witch cupcakes

so i threw a little office halloween party on monday. i made these little witch cupcakes for them. i saw the cupcake in a craft magazine and so i tried it out. i wish i had taken pictures of the layout i did at the office. all of the witches had their hats on and i put them each on a halloween pumpkin plate. i then added candy and treats around them.

so here they are. my little witches. the last picture of the army of witches shows them without their hats on which isn't as impressive. the eyes are made out of red mini-M&Ms, the nose is a candy corn, and the mouth, eye brows and hair are made out of black licorice. i was supposed to use the pull apart stringy kind buy they didn't have any at our grocery store. i used food coloring to make the vanilla icing green. the cupcake itseslf is chocolate devil's food cake.

the roof is still on fire

i was watching the news last night and they were showing clips of the blazes in california. it's absolutely terrifying. i don't know what to say about it all. it's like hearing about someone's bad dream. there's absolutely nothing you can do to make it all just go away. i feel fortunate. outside, the sky is clear, the sun is shining, and the air is cool with a slight breeze. it's so easy to take it all for granted.

ferret trap

jerms is nuts. he wants us to add two more to our family. two ferrets. weenie rats.
he's always wanted one and even bought a book about them back when we were in college. now one of his friends is offering two of them away, including all of their cages and supplies.

i'm thinking. no, we don't need any more kids.

he's thinking, aren't they cute?

shiver

brrrr.
the thermostat was set to 50!

sweaters

i should have worn a large sweater today. i doubt it's even under 70 degrees in this office but i'm freezing. a cold front has swept in this week so we'll be experiencing lows in the 50s. brrrrr. :)

i get cold very easiliy. i'm dreaming of my nice warm comforter at home. i'm thinking i need to bunch myself up in it.

it's not yet cold enough to pull out the hot chocolate.

the lights of california

we always assumed california would float away. instead, it seems as if it's going to burn away.
what a horrific ordeal they must be going through. a friend of mine sent me some pictures to look at. there was ash over everything and the sky was just looming with firelight. it's something you have absolutely no control over.. kind like a hurricane but the damage is done slowly to you.


weird. texas isn't really hit by any severe weather. we get the occasional hurricane threat but nothing really happens. flooding is our greatest problems but it's nothing like mid-country.

i guess we have heat but since we're also known for our giant AC units, the dangered is null. so i guess our greatest danger is ignorance and blind faith.

p.s. happy belated bday to octo.

p.p.s. my witch cupcakes to be posted later.

absolute zero

i don't trust anyone.
i'm so paranoid.

the bosses are out of town today. they went off to try and do some fund raising for the project i'm working on.

sooo. we all took the opportunity to take a lunch in the park today. four of us went to einstein bagels and got some lunch then drove out to the park across from our office.
i got some soup and a bag of chips to add the pbj i brought with me.

we sat down and ate our lunches and talked about work and the crazy kids that were around us. there was this one kid that was dressed up like spider man. i guess he was too impatient to wait till halloween. or maybe it's not a halloween costume. maybe the kid really was spidy. heh.

anyhow, some bees tried to attack us. i think the drinks they got from einstein were very sweet and attracted the stupid insects.

i happened to get a glimpse of my office manager's screen this morning. she has her resolution set very low so everything is giant sized on her screen. she was typing up an email this morning and got up and left. i was up near her desk looking for envelopes. the email was to some acquaintance of hers. she was writing about how beautiful a day it was outside. i looked up and saw her walking with a friend of hers who works in the office across from ours through the window. i was thinking how lovely it was that she was taking advantage of such a great day. i wished i was outside walking with a friend. she then wrote, how lovely and peaceful today was and that the bosses were out of town. i couldn't agree more. while i really like my bosses, things are just a 100 times more intense when they're here. i think it's because they carry with them an overwhelming sense of presence and authority. another things, is that they carry with them their problems. if they're having a bad day or if there is trouble with a client, we all feel it. it's not completely overt but you sense their impatience.

but that's not going to happen today. nope. they're off in lufkin, texas trying to gather a couple million dollars. i did get an email though with a thorough list of things that i could be working on today from one of the bosses. the annoying part was that i had already initiated the work yesterday. it's as if they think we're all going to go out and party while they're gone. hey. not a bad idea.

but damn. today is a beautiful day....for texas anyhow.

you're a loser baby

hmmm.. so i can't seem to make any friends.
i can't decide if it is due to my lack of social skills or
the fact that i must annoy people to death.

but what is a friend anyhow? right? is it someone who you can count on? is it someone who
can understand or sympathize with you? or is it just someone you can have fun with? or is it someone who makes you laugh? or someone who you can just sit still with?

i have a hard time with the definition of friendship because at times i take my expectations too far. at least, that's what i used to do. now, whenever i make a friend, i pretty much assume that it's just a temporary situation.

my father used to tell me that friends will come and go but family will always be there. i used to think he was crazy. there was no way my best friends and i would ever go our separate ways. truly though, they have all gone. not a single one of my so-called best friends are even on speaking terms with me. it's not like we had a huge fight and walked away. we just always grow apart.
i lack what other girls are looking for in a girl friend and i don't quite fit in with the whole male bonding. i am quasi-gender less and i guess that means i relate hardly to any one sex in particular.

i still remember finding out from my friends in the fifth grade that they became my friends because the teacher asked them to. apparently my mother told the teacher that i was depressed because i had no friends, so the teacher got some girls to become friends with me. it was not one of the highlights of my life.

i don't know why, but i've always had a desire to be friends with females. i try so hard to latch onto them but i just don't stick. men are much easier for me to befriend. maybe it's a competition thing or maybe i just don't have what it takes. i remember my best friend in high school. i really really wanted so much to be her friend. she was star quality in my eyes and i was so happy when we became best friends. then, i must have been too overbearing because she started to claim that she needed more space. perhaps i try to consume too much, too fast. i also begin to desire them which i attribute to being bi. girls are just delicious creatures. every part of their body is absolutely delectable. if i were a man, i'd totally be a player. :)

i digress, so now i'm sitting here in my room about to start playing some wolf et. i'm thinking of the few acquaintances and friends i have left...and wonder if maybe this is as good as it gets.

who knows.