i want to thank ren for dragging my ass out Tuesday night to girl cellar night at boyz cellar.
i was kind of hesitant about going because of work the next day and all that but i normally sleep pretty late anyhow.
i hadn't seen ren in along time and my architecture partner was a no show that night for the competition we are working on. ... so i figured, what the heck... i could use the exercise.
when we got there, the crowd was kind of slim on the dance floor. we decided to sit down near the bar and visit till more people started dancing. i'm not sure i remember all of our conversation. i know we were talking about "love" and how much is too much for it. ren has girl issues a lot. i think that comes from not having the affection he desires or not knowing what it is he wants... i think he's kind of crazy/stupid infatuated all the time. but i try not to impose so much since i know that people always end up doing whatever is in their best pants, ur, i mean interest.
i decided to see if these types of places serve mexican martinis so i asked the bartender.
sure enough, they do. it tasted like shit. but i drank most of it because it was so expensive. after drinking so much (glass of water as a chaser), i need to use the restroom.
i almost never go to the restroom when i go dancing because toilet facilities are never reliable. i was headed to the girl's restroom and noticed the bathroom doors were open.. i guess to stop people from doing lewd things behind closed doors. i saw two guys in the girl's accessible stall. i thought to myself, "shit, i'm in the wrong restroom". i checked the door again and it said women. so i was like, what the hell, i need to pee, so i went in. as i was going in, the two guys came out. they were smiling and laughing. i was like "hey'...and one of the men said to me, "hiya! this is my boy friend alberto!!!" i was like "nice to meet you alberto and went to shake his hand." he took my hand and kissed it and nodded his head. i was like "thanks!" then they left, and i peed.
dancing was a lot of fun. the music was completely random. at first it was a lot of 80s cure, erasure, madonna, cindi lopper...then it was jay-z, 50 cent, and some random jamaican type stuff.
i ended up losing track of time and staying there till 2:30am. i still went to work on time. who says you can't have your cake and eat it too. i love being an adult, because you get to be a kid without rules.
Thursday, July 29, 2004
Wednesday, July 28, 2004
muse-ic
i love it when people share their music with me. i know this sounds corny but i really feel like they're giving me a part of their soul as a gift. i always appreciate it and in the very same token they are forever floating in the songs. they're image and their persona become part of the music.. it's like i'm listening to the soundtrack of their life... or some combination of my own life mixed with theirs.
i know i make more of it than it really is but truly, when i listen to the songs they have shared with me..i am always in some degree thinking of them.
i don't know how music got to be so important to me. i have whole play lists that will bring me back to very specific moments in my life and very specific feelings. there are some songs i try no to listen to because they make me hurt. and yet sometimes i like the hurt... because it reminds me that i was alive once.. and possibly could come alive again one day.
sweet sweet words...sweet sweet eyes.. sweet sweet music... make me come alive
i know i make more of it than it really is but truly, when i listen to the songs they have shared with me..i am always in some degree thinking of them.
i don't know how music got to be so important to me. i have whole play lists that will bring me back to very specific moments in my life and very specific feelings. there are some songs i try no to listen to because they make me hurt. and yet sometimes i like the hurt... because it reminds me that i was alive once.. and possibly could come alive again one day.
sweet sweet words...sweet sweet eyes.. sweet sweet music... make me come alive
Saturday, July 24, 2004
desks
we've been looking into getting desks for the game room upstairs. we actually converted it into our computer area. but right now we have wires going everywhere and we're sharing two fold out tables.. one long one and one square one...
there are just no good designs for office desks out there. do you know any good places to search? we looked at eurway, office max, and office depot so far. they all just look too generic or executive.
jeremy likes his computer in the corner desk piece. i prefer my computer on the long side of the desk. i was thinking we should just spring for cubicles!
there are just no good designs for office desks out there. do you know any good places to search? we looked at eurway, office max, and office depot so far. they all just look too generic or executive.
jeremy likes his computer in the corner desk piece. i prefer my computer on the long side of the desk. i was thinking we should just spring for cubicles!
Tuesday, July 20, 2004
a really, really long boat ride
my mistake. the movie was actually three hours and twenty two minutes.
this helps explain why i was so bitter after staying up to watch it.
in responding to encyclops post, i can understand the appreciation.
movies today are lacking any emotional adventure. they just don't take the time to
truly unwind your head.. instead they just flash eye candy in front of you over and over again for about an hour and a half. and even the movies that are intellectually intelligent barely
scratch the surface of your psyche.
but my problem with apocalypse now was it's shallow approach to the real journey into madness. i'll have to admit, i expected it to be a bit more raw and gruesome. i expected it to be a movie about the vietnam war. but it wasn't. i had no idea what this movie was about when we first started watching it. i had heard the name of the movie many times before but had only a few assumptions about it.
my criticism is in the fact that the setting of the vietnam war was the catch-all answer to the madness that ensues with each character. no one instance seems to matter, causality isn't in the film. so many "acts" are performed throughout the movie but none of them seem connected and none seem to bare on the other. from the moment he goes mad in his motel room to the moment he drives away from the island of dr. moreau, sheen's character is numb and all of the other characters are reduced to loaded popcorn kernels.. a product of too much anticipation and fear. once they poof, they turn into salty airheads.
is that the message? you're bound to find some rationale into madness if you have enough time and acid?
it's interesting that this was based off of heart of darkness. i remember falling asleep reading that book too but i remember the reference to the skulls on stakes. i remember having to write a five page analysis on keys. i have no memory of keys in the books but apparently my teacher thought it was worth writing about.
and that's another thing.. why call the movie apocalypse now? why not call it what it was.. "a very very long journey into prescribed madness". what? too long of a title?
this helps explain why i was so bitter after staying up to watch it.
in responding to encyclops post, i can understand the appreciation.
movies today are lacking any emotional adventure. they just don't take the time to
truly unwind your head.. instead they just flash eye candy in front of you over and over again for about an hour and a half. and even the movies that are intellectually intelligent barely
scratch the surface of your psyche.
but my problem with apocalypse now was it's shallow approach to the real journey into madness. i'll have to admit, i expected it to be a bit more raw and gruesome. i expected it to be a movie about the vietnam war. but it wasn't. i had no idea what this movie was about when we first started watching it. i had heard the name of the movie many times before but had only a few assumptions about it.
my criticism is in the fact that the setting of the vietnam war was the catch-all answer to the madness that ensues with each character. no one instance seems to matter, causality isn't in the film. so many "acts" are performed throughout the movie but none of them seem connected and none seem to bare on the other. from the moment he goes mad in his motel room to the moment he drives away from the island of dr. moreau, sheen's character is numb and all of the other characters are reduced to loaded popcorn kernels.. a product of too much anticipation and fear. once they poof, they turn into salty airheads.
is that the message? you're bound to find some rationale into madness if you have enough time and acid?
it's interesting that this was based off of heart of darkness. i remember falling asleep reading that book too but i remember the reference to the skulls on stakes. i remember having to write a five page analysis on keys. i have no memory of keys in the books but apparently my teacher thought it was worth writing about.
and that's another thing.. why call the movie apocalypse now? why not call it what it was.. "a very very long journey into prescribed madness". what? too long of a title?
Monday, July 19, 2004
apocalypse now
i just spent like two and a half hours watching apocalypse now.
waoh.. what a fucking waste of time.
i'm so pissed.
movies from that era are all the same.. long, drawn out scripts of nothingness...
kinda like a really long, boring, messed up, bad dream.
waoh.. what a fucking waste of time.
i'm so pissed.
movies from that era are all the same.. long, drawn out scripts of nothingness...
kinda like a really long, boring, messed up, bad dream.
Friday, July 9, 2004
oh golden arches
McDonald's hit with fat lawsuit
wtf. stop picking on mcdonalds. when i see things like this, it pisses me off.
the last thing i want, is for those carb-cutting, fruit-only nuts to control how we eat.
when you go to mcdonalds, you know what you're getting. you know what will happen to you if you continue to eat there on a regular basis. and if you don't know now, you will after three weeks of eating there.
i'd hate to end up in a world of cardboard flavored food. and have other's people's beauty and health standards become mandated upon me. which actually has already happened.
i mean when i was 20-30 pounds heavier, i felt just fine about myself. it wasn't until i was continually ridiculed and made to feel as if there was something wrong about myself, that i did begin to feel as if i needed to lose weight. and now, i can't gain five pounds without truly freaking out... for fear of hating myself.
in my head, i think that it's okay to be above anorexic weight levels. it's okay if we can't see your rib cage. it's okay if there's actually a person there. it's okay to be "overweight". I think you're allowed to set a lifestyle for yourself that YOU are comfortable with... better to be a size 16 than a size NEVER f-ing good enough.
decadence is a luxury we americans have. so why shouldn't we be entitled to it. if we want our animal fat fried fries, let us eat it. if we actually want sugar in our cakes, let us have it.
i understand the article is actually a lawsuit about misrepresentation and not obesity. but it's the concept of the ideals which have made this even an issue for mcdonalds that really winds me up.
i don't want economic/profit failures due to health FADS (and yes, that's what they are) to buckle the golden arches into health frenzy submission.
gawd, can you imagine pulling into a drive-through and saying, "I'd like a large salad, hold everything but the lettuce. And a side of biggy-carrots."
the definition of decadence is a process, condition, or period of deterioration or decline; decay. if you engage in unhealthy behavior, it will result in an unhealthy lifestyle. if you dabble in unhealthy behavior, you're bound to taste the frosting. we should be teaching people about moderation.. it's the best method of having everything of what you want.
wtf. stop picking on mcdonalds. when i see things like this, it pisses me off.
the last thing i want, is for those carb-cutting, fruit-only nuts to control how we eat.
when you go to mcdonalds, you know what you're getting. you know what will happen to you if you continue to eat there on a regular basis. and if you don't know now, you will after three weeks of eating there.
i'd hate to end up in a world of cardboard flavored food. and have other's people's beauty and health standards become mandated upon me. which actually has already happened.
i mean when i was 20-30 pounds heavier, i felt just fine about myself. it wasn't until i was continually ridiculed and made to feel as if there was something wrong about myself, that i did begin to feel as if i needed to lose weight. and now, i can't gain five pounds without truly freaking out... for fear of hating myself.
in my head, i think that it's okay to be above anorexic weight levels. it's okay if we can't see your rib cage. it's okay if there's actually a person there. it's okay to be "overweight". I think you're allowed to set a lifestyle for yourself that YOU are comfortable with... better to be a size 16 than a size NEVER f-ing good enough.
decadence is a luxury we americans have. so why shouldn't we be entitled to it. if we want our animal fat fried fries, let us eat it. if we actually want sugar in our cakes, let us have it.
i understand the article is actually a lawsuit about misrepresentation and not obesity. but it's the concept of the ideals which have made this even an issue for mcdonalds that really winds me up.
i don't want economic/profit failures due to health FADS (and yes, that's what they are) to buckle the golden arches into health frenzy submission.
gawd, can you imagine pulling into a drive-through and saying, "I'd like a large salad, hold everything but the lettuce. And a side of biggy-carrots."
the definition of decadence is a process, condition, or period of deterioration or decline; decay. if you engage in unhealthy behavior, it will result in an unhealthy lifestyle. if you dabble in unhealthy behavior, you're bound to taste the frosting. we should be teaching people about moderation.. it's the best method of having everything of what you want.
Thursday, July 8, 2004
kerry-LANDSLIDE!
i don't post much anymore.. i had come up with a really good excuse but i have forgotten it.
something about pointless entries about my pointless life... etc.
but that's not so interesting. my life right now is work, ffxi, work, catching up with friends via cell phone, and paying bills. oh yeah, i occasionally do chores too. but we're kind of not into that right now. too much gaming. massive multi-player online games are almost like a second life you come home to.. with its own set of chore, jobs, and stress related issues. i don't know why i would pick that as my pass time..but oh well.. it is.
i've decided that i'm physically friendless. i have but maybe two friends i actually interact with face to face. actually, it's pretty much down to one since the other one i see online more than in person. all of my other contacts are by phone, email, or messenger. i'm digital. if i could only work from home, i'd just become my computer.
work has gotten pretty slow over the past few months. luckily, i have found internet radio to save me from the monotony. i have fallen in love with al'fraken of the O'franken factor and randi rhodes of the randi rhodes show. my office manager, trish, introduced me to airamericaradio.com. at first, i thought she said radio america so that's what i tuned into.. whew.. after three hours of listening to that crap i almost had a fit. luckily, i found out that i was on the wrong site.
anyhow, i listen to the o'franken factor from 11am to 2pm.. then i listen to the randi rhodes show from 2pm to 6pm. then it's usually time to go home.. so it really helps me get through the day.
i ended up seeing fahrenheit 9/11 three times. i plan on seeing it again if my brother hasn't seen it. i really loved it. i agree that it was rather sensationalist as my friend pointed out...but it really shows the american public that it shouldn't always rely on fox news for the truth. plus, it was just good film making. i think the reason people often criticize this film for its lack of direction is that this isn't a story. this isn't a documentary about proving a point or dis-proving something. i don't think he needs to make one coherent point at all. this isn't a debate he 's engaging in. he's expressing his mind and the minds of so many other people who want the rest of the public to be aware... to not just blindly follow their leaders and anchormen. he's saying, guess what folks, they, your trusted leaders, aren't afraid to lie to your face. the people you count on for factual news or to tell the whole objective truth, don't give a damn outside of ratings and what sells best to the public. wake up. wake up. wake up. i think moore doesn't care if you trust what he has to say. i think he wants you to find out for yourself..
repeat after me folks! kerry- LANDSLIDE! kerry-LANDSLIDE! kerry-LANDSLIDE!
and since i know i won't post for awhile (even though i will mean to) i'll add some useless facts about myself as i am now.
-i like to drink diet coke with lime
-my favorite candy snack is Sour Patch soft and chewy candy-Watermelon flavor
-i drink a small carton of oj in the morning.
-i eat pbj, baked ranch doritos, and five snackwell vanilla sandwich cookies for lunch during work.
-it takes me roughly 20-30 minutes to get to and from work every day.
-i usually try to make my social phone calls while i'm driving. (yes, i'm one of those people..but hey, i use a hands free headset if that helps)
-i have entered an architectural competition with my friend in nyc
-i need to go play ffxi.
chow...
something about pointless entries about my pointless life... etc.
but that's not so interesting. my life right now is work, ffxi, work, catching up with friends via cell phone, and paying bills. oh yeah, i occasionally do chores too. but we're kind of not into that right now. too much gaming. massive multi-player online games are almost like a second life you come home to.. with its own set of chore, jobs, and stress related issues. i don't know why i would pick that as my pass time..but oh well.. it is.
i've decided that i'm physically friendless. i have but maybe two friends i actually interact with face to face. actually, it's pretty much down to one since the other one i see online more than in person. all of my other contacts are by phone, email, or messenger. i'm digital. if i could only work from home, i'd just become my computer.
work has gotten pretty slow over the past few months. luckily, i have found internet radio to save me from the monotony. i have fallen in love with al'fraken of the O'franken factor and randi rhodes of the randi rhodes show. my office manager, trish, introduced me to airamericaradio.com. at first, i thought she said radio america so that's what i tuned into.. whew.. after three hours of listening to that crap i almost had a fit. luckily, i found out that i was on the wrong site.
anyhow, i listen to the o'franken factor from 11am to 2pm.. then i listen to the randi rhodes show from 2pm to 6pm. then it's usually time to go home.. so it really helps me get through the day.
i ended up seeing fahrenheit 9/11 three times. i plan on seeing it again if my brother hasn't seen it. i really loved it. i agree that it was rather sensationalist as my friend pointed out...but it really shows the american public that it shouldn't always rely on fox news for the truth. plus, it was just good film making. i think the reason people often criticize this film for its lack of direction is that this isn't a story. this isn't a documentary about proving a point or dis-proving something. i don't think he needs to make one coherent point at all. this isn't a debate he 's engaging in. he's expressing his mind and the minds of so many other people who want the rest of the public to be aware... to not just blindly follow their leaders and anchormen. he's saying, guess what folks, they, your trusted leaders, aren't afraid to lie to your face. the people you count on for factual news or to tell the whole objective truth, don't give a damn outside of ratings and what sells best to the public. wake up. wake up. wake up. i think moore doesn't care if you trust what he has to say. i think he wants you to find out for yourself..
repeat after me folks! kerry- LANDSLIDE! kerry-LANDSLIDE! kerry-LANDSLIDE!
and since i know i won't post for awhile (even though i will mean to) i'll add some useless facts about myself as i am now.
-i like to drink diet coke with lime
-my favorite candy snack is Sour Patch soft and chewy candy-Watermelon flavor
-i drink a small carton of oj in the morning.
-i eat pbj, baked ranch doritos, and five snackwell vanilla sandwich cookies for lunch during work.
-it takes me roughly 20-30 minutes to get to and from work every day.
-i usually try to make my social phone calls while i'm driving. (yes, i'm one of those people..but hey, i use a hands free headset if that helps)
-i have entered an architectural competition with my friend in nyc
-i need to go play ffxi.
chow...
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