and on the eve of andrea yates's conviction, i'd say this whole parenting thing should never be taken lightly. it's not something you do half way...

and on the other side of my friends list are those who, like me, are nowhere near parenthood..and some even admit that its not their cup of tea. i like the balance.
some of us are to be the last of our legacy..and others will have their legacy carry on. does your legacy end with you?