yup. if you thought diablo two was addictive.. add the MMORPG aspect to it and what you got is gaming crack cocaine. hehe.
been leveling my night elf druid. ganking some major horde.
doing mmorpgs (massive multi-player online role playing games) is an entire lifestyle change. you seriously forgo everything in "reality" and submerse yourself into the gaming world. i can spend all freaking day long playing online. blizzard did a really good job too with creating an intriguing world to hook you into. FFXI (final fantasy XI) was good but it was way too tedious. world of warcraft takes all the tediousness out.
finally got my eyes checked today. haven't been to the optometrist in like years. my prescription is the same so that's good. i'm getting cool new glasses too. i got hazel colored contacts and clear ones. i love insurance. :)
tomorrow i'm going to the dentist. its been two years. i have a serious phobia of dentist appointments. the hygienist always rips my mouth apart. i'm praying for no cavities. i guess we'll see. i guess the bright side of the dentist appointment is that i get to take off of work for a morning.
work is really kicking my ass. i need to retire as soon as possible.
oh well. time to go design an amphitheater. yeah. :P
Sunday, January 30, 2005
Saturday, January 22, 2005
it's always weird to start these back up when you've been gone for so long. i hate playing catch up, so i won't. i dont' really owe anyone any explanations for my absence except for myself. i let myself get caught up in stupid notions of productivity. eh.. whatever.
yesterday i went out with two of my friends. i had an entire mexican martini shaker by myself. oy. i won't be doing that again for a long time. i was just so completely frustrated from work. i was so angry. i knew i needed some kind of antidote to make all my hatred go away. it worked. my frustration was replaced by a massive headache! i spent most of today staring into space trying to figure out what i want to do with the rest of my life. actually, i spent most of the day trying to figure out if it is even necessary to figure out some sort of life-plan. can't we just simply act and do? if we simply just let life happen, will we end up regretting that we didn't spend more time contemplating our actions and their reactions?
when you grow up the way i did, you have this notion that things have to turn out a certain way. i'm not talking about marriage or kids or any of that superficial bullshit. i'm talking about how you feel about your life and where it's going. i always thought i'd be emotionally stable when i grew up. that the more time passed..the more i'd be in control of my state of mind. how wrong i was. i've never been more lost.
you are only young once. only 250 million people out of 6+ billion get to be born an american. shouldn't i be taking advantage of my youth and position in this world? why am i moving through life like there's something better waiting for me tomorrow? Is it true that you have to be miserable today in order to be happy tomorrow?
i've been sick lately. i haven't been able to breathe completely. it's like i'm slowly suffocating. it seems appropriate for my state of mind. drowning....
yesterday i went out with two of my friends. i had an entire mexican martini shaker by myself. oy. i won't be doing that again for a long time. i was just so completely frustrated from work. i was so angry. i knew i needed some kind of antidote to make all my hatred go away. it worked. my frustration was replaced by a massive headache! i spent most of today staring into space trying to figure out what i want to do with the rest of my life. actually, i spent most of the day trying to figure out if it is even necessary to figure out some sort of life-plan. can't we just simply act and do? if we simply just let life happen, will we end up regretting that we didn't spend more time contemplating our actions and their reactions?
when you grow up the way i did, you have this notion that things have to turn out a certain way. i'm not talking about marriage or kids or any of that superficial bullshit. i'm talking about how you feel about your life and where it's going. i always thought i'd be emotionally stable when i grew up. that the more time passed..the more i'd be in control of my state of mind. how wrong i was. i've never been more lost.
you are only young once. only 250 million people out of 6+ billion get to be born an american. shouldn't i be taking advantage of my youth and position in this world? why am i moving through life like there's something better waiting for me tomorrow? Is it true that you have to be miserable today in order to be happy tomorrow?
i've been sick lately. i haven't been able to breathe completely. it's like i'm slowly suffocating. it seems appropriate for my state of mind. drowning....
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