studio was long today...but i loved the discussion.
i'm not sure what to make of my professor yet. he's definitely on the level.
i haven't had a teacher more on the level than my last prof at A&M.. who ended up leaving to pursue better things in germany.. mainly a cute german girl. hehe.
it's weird how teacher/student relationships work out. there's always this guarded mystery between the two. my last prof was very open about himself and yet there
was still that sense of ambiguity.. what is it about teachers and their unknowable presence. it's madening sometimes... they are the minds you want to pick..and yet they are the most guarded. i couldn't interface on my last profs level. he and i were polar opposites.. he kind pulled me away from who i am.. this whole experience at UT has pulled me away from who i am. look. do you see this typing? do you see my words.
how are you viewing these things? through the internet right? through this faceless world?.. yes. that's me. this is where my soul is... this oblong void of space where nothing matters more than simply existing.
i know..people around me think it's a sad sort of thing. computers are bad. they are the instigaters of the dissassociation of man from his body..
hehehe.. but damn.. this is where the minds of women and men flourish..
where we are explorers in unspeakable, indescribeable worlds. it's incredible.
too many facades separate us from ourselves in the physical world. thoughts are not physical.. emotions are not physical.. and neither is this world of the internet.
am i geek? fine.
let me return for just a little while and admire and explore...

for example, i was browsing through 's homepage and thinking how different it was to be confronted with his physical imagery.. when for most of the time he's a body of thought to me...with a very concrete icon. the power of imagery is amazing..
i've seen his picture before.. just like and .. but it's their iconic imagery that is lasting in my memory. i don't prefer one or the other but it's that translucent sort of nature that makes them even more interesting.

"that's the funny thing about a memory, isn't it. We are not what we remember of ourselves. We are what people say we are. They project upon us their convictions. We are nothing but blank screens." - trevor goodchild, aeon flux episode Reraizure